Horses for Courses

The roar of the crowd was deafening, a swell of sound erupting around her, encompassing her, lifting her up... At the same time it was distant, only a small buzz in the back of her brain against the sound of hooves on turf, the jangle of metal, the slapp of the leathers. And then a gasp, the crash of poles, and the scream of pain that wouldn't stop--

Kate sat bolt upright, heart pounding, listening to the bleat of the phone on the bedside table. After a few seconds she scooped it up, pressing one hand to her forehead as she held the handset to her ear. "Yeah?"

"This is your six a.m. wakeup call, ma'am, as you requested."

"Oh. Right. Thanks."

She was at the track by seven thirty, just in time for the first morning workouts to begin. Sitting huddled in the stands with her coffee cup and stopwatch she watched as the young horses danced onto the track, tossing their heads and skittering sideways, almost floating in their adolescent high spirits. She was so intent on their movements - was Rigo favoring his left fore a little? Was that a misstep on Scarlet's part or just nerves? - that she didn't realise she had company until she felt the seat next to her give a little.

"How're they doing?" Susie asked, her tone light in spite of the late night Kate knew she'd had over at the country club.

"Oh, just goofing around... kids, you know. I've asked for a half-mile breeze today, so that should be interesting."

"Let me know how they get on then. Look, I should run, John wants me up for breakfast, but before I do he asked me to talk to you again about his idea..."

Kate's normally-serious expression grew even grimmer. "Suze, listen, it's not that I don't understand the reason behind it, but you have to realise how abhorrent the whole thing is to me."

"I do, you know I do," Susie said, reaching to rest her hand on Kate's knee. "But John... he says that with Lotus almost ready to race, he doesn't want anything tarring her reputation. He says we need some good publicity."

"You'll get plenty of good publicity once she starts wiping up the competition. I really don't see why I have to enter into this at all - just let my work speak for me."

"Kate... please? For me? I swear it won't be for more than a week or so - the magazine are being really cooperative and positive-sounding, John said, not exploitative at all..."

The trainer gave a heavy sigh, turning slightly towards the other woman. "Sure," she said, trying not to sound completely pissed off and resigned to her fate. "You gave me the chance that got me back in the game - I guess I owe you."

Susie beamed, leaning in quickly to press a brief kiss to Kate's cheek. "Thank you so much," she said. "I really appreciate it - I know we shouldn't have to do this, but John thinks it will really help."

"Mm. I guess we'll see," Kate said, covering the other woman's hand with her own and giving it a squeeze. "So what should I expect - some intern from New York who's going to follow me around, human-interest style?"

"Actually, the magazine said they wanted to get someone in specially, so I'm not sure, but I think you'll get someone a bit more seasoned than that. Which, I mean, that's hopefully a good thing, right? They won't be trying to make their name off you or anything..."

"Yeah, hopefully." Kate's attention was caught by movement on the track and she turned away quickly, raising her stopwatch. "They're starting. I really gotta watch this. I'll see you later, yeah?"

"Absolutely. Let me know how it goes - we'll meet after lunch?"

Kate was already leaning forward, rapt, her eyes on the pack of horses currently flying round the track. "Mmhmm... sure."

Chuckling, Susie took her leave. She knew better than to try to vie for Kate's attention when it came to horses.

 

"So the thing is, racehorses are kinda like... I dunno, pears or whatever. Or kiwi fruit. No matter how good they look, only like one in every dozen you buy is actually really good. It's a massive investment and a huge gamble. You cut back on that investment by pushing them out to race as soon as they're fit for it - two and a half, three years old."

Andy took out her cigarette carton, looking around the table for an ashtray. All she found was a discreet little 'Thank you for not smoking' sign, nestled in what she considered a rather passive aggressive fashion between the salt and pepper shakers and the menu stand.

"We're fuckin' outside," she muttered, but put the carton away, instead turning her attention to the damp label on her condensation-covered beer bottle, short fingernails picking idly at one corner.

"But you race a horse that young, they fuck up their joints, they have a few years in them, and then they're done, old before their time, no good for anything any more.

"Kathryn Roundtree was different because she trained horses for five, even six years before they were allowed on a racetrack. Every one a winner - expensive, mind, double the cost to get them there, but some certainly considered it a worthy investment. She's not the only trainer who works that way, but she turned it into an art."

Andy smirked a little, glancing across at the nervy young man who was furiously typing everything she said onto his sleek little netbook. "So. That pretty much taps me out. That's everything I know about horse training. I understand you were assigned to come along as my intern on this one because horse racing's an interest of yours?"

"Well, uh, gambling of all sorts, actually," he said, bobbing his head in agreement, "but racing, yeah, that's a big part of it. Both from the spectator's side, but also the owner's, like you said. I've seen the figures and it's a rare stable that turns a profit year on year - that's why all those big international conglomerates started forming, edging out the small-time names. It's pretty interesting stuff."

"Sounds it," Andy said, in a tone that suggested she found it anything but. "So John Prince is really going out on a limb, here, then, taking on not only a trainer who will insist his horses spend five years training before they're allowed to compete, but a trainer that was involved in a high-profile doping scandal. The mere fact she's able to work again is a cause for raised eyebrows."

"You think she's up to her old tricks again?" the intern - Dylan - said, looking somewhat shocked (and titillated). "That's pretty risky business..."

"Now be careful what you say, kid - remember that those allegations were never actually proven. And... no, I wouldn't have thought so. But that stain isn't gone. There's a lot riding on that horse. So to speak."

"Right, so it's... Prince's Blue Lotus, yeah?" he asked, glancing at his notes. "Coming five years old, bloodlines trace back to Native Dancer... and she's really never raced before?"

"Not once. But the scuttlebutt is her track times are extraordinary."

"I guess they'd have to be, for this story to be worth covering." He glanced up and grimaced belatedly. "Sorry, I just mean... do you really think there's a story here?"

"Honestly?" Andy leaned back in her seat, reaching for her cigarettes again automatically before cursing and going back to her beer label. "I think this is a piece of fluff. But I'm being paid a fortune to write it - the reporter who brought Roundtree down, blew the Walker affair open and shook the racing world to its core returns for a retrospective on the eve of the unveiling of Blue Lotus... it should basically write itself. There doesn't have to be a story. In honesty I hope there isn't - I fuckin' hate LA."

"At least it's sunny?" Dylan hazarded with a hopeful smile.

"Don't start with me, kid. You want to go find somewhere comfy with free wi-fi and do some research on the Princes? I need to go set up a meeting with her Majesty Ms Roundtree."

"Sure, no problem. You've got my cell number - just text me if you need anything."

As Dylan took his leave, Andy sat forward again, slouching a little as she pulled out her phone, staring at the brand new number she'd been given that morning along with the confirmation that the story was a 'go'. It wouldn't be Roundtree's, presumably, but that of a secretary. Indeed, she'd never actually spoken to Kate Roundtree, despite their fairly extensive dealings at one time; nor had they met face to face. This should be interesting.

 

"OhGod, OhGod, OhKate... ohGod..." The slim blonde woman trembled, whimpered, and clung to Kate in her version of an explosive orgasm, long nails pressing through the trainer's thin plaid shirt to leave indentations along her shoulders and back. Kate supported her for a few moments, then drew back her hand, causing the socialite to shiver and press closer, her lips seeking the warm skin of her throat.

Not every after-lunch meeting with Susanna Prince ended this way - sometimes they were all business, discussing lap times and sponsorship deals and feed prices as the eager young woman lapped up new pieces of information about the horse-racing industry. Nowadays it was only when Susanna felt ignored or taken advantage of by her high-powered husband that she turned to Kate for 'comfort', and the trainer was far too shrewd to turn her away despite the dangerous line they trod. She knew what side her bread was buttered on, and Susanna was the one who held the knife.

She was just leaning in to give the other woman a perfunctory kiss when a knock came at the locked office door. "Uh, yeah?" she asked, straightening up and clearing her throat. "What is it?"

"There's a call for you," came the reply from Jamie, the office-slash-barn manager who knew almost every detail of the sordid affair; luckily she was just as dedicated to keeping the secret as Kate. "That reporter's trying to arrange a meeting."

"Oh, damn, right... just tell her to come by tomorrow morning? I'll find some time somewhere."

"Got it. Oh, and John's on his way down from the club; he called ahead to ask for Lotus to be saddled up - apparently he's got Kevin Masters with him."

Kate bit back a litany of annoyance; this was far from the first time John Prince had swanned in, interrupting her training schedule to suit his whims. "Waitaminute... Masters? God, he's that hack from Santa Anita, isn't he? He's not planning on letting him ride?"

"Didn't ask. But he said to saddle her up."

"Yeah, all right." As Kate stepped back to straighten her shirt she considered the balance of things - she usually didn't get much action during these encounters, and even without Jamie's interruption today probably wouldn't have been any different. Susanna herself had even professed several times that she wasn't gay, which perhaps was true, or perhaps was just a way for her to get out of reciprocating sex; either way, Kate rarely got off nowadays, seeing as any time she actually tried to date anybody Susanna suddenly grew possessive, insisting that she keep her time free for 'Prince family business'.

Still, when would you find the time, really? she told herself grimly, mentally tamping down the instinctive responses coursing through her body from their encounter. And besides, hadn't she put herself in this situation? She had seen her 'in' with Susannah Prince, and had taken it in full knowledge of the ongoing risk and frustration it might entail. It was worth it to be able to work again.

Speaking of which... "I've gotta go get Lotus ready - you going to come watch?" she asked, keeping her voice light, having long-since perfected the art of dancing around John's undeniable presence in everything.

"Aw, I'd love to but I think I'm going to go shower and change," Susie said with a rather careful smile. "I'll see you later?"

"Yeah, of course."

 

By the time Kate made it to the stables, Lotus was saddled and ready, and John Prince had arrived, the diminutive man with him presumably Kevin Masters, who Kate only vaguely recognised.

"John, hi," she greeted him, shoving her hands in her pockets to forestall any hand-shaking. "I see you've brought a guest today."

"Mm, well, Kevin's in town and we were having lunch, and I thought, well, why not? We haven't settled on anyone for Lotus yet."

"I thought we were in talks with Brian O'Shea - he handled her beautifully when he was out last week."

"Oh, yeah, the Irish guy... well, no harm in Kevin taking her for a turn too, huh?" John said with one of his beaming smiles.

"Well, you know, I really prefer to keep to the scheduled workouts whenever possible and this is a quiet day for her..."

John's brow twitched a little, though his smile didn't shift. "Oh, come on, she won't mind a quick go round, will she?"

"A slow go round, maybe," Kate allowed, pulling her hands out of her pockets and making her way over to the Thoroughbred, who was standing quietly while they had their discussion. A tall, rangy mare, her steel-grey coat just beginning to lighten into snowflake-like dapples, Lotus was nothing too special to look at - standing still, at least. Out on the track was a different story, one that spoke of centuries of careful breeding and a love of the pure abandon of running. "No less than a minute thirty for the mile."

Kevin smirked a little. Kate wanted to slap him. "I'll do my best."

Masters' best was nowhere near good enough - Kate stood by the gate, scowling, as he took the mare through her paces out on the track. He wasn't abominable, but he possessed none of the nuance or sensitivity that she liked to see in the hands guiding her horses around the track. "No, no," she remarked as Lotus tossed her head rounding the short stretch, "you idiot, can't you see she hates that? Fuck's sake..."

John, of course, had no idea, approaching and giving Masters a hearty clap as the slight man dismounted and passed the reins to the stablehand. "What do you think?" he asked. Masters' eyes flickered past Kate's - he wasn't so blind to his own ability, apparently, that he didn't know when he was out of his depth. He knew Lotus wasn't for him.

"Oh... not bad..." he said cagily.

With a snort Kate turned away, bending to run her hands over the horse's legs, then straightening to stroke her neck firmly. "Give her a bath," she instructed the groom, Lori, "and make sure she's walked for at least half an hour. We'll have to rejig her schedule this week - I'll come by later to discuss it with you."

Lori nodded, glad to be able to escape what was becoming a decidedly charged atmosphere.

Turning back to the two men, Kate folded her arms over her chest. "You were too quick," she told the jockey then. "I said a minute thirty, but I clocked you at one twenty seven."

Kevin just smirked. "Guess I have the need for speed," he said with a wink.

Kate managed an icy smile. "Well. I'm sure you both have much more important things to be doing, now."

John Prince's look was a little warning, but he had rearranged his face into a serene smile when he turned to look at Masters. "Come up to the house for a drink?"

"Love to."

_Good riddance._ Kate watched them go with a mixture of relief and trepidation - she could tell this wasn't over yet. _But I won't go down without a fight._

 

Andy wasn't a massive fan of interviews at the best of times. Interviews with people she'd previously exposed for illegal practices... well, she'd never done it before today, but she felt even less positive about that prospect. And the weather? Well, that was just the icing on the cake.

The Southern California sun was shining intensely even at ten a.m.; the temperature had to be upwards of eighty degrees. Andy much preferred the cool dampness of New England, but here she was, and she hoped she'd be away before her pale skin started to suffer for it.

She made her way through the stableyard slightly randomly - the woman she had spoken to had given her directions to the correct 'block' but she hadn't written them down and now she was somewhat turned around. Everywhere she looked were signs of industry, people shovelling out stalls, horses being led to and fro, an incomprehensible babble of equine terminology being thrown around like another language. Andy waited until she spotted someone who looked vaguely idle and approached, narrowly missing a pile of dung in the middle of the aisle. Lovely.

"Excuse me, you couldn't happen to direct me to the Prince stables, could you?" she asked the young man, who straightened up slightly as she spoke to him.

"Yeah, uh, it's just down that way and a couple of rows along - the big barn, you can't miss it."

The 'big barn' in question certainly did stand out; it was easily twice the size of the stables around it and obviously built specially. It too was a hive of activity, with people dressed in smart polo shirts moving efficiently all about the place and taking little notice of her, which raised her hackles for a moment. Don't they know to expect me?. Eventually she made her way to what looked to be a small office set in place of several of the stalls - indeed, the plaque on the door read 'Prince Stables Office' - and knocked firmly on it.

"C'mon in," came the cheerful response from within.

It wasn't Kate Roundtree behind the desk but a young woman with a light coffee complexion and a bright demeanour that radiated health in a way that would be obnoxious if she wasn't so instantly likeable. She got up from her desk and rounded it immediately, reaching her hand out toward Andy with a smile.

"You must be Ms Driver," she said. "I'm Jamie Smith, the Princes' Office and Stable Manager."

"Good to meet you. I'm sorry, am I early? I was expecting to meet with Kate Roundtree here..."

"Oh, no, you're not too early, but Kate's not here," the young woman said, shaking her head. "She doesn't come to the office until late afternoon, usually. But I can take you to her, if you like."

"Oh, right... well, sure, I mean, thanks, if that's okay."

"Sure, no problem." Jamie gave her a sunny smile and gestured for Andy to follow her. "C'mon, it's this way."

She led the reporter back out into the barn, confidently striding down the aisle and nodding to grooms and other workers as they passed. There actually weren't that many horses in the barn that Andy could see, which struck her as slightly odd - why build a big fancy barn if you weren't going to fill it up?

Eventually they turned and went through one of the large, arched doorways towards one of the smaller buildings arranged alongside the barn. "We call this the Spa," Jamie told her with a conspiratorial smile. "You'll see why."

If anyone had asked Andy if horses could swim, she would've had to think long and hard about it before replying a dubious maybe. But as she stepped into the 'Spa' she was immediately faced with evidence that horses indeed could and did swim, albeit in fancier digs than her own gym. A long ramp led down into a pristine-looking pool, which was currently being churned up by a large horse on a lead, held by a young man on one side of the pool. Currents of water coming from jets along the short end must've given it enough resistance to swim against, and it didn't seem to be perturbed by this strange exercise in the slightest.

"...okay, good, just a few more minutes and we can call it a day," came the instructions in a woman's voice - the accent unmistakeably Bostonian. Andy looked up to see a face that was surprisingly familiar for someone she had never met: Kate Roundtree, in the flesh, coming towards her.

"Hey, Kate, here's that reporter the Princes arranged," Jamie told her, smiling as she made introductions. "I guess I'll leave you two to it - let me know if you need anything."

Reaching out a hand, Andy shot Kate what she hoped was a friendly-and-easy-going-smile. "Hi, Ms Roundtree. We've never actually met, I don't think. I'm-"

"Andrea Fuckin' Driver. You have got to be kidding me." Kate pulled back the hand she had been extending, her expression darkening. "Is this some kind of sick joke?"

Andy tried to keep her smile in place, though it did falter a little. "The magazine felt it would lend some interest to the story if I wrote it. You didn't know?"

"Do you think I would've agreed to it if I had?" The other woman shook her head, taking a step back from Andy. "Honestly, I hope you've got other stuff planned while you're here because there's no way I'm doing this."

"Oh, come on, Kate-"

"No. Way.. I know I'm being rude here, but I really don't care. Please get off the premises, Ms. Driver."

"No offence, but I'm pretty sure they're not your premises, nor is this story for your benefit... Look, I've obviously thrown you for a loop here, so I'm going to head off for today. But..." Andy made a face, trailed off. "I'm not digging for dirt here, K- Ms Roundtree. It might be easier if we just got it over with."

"I'm not talking to you," Kate said with an emphatic shake of her head, crossing her arms over her chest. "Tell your editor they better find another way to 'add interest' to the story because this way isn't happening."

"All right, all right, I'm going," Andy said, holding her hands up. But I suspect I'll be back.

 

Kate waited until she was sure that the reporter had gone, even calling through to the security gate to make sure her car had departed and then immediately stalked through the barn to the office, confronting the young woman behind the desk. "What the hell, Jamie! Andrea Driver shows up and you just let her swan through the stables? She should've been thrown off the premises as soon as she showed up!"

Jamie looked stricken. "I'm... I'm sorry, Kate, I didn't know, I-"

"You didn't ask? Jesus, of all the people to have on the story... they're a bunch of sick bastards."

"I..." Comprehension seemed to dawn. "Oh, Jesus, Kate, that's... shit, I just had it in my head that that was a guy, and I forgot the name, and when she showed up I didn't even twig, I'm so sorry. It was so long ago - I was just a kid, I didn't remember..."

Leaning back against the wall, Kate sighed and shook her head. "It's fine, it's not your fault. Sorry. I just... was not expecting that. At all."

"So... they just sent her? No one told you?"

"Apparently."

"Right. Um. Yeah. That's not cool."

"And I'm sure John knew," Kate said, her ire rising again. "I bet he thought it'd be hilarious... surprised he wasn't there to see the look on my face."

A flicker of new worry passed Jamie's face as Kate said this. "What are you going to tell him?"

"To fuck off."

 

"You'll do it. We need it. I don't care what's between you; I've been in touch with the magazine and if Driver isn't writing, they aren't buying. And if they aren't buying, we have a problem."

Kate paced across the room, biting her lip to keep from blurting out something that might get her fired. "This is cheap, and you know it. Do you really want to be part of a desperate grab for attention?" she tried finally, turning back to him.

"I want to have a stable that makes a name for itself for something other than former scandal, and that means putting a pin in it. This is how it happens. Come on, Kate, help me out here. How can I make this happen?"

"You're not putting a pin in it, you're pandering," Kate insisted. "You're just drawing attention to it. Do you think people will believe one way or another what some article says? Let the horses speak for themselves, that's all you need to do. You'll have your 'name' soon enough."

John Prince's face hardened. "I'm trying to help you out here. I've put a lot of money into this - any other trainer would have had Lotus on the track years ago. I reckon I could find someone else to see her there now if I needed to."

"Fuck, John, no, you can't do that," Kate said, sounding panicked. I need this, if you take it away from me now I'll have nothing. "Please."

"Well, you leave me with no other choice."

She grimaced. "Fine, okay, I'll do it. On one condition."

John immediately smiled, sitting back in his chair. "Name it."

"I want O'Shea riding in the Classic. Masters doesn't go anywhere near her."

The owner's smile tightened a little, but he nodded. "Done. But you cooperate with Driver. Make it a good one."

"Yeah. We'll see." 'Good' for you isn't going to be much fun for me.

 

Andy hadn't packed. She had only just arrived back at her hotel room, in point of fact, when her cell rang.

"Is this Andy Driver?" Even in clipped, cold tones, the voice was unmistakeable.

Flopping down onto the bed, Andy allowed herself a tiny smirk before rearranging her face into an expression that wouldn't betray her dry amusement. "Ms Roundtree. Yes, it's me."

"I'll do the interview."

Of course you will. "All right. When and where?"

"I have some time on Thursday evening. How long will it take?"

"Well, it's a retrospective. So, I mean, it'd be nice to be able to fill it out, talk a little about what you do now. I've got a pretty big wordcount and I'd like to focus away from dwelling on... past events and looking toward the future."

"So... an hour?"

"I was hoping for something a little more... in depth. A look around the stables, maybe see some of your training sessions. I won't get in the way, I swear - observational stuff is what I do now." I lost the taste for investigative work.

She heard the other woman give a heavy sigh. "Fine, whatever. Come back to the stables on Friday, you can shadow me then."

"So we can chat Thursday evening for an hour, and then a visit on Friday, great - I'll see you then. Dinner's on me - well, the magazine, obviously. The [Posh Hotel] okay? It's where I'm staying."

"No, I... yeah, sure. Fine."

"Great. See you Thursday - seven o' clock."

 

Thursday at seven came around far too quickly for Kate's taste - her usual days passed in a blur although the few hours before her meeting with Driver dragged on annoyingly. She had expected to be in a bad mood the whole time but as usual being around the horses and the people who cared for them cheered her up to no end, and so she found herself approaching the dinner meeting with a surprisingly philosophical frame of mind.

That is, of course, until she entered the hotel restaurant and saw her sitting there.

It was true to say that Andy Driver and Kate had never actually met, but Kate for one had certainly seen plenty of Andy. When the doping story had broken, the investigative reporter responsible for it had been on every specialist panel talking about it - there had even been one or two segments on national news (though the mainstream press had lost interest long before the racing world had). She'd quickly grown to hate the sight of the other woman, her distinctive pale skin with its smattering of freckles across her cheeks, those hazel eyes that should have been warm but somehow always seemed cool to her, her auburn hair shot through with little flecks of silver when she was only in her late twenties. She'd had it in a rather severe short back and sides, then, and with her slim frame would have looked like a freckled schoolboy were it not for the grey; it was longer now, falling around her face in soft layers as far as her jawline, and there was no sign of grey so presumably she now dyed it.

Just the sight of her was enough to set Kate's stomach roiling. So much for enjoying a free meal, then. She approached the table, hands shoved in her pockets, nodding as the other woman noticed her. "Driver."

"Ms Roundtree," Andy replied in her slightly husky tones, making to rise slightly from her seat but then noting Kate's hands in her pockets, and thinking better of a more formal greeting, just nodding and sitting back down, picking up her menu. "How was your trip in?"

"Fine." Kate took a seat, reaching immediately for her water glass and taking a long sip. "Listen, I have to apologise for the way I behaved on Tuesday. It was uncalled for."

The other woman shook her head, barely even glancing over from her menu. "No need. You were blindsided. I'd've done the same."

"Mm." Except you weren't blindsided. They approached you and asked, and you accepted. Which means that there's something you want to get out of this.

"What would you like to drink?" It was a moment before Kate realised the Andy was addressing her, both her and the waiter who'd just arrived at their table waiting for her answer.

"Oh, uh... white wine - the chenin blanc, please," she said, her flawless pronunciation somewhat at odds with her plain clothes and general demeanour.

Pursing her lips back at her menu for a moment, Andy nodded. "That'll work," she said, adding, "A bottle, please," to the waiter.

Kate raised an eyebrow, but then, who was she to judge if the reporter wanted most of a bottle of wine to get through the next hour? Kate needed to be clear-headed but the other woman could be as sloppy as she wanted. "So," she said when the waiter had departed. "Let's get this over with."

"You haven't even chosen your starter yet," Andy replied with a slight smile, meeting Kate's eyes momentarily. She did reach down into her bag, though, retrieving what appeared to be her phone and navigating through a few of its screens, presumably to activate a dictaphone app. "Still, you could tell me how things are going at the stables if you're desperate to talk."

"When is this going to be published?" Kate asked then with a frown.

"Right before Prince's Blue Lotus's debut, I would think."

"Hm. Well, things are going fine." There was a silence. Eventually Kate was unable to prevent herself from looking up to see Andy smiling across at her, looking almost amused.

"You're familiar with the 'interview' format?" she said. "You might want to give me a little more than that."

"For you to do what with, exactly?" Kate couldn't keep the sharpness out of her tone. "How am I supposed to trust you're not going to take whatever I say and use it against me?"

Driver's eyes narrowed a little - not in irritation but in thought, Kate realised. "I'm not out to get you, Kate."

"Excuse me if your word doesn't hold as much weight as you'd like with me."

"Well, I assume you're not doping your horses, so I don't really see how it is you think you're going to incriminate yourself."

"I wasn't doping my horses before!" Kate hissed, leaning forward a little to stare the other woman in the eyes. "But that didn't stop you from reporting that I was."

The other woman's expression flickered a little, almost a flinch. "We don't need to talk about that," she said. Then, "I reported on the evidence. If you still maintain that evidence was wrong, there's nothing I have to say about that. But that's not what I'm here to talk about now. If I wanted to revisit that investigation I could've done it from home."

Kate resisted the urge to grind her teeth. "I want you to retract what you said about me. Before. Otherwise this whole thing's a crock of bullshit."

"I can't do that. And I don't see what difference it makes. You found work again, you were never found guilty. I only ever presented the evidence. That evidence hasn't changed."

"That story nearly ruined my life!"

"And this story should help make it a lot easier."

Kate sat back, crossing her arms and fixing the other woman with a hard look. "You aren't even a sports writer. Anything I say about the stables won't make any sense to you." Andy seemed like she might be able to argue with this assertion, then simply shrugged.

"So explain it to me. Or don't, and I'll look stuff up. This isn't a sports article, really. It's a character study. A human interest piece."

Kate felt a dull pain in her jaw and realised she was grinding her teeth. Where's that wine? "Fine, whatever. So ask your questions."

With an infuriatingly gentle smile, Andy inclined her head. "How are things going at the stables?"

"Like I said, fine. Well, even."

"I m-..." Andy trailed off, her brow furrowing and her slightly upturned nose wrinkling a little in a way that on any other woman Kate might have found cute. "Y'know what, never mind. Let's just have a nice dinner."

"Excuse me?"

"You obviously don't want to talk," Andy said simply. "So let's just eat?"

"In silence?" Kate asked, raising her eyebrows dubiously.

"Well, I can't stay silent for more than about five minutes at a time, so no," Andy said. "But you can be as monosyllabic as you like. I'm not here to force you to talk to me. If this ends up being one massive prose piece musing on the beauty of the Prince Stables and observation on your horse handling, so be it. It'll just take a little longer to put together, that's all."

She had had a lot of expectations of Andy Driver, but the one thing she hadn't expected was that the other woman would be so... reasonable. Kate let out a sigh, shaking her head in a way that could've been viewed as either acquiescence or dismissal. "Fine, whatever. Do you know what you're ordering?"

"Mhm. Oh, and here's our wine, thank Christ. You ready?"

"Sure. Go ahead."

"I'll have the scallops to start, and then the chicken, thanks," Andy said to the young man who'd arrived at their table, who nodded as he poured their wine.

Kate blinked; that had been her order. Was she feeling ornery enough to change it on basic principle? "I'll have the same."

Andy said nothing as the waiter departed, but Kate could swear she was smirking slightly behind her wine glass as she took a small sip. She tried to ignore it - and the twist of annoyance inside - and instead leaned back, cocking her head to observe the other woman.

"So. Ruin any other careers recently?"

Andy put her glass down gently, pursing her lips for a moment as though savouring the flavour. "Not as far as I'm aware," she replied smoothly.

"Hm. Well, that must be a nice change."

"Well, 'Career wrecker' hasn't ever been in my job description, so it's not something I put a great deal of thought into one way or the other, especially."

"Oh, so it was just a nice extra perk, then?"

"Oh, absolutely," the other woman said, her voice still remarkably free of edge, "I have a bucket list to work through. I've yet to make anyone divorce, flee the country or commit suicide, but, y'know, I'm young yet."

"Well, it's good to have goals," Kate replied sarcastically, reaching for her wine.

"What are yours?"

"Oh, you know... not to crash and burn before my big break like the last two times." It came out more seriously than Kate intended, and she looked away for a moment, gathering herself. "That, and replace my piece-of-shit car with something a bit nicer."

Andy just nodded silently at this, delving no further - Kate knew that the other woman knew about her first career, and how badly it had ended, as it had been mentioned in those articles she'd long-since committed to memory back when she'd 'broken' the Walker affair, though it had been more of a passing footnote than anything else. 'Kathryn Roundtree, former Olympic showjumper turned trainer...'

"I was thinking a Porsche, maybe, something obnoxious and flashy. Fast."

"Can't get much hay in one of those."

"Just as well my job's not hay-delivery."

This seemed to put another thought in Andy's mind. "Do you have a horse of your own these days? D'you ride for enjoyment?"

Kate frowned. "No. I don't have time." In truth she hadn't ridden in over fifteen years, though lack of time was the least of the reasons why she avoided it.

The slow, contemplative nod Andy gave at this at once made Kate want to snap at her, but luckily their starters arrived just then, giving both women the perfect excuse to ignore one another for at least a few minutes.

The food was as good as the wine (which was excellent), and it occurred to Kate not for the first time since she'd arrived that she'd probably be having a pleasant enough evening were it not for her company. She's cute, smart, has good taste... too bad about the whole 'hating her guts' thing.

Eventually they finished their starters and were left sipping their wine until the mains arrived. Kate let out a sigh as she sat back in her chair - it had been a while since she had been out to eat like this and the wine was already going to her head, relaxing her despite her best efforts to stay spiky and alert.

"So how do you get along with the Princes?" Andy asked now, the fingers of her free hand tapping idly on the table as she lifted her glass to her lips with the other.

"They're good employers," Kate replied, her words carefully chosen. "They're new to the business but keen to learn, and to prove themselves."

"John Prince struck me as a bit of a... strong character," Andy said tactfully. "Haven't met Susannah - what's she like?"

"She's..." Needy. Vain. Immature. "Very nice."

"Well, that's good, then. Who's more involved with the stables? Or is it a couple thing for them?"

"They, ah, take different roles... John's more the financial side, Suse does more of the day-to-day stuff, I guess."

"He puts up the money, she likes horses?" Andy smirked a little, but it was almost companionable this time, including rather than excluding her companion.

Kate tried to keep from being taken in by this; clearly it was an act meant to get around her guard. "Yeah, something like that."

"Sounds like a neat enough arrangement."

"It's worked thus far."

"So you're enjoying this job?"

It's my life. "Yes, very much. The Princes have been very generous, and I've managed to build up an excellent stable over the past few years."

"High hopes for Blue Lotus, then? Have you found a jockey yet?"

"Mm. I mean yes, Brian O'Shea. He's an up-and-coming young jockey who I'm very excited to be working with."

Andy smiled a little. "I'm not looking for soundbytes, Kate," she said as their main course arrived. "I'm just making conversation, no need to worry too much about what you're saying."

"You're still recording," Kate pointed out, eyes flicking to the phone on the table. "Excuse me if I want to be careful with what I say."

Glancing at the phone, from the expression that crossed Andy's face it would be all too easy to believe she'd honestly forgotten she had the recorder switched on. Reaching for her phone, she not only apparently stopped the device, she actually turned her phone off and put it back in her bag.

Don't believe it. She probably just knows you're onto her and aren't going to give her anything good tonight. "You're not afraid you'll miss a call?" Kate asked dryly.

"If it's important they'll leave a message or call me again," Andy said with a shrug, picking up her fork. "How d'you like LA? Big change from New Jersey."

"I guess so. It's good for the horses, though - you never lose a day due to shitty weather."

"There any other differences in training? Do you have to worry about the heat at all?"

"In the height of summer yeah, we do... we train pretty early most days anyway, but in summer we'll run them at five or six in the morning to beat the heat."

"No late nights for you, then."

"Not really a hardship," Kate said with a smirk.

"No? you don't really partake of LA's glittering social life, then? Am I keeping you out of bed?" Andy added with a returning smirk of her own, raising her an eyebrow.

"Hey, you're the one who agreed to come out tomorrow morning, I'd be more worried about that if I were you."

"Oh? What time are you expecting me?"

"Well, it depends on what you want to see - we'll start running at seven."

Andy winced. "I'll be there."

Kate felt a small triumph at this, and turned her attention to her meal. Well... this could be worse, I guess.

 

The chicken was delicious too. Andy made an appreciative sound at the first mouthful, reaching to top up her wine, hovering the bottle over Kate's glass. "You driving?" she asked.

"It's L.A.," Kate replied with a shrug.

"Hey you could have a taxi, or some handsome young stud to pick you up," Andy quipped.

Kate smirked. "Well, my truck's outside, and it prefers girls." A moment later she realised what she had said and tried not to look worried. It's not like it's exactly a huge secret, right? And why would she print that anyway? Who cares?

Andy blinked. For a moment, Kate thought she'd broken the other woman's cool. Then she only said, "What kind of truck?"

"A Toyota Tacoma. Jamie calls it 'the ugly truck'," Kate said fondly.

"That's quite a name to live up to."

"Trust me, it does. I bought it cheap off this teenager who did it up all 'cool'... it's truly hideous."

Andy chuckled. "I'll look forward to my first viewing."

"Oh, you think you're going to get to ride in it? Not everybody is so lucky..."

The other woman's expression flickered, just slightly. "Oh, I wasn't expecting more than an outside view," she said evenly. "I mean, I don't know what sort of girls your truck likes..."

Is she flirting? No, can't be... "I don't think it even remembers anymore."

Andy tipped her head to one side a little. "Yeah? Well, ebbs and flows, right?" she said, almost gently.

"Doesn't really matter - as discussed, I don't tend to have a lot of free time for socialising. I'd rather spend it with the horses, anyway. People can be... difficult."

"No fucking kidding," Andy said with a smirk. "Now I don't know whether to feel bad for ugly truck or not."

"Feel bad for it when I replace it with something slick and sexy," Kate told her, "not before. It's pretty resigned to its lot."

"Ah, you know you'll keep it - especially if you buy a Porsche or something equally impractical. I replaced my old Chevy pick-up with BMW 1-Series a few years back and I still have it sitting in the garage at my mom's place."

"Oh yeah? Just in case you get the urge to do some off-roading?" Kate said with a look that could've been suggestive except for the fact that they definitely weren't flirting.

"God, I don't know if Cindy could handle off-road any more, but I like to know she's there if I ever want to move big stuff around, y'know?"

"Your truck's name is Cindy?"

"Sure. Not as descriptive as 'ugly truck', I realise, but so what? Don't judge me," Andy said, raising her glass to her lips once more.

"Sorry," Kate replied, raising her hands in an 'innocent' gesture, still grasping her fork and knife. "I'm sure she's lovely. Even if you did abandon her."

"We're just on a break. One day I'll retire and move to the country to collect cats and she'll be right there with me."

"Once you're done being a big globe-trotting reporter."

Andy snorted. "This is the farthest I've travelled for work in years," she said. "That's the problem with living in New York. There's so much to write about there you have no excuse to go anywhere."

"Well, it could be worse. Have you ever been to LA before?"

"Couple of times, back in my twenties when I was a gossip columnist. Covering events, that sort of thing - I did an Oscars piece one year and I swear, never again. Longest night of my life."

Kate smirked. "But movie stars! Glamour! Shit like that!"

"You get to many showbiz parties, do you? Do they start before your bedtime?"

"Oh no, you wouldn't catch me anywhere near parties like that. Past my bedtime or not."

"So you're just here for the weather, then."

"And the fact that no one on the East Coast will hire me." Kate's easy smile suddenly grew tight and brittle, her fork clinking against her plate as she set it down.

Andy sobered too, her eyes casting down to her food momentarily, and she speared a piece of chicken and put it in her mouth in silence.

Kate was annoyed at herself more than anything else - she had let herself fall into the trap of easy banter, forgetting to keep her guard up against the other woman. She was reasonably sure that the reporter wouldn't be fishing for information for her story now, but... She's the enemy. Don't forget that just because she's cute and bought you dinner.

Andy didn't make any further attempt at conversation, finishing her main course a little before Kate did, waiting for the other woman to finish and ordering a coffee before excusing herself for 'a minute', grabbing her phone and a cigarette carton and heading for the door. Somehow the fact that she was a smoker was far less surprising than Cindy the old pickup, and Kate gave an inward sigh. You don't care, remember? It's not like you're ever going to be in a situation where you care what she puts in her mouth, so stop pouting.

It was with a wry smile in Kate's direction that Andy took her seat again a few minutes later, finding that her coffee had already arrived. "No family deaths or frantic calls asking me to interview the President," she said in a mock-reassuring tone as she put her phone, apparently now switched back off, back into her bag.

"So I guess you'll still be coming to the track tomorrow." It was hard to tell if Kate was disappointed or not.

Andy shot Kate an on-then-off-again smile, then frowned slightly, apparently thinking again. "If it's going to be a problem, if you need some time or... whatever, any day is fine..."

"It really doesn't matter," Kate said with a shrug. "Tomorrow's as good as any day."

"Well, we'll start with tomorrow, then. Anything in particular I should know? Do I bring sugar cubes?"

"You'd be better off with peppermints."

The other woman smiled again, this time a little tentatively, up at her dinner companion. "Noted."

 

They parted ways not much later in a somewhat awkward fashion, Andy heading up to her room and Kate off to the parking lot, where her truck stood in sharp relief to the gleaming BMWs and Mercedes parked alongside it. She dialled Jamie's number before starting up the engine, popping her hands-free on as she pulled out into the street.

"Hey, how'd it go?" came the careful greeting.

"I survived... didn't even throw anything, that's how good I was."

"Well done you. You at the lodge tonight, or heading home?"

"Home, James." Kate chuckled. "That never gets old."

"You want company? I've got some homebrew that needs tasting, though it's getting a bit late..."

"You can crash at mine, come in with me in the morning? It'll be a little earlier than usual for you, but think of how much work you'll get done."

"Is that a 'yes, Jamie, please bring over your delicious beer'?"

"What, you want me to beg? Of course it is."

 

"I really am sorry." It wasn't the first thing Jamie said on arriving - there was beer to be poured and music to be chosen and they were seated on Kate's comfortable but somewhat impersonal couch in her well-appointed but somewhat bare lounge before she spoke. "About Andy Driver. She was down as Andrea in the appointment book; I just didn't make the connection."

"Seriously, don't worry about it," Kate said, shaking her head. "I blew up at you but it wasn't deserved - I was just thrown off kilter by her just showing up, you know?"

"I know. I... went back and did some web searches after, you know," Jamie said, looking down into her rather frothy, slightly cloudy pint. "Read the articles. I barely remember what happened, I was just a kid."

"Yeah. Yeah, I know." Jamie was more than ten years Kate's junior - the daughter of Kate's showjumping coach, the older woman had babysat her when she was still in diapers. They had drifted out of touch by the time the doping scandal had blown up, and it wasn't until Kate had moved to California a few years later that they had met up again, this time to find that they actually made quite good friends despite their age gap. Jamie's hiring as barn manager had been one of the conditions for Kate's working for the Princes; part of her felt obligated to help the young woman succeed in a tough business, while the other part recognised the need for at least one familiar face in this strange new land. "So. You read the articles. What'd you think?"

"I think..." Jamie frowned, blowing a breath out slowly. "I think I wish it had come out what really happened. It must have been really hard, even though you weren't ever charged, that you were never cleared either."

"Yeah, well. It was only one horse, but people wanted to believe I had done it," Kate said thoughtfully. She wasn't always so philosophical about it - there were nights where she fumed and ranted about the injustice that had been done to her - but she had exhausted her ire during her dinner with Andy Driver.

"I guess it was just too hard to believe that you could really be that good a trainer, to have trained up a horse that just couldn't lose like that."

"They retired him, you know. After I left." Kate gave a dry laugh, sipping her pint. "Sent him out to stud. Sometimes I wonder if they were afraid he'd lose once I was gone and the mystique would be ruined."

"What a fucking waste."

"Yeah, well. That's life."

"Mm. What d'you think?"

Kate looked up, confused, and Jamie smiled and raised her glass, wiggling it a little. "Oh, the beer! Yeah, it's... better?"

"Oh, screw you. I'm flyin' blind here!"

"Only because you refuse to take a class or read a book!"

"Hey, if cavemen or whatever learned to make beer without books or classes, so can I."

"Yeah, well, I'm just sayin', I'm sure their caveman friends were occasionally like 'Yo, dude, this tastes a bit funny'."

"Well, they were rude. Drink your beer."

"Urgh, ugh," Kate grunted, grinning and obeying.

 

The beer was a little yeasty, but it was alcoholic and it did the job. They turned in about half past ten, and despite the emotional evening Kate was lucky enough to escape any bad dreams. In the morning she dragged Jamie out of bed with promises of coffee and donuts, driving the few miles to the stables in relatively quiet traffic, though the streets were far from deserted even at six thirty in the morning.

To her considerable surprise - and not entirely to her pleasure - Andy Driver was already waiting for them outside the stables when they arrived, apparently having been there long enough to finish a cigarette, which she was now stubbing out into a tissue and tossing in the nearest bin.

"I'll see you in the office later," Kate told Jamie before sliding out of the truck and approaching the other woman at a leisurely pace. "No smoking once we get in the barns - it's just as bad for the horses as it is for humans."

"I figured; was getting my hit in now," Andy muttered, immediately pulling some gum from her bag, offering it to Kate in a cursory fashion before taking a piece herself. She looked thoroughly underslept, but not irritable, smiling at the other woman as she approached.

"Right. Well, I don't have time to give you a tour right now, they're already saddling up for the day and I need to be there to watch. You can come along or go wait in the office and Jamie can answer any questions you have about the day-to-day running of things."

"I'll come along today - I'll know better what questions to ask after a morning of bewilderment, I'd bet."

"Sure." Without another word Kate strode off towards the stables, hands in her pockets - it was still slightly damp and chilly, as the sun hadn't had time to burn off the fog layer quite yet.

Trudging after her in walking shoes that looked like they probably hadn't seen any real action since they were bought, Andy caught Kate up to walk alongside her, her stride a little shorter than that of the trainer, whose long legs ate up the distance. "So how does the day usually start?"

"The horses who are down for a track session go first... they're groomed, then pulled from their stalls, walked, saddled, and brought out for whatever workout they're scheduled for - which has been decided days or weeks in advance. Once they've run they're taken back to the stables, washed, walked, and then turned out for the rest of the day. After that the rest of the stable gets their exercise - unlike a lot of stables we don't just run them, there's a wide range of activities they might be taken through depending on where they are in their training and what their needs are."

"How many horses total are there in the stable right now?"

"Here in the barn? Only eight. There's fourteen more at the other facility near Malibu."

"So why are the eight in question here? They're the ones receiving intense training, or...?"

"They're all coming five or six-year-olds - old enough to start their track work." Kate paused, seeming to remember something. "Although this week we have a few of the three year olds as well - I'm observing them to see which are worth keeping on for the extended regime and which we should ditch."

"Anything promising?"

"I'm cautiously optimistic about two... their initial run times were quite good."

"So what are the signs of a good prospect?"

 

And so it went. Andy kept up a polite barrage of questions whenever Kate wasn't concentrating on something else. There was no sign of a recorder or notebook; either Andy wasn't interested in being able to reproduce what she was being told today, or she had a formidable memory.

Kate did her best to answer the questions honestly, and not to get too annoyed as the other woman followed her about, keenly observing her every move. She wasn't sure whether to be relieved or worried when Susannah showed up at lunchtime, clad in her usual impeccable couture clothes and looking as much like a movie star as a businesswoman.

"Suse, hi... I didn't expect you today," Kate greeted her, wiping her hands on her grubby jeans before reaching out to clasp hands with the other woman and leaning in for the customary kiss on the cheek. "Is everything okay?"

"Absolutely - I just thought you might want a bit of respite," Susie said with a quick and unabashed glance in Andy's direction.

"Oh, well... this morning's been fine," Kate told her, "but if you wanted to take her for lunch that might be nice. I'm sure she has questions for you."

"Desperate to get rid of me already?" Andy tried to joke, though it fell slightly flat. After all, Kate would be entirely justified in being just that.

"Come, we'll go up to the clubhouse and have a lovely lunch while Kate does all the boring dirty work," Susannah said with a winning smile. "Unless you want to join us?"

"No, that's okay, I've got a lot to do before the gala tomorrow," the trainer said, shaking her head. "You go on without me."

"As long as I'm not missing anything I ought to see," Andy said, casting a questioning glance at Kate.

The other woman shrugged. "You can watch the farrier if you like, but you've seen 'em place one horseshoe, you've pretty much seen them all."

"Then I suppose I'm breaking for a glamourous lunch," Andy said, turning a warm, charming smile on Susie.

"Wonderful! Come, it's right this way..."

 

The clubhouse was more or less closed when they arrived, seeing as it was the off-season, but they still had no trouble getting a table and a waiter who scurried to bring them a pitcher of ice water and menus before disappearing discretely into the kitchen. Susannah Prince leafed through hers slowly, though she looked as if she couldn't do more than nibble on a light salad at best. "So... how has your morning been? I hope you've been impressed by what you've seen so far."

"Well, I wouldn't really know what to be impressed about, to be honest," Andy said with an easy smile. "But it's been interesting, certainly, seeing how things run. Kate's been great."

"She's wonderful, isn't she?" Susannah asked, setting down her menu. "So patient and knowledgeable. She's been a real sweetheart, helping me and John get up to speed with the whole business."

"You were never worried about her reputation or history?"

"Well... maybe a little initially," Susannah said with a slight hesitation. "But after spending some time with her it became apparent that she couldn't have done those things they said she did. And the price tag didn't hurt either..."

Andy nodded thoughtfully, eyes flickering away from Susie's for a moment, then back. "You work closely with her, then?"

"Mmhmm. I'm very hands-on, I don't want to be one of those owners who only shows up in the winning circle."

Nodding again, Andy gave her order (a club sandwich) to the hovering waiter, who seemed to know what Susannah would be having already, because he immediately took his leave. "So how d'you get along with Kate?"

"Oh, quite well," the blonde said breezily. "As I said, she's very patient, always willing to explain things to a rank beginner, and she can be quite fun at social events - so refreshing, you know?"

"How so?"

"Well, she's just different from all the usual suspects you get at such things... a breath of fresh air, I suppose."

"I see. Well, it's good that you two get along well. And good to know she's patient with beginners - I still have a lot to learn."

"But you must have picked up quite a lot the first time around, with your first story," Susannah said, tipping her head to one side curiously. "Surely."

Andy's smile turned a shade tight. "Only about doping," she said simply.

"Hm."

"Look, Susannah, I'm not sure what your husband said about him having me over here..."

"You're here to do a story on Kate, and on Prince Stables. Because we want to control the hype that's building around Lotus' premiere, and you're going to help us do so by writing a glowing piece about what you see over the next few days. Yes?" Susannah's gaze was sharp as she regarded Andy over her sparkling water.

Andy met the look head-on, a corner of her mouth twitching into half a smile. "Something like that, I suppose."

"Well then. It seems like we're all straight on the matter."

"It seems so."

"Good! So, please tell me John's invited you to the gala tomorrow, I'd hate to think you wouldn't be coming..."

"Gala? I think he may have neglected to mention it..."

"We're having a fundraising evening for one of the charities we work with - I'll make sure you get an invite, it's going to be a great evening."

"I'll look forward to it."

 

The two women chatted their way through the rest of lunch, Andy probing a little bit to try and figure out the Prince's relationship to their trainer and the story behind their collaboration - she had a niggling feeling there was something there, though she wasn't sure what, yet. For her own part Susannah Price (who insisted on 'Susie') was actually quite charming and much sharper than one might assume based on first impressions, witty and enjoyable to talk with, albeit still reeking of privilege and entitlement.0

When they finished they made their way back to the stables; Susie asked a groom to point out where Kate could be found and he did so, obviously somewhat intimidated by the blonde woman despite her small stature and bright smile. They finally located her in one of the barn aisles, deep in conversation with a diminutive young woman standing next to a tall grey horse - Prince's Blue Lotus, Andy guessed. She hung back to listen to the conversation rather than interrupt it.

"...and just take it easy, yeah? After that idiot Masters blew her out on Wednesday she doesn't need to really run, much as she may want to. So just hold her in and pace her carefully." The trainer gave a warm smile and reached up to clasp the young woman's shoulder briefly. "I trust you to take care of her."

The young rider beamed at this. "Thanks," she said. And, "I will."

Kate stepped back as the rider took a leg up and jogged out of the barn, her eyes assessing the Thoroughbred's movement even here. She spotted Andy after a moment and flattened her lips, then sighed and approached her. "Ms Driver. Did you have a nice lunch?"

"Lovely, thanks - good clubhouse here."

"Mm, yeah."

"Though I suppose you spend most of your time here?"

"Mostly. I don't get up to the clubhouse much."

Andy smiled a little. "That doesn't surprise me."

The other woman seemed to be about to say something to this, then decided against it. "What do you want to do next?"

"Just whatever you're doing is fine, if I can tag along - I don't want to get in the way."

"Usually right now I'd be checking emails," Kate replied with a smirk. "I doubt you want to sit and watch me do that."

"Well, why don't you go and check your emails, and I'll tag along and ask irritating questions about what you got up to while I was lunching with Susie?"

"...okay."

 

The trainer's office was small but well-appointed, decorated in keeping with with rest of the charming and rustic barn decor. There was a comfortable chair for Andy to sit in, and to her credit Kate only eyed her suspiciously for a few minutes before booting up her computer and getting to work.

"So Susie Price seems to be a big fan," she opened eventually.

"Hm?" Kate asked, glancing up briefly. "Oh. Well, I'm glad. Obviously a bit part of the job is making sure the Princes are happy with my work."

"Do you get much trouble with John Prince throwing his weight around?"

"He's entitled to make any decisions he likes, ultimately - it's his investment," the trainer replied carefully.

"It must be frustrating, sometimes, though."

"Working under any boss or manager is, by those standards."

"Damn right," Andy replied with a smirk.

"So if you're trying to get me to say something negative about my bosses I'd advise you to save your breath. I owe everything to the Princes, the last thing I'd do would be to badmouth them in the national press. Even if they deserved it," Kate added after a moment's pause.

The other woman's brows drew into a frown. "I was just making conversation," she said. Then, "I'm not out to get you, Kate."

"Excuse me if I find it hard to believe a leopard can change its spots that easily."

"I think you misunderstand me," Andy said with a sigh, sitting back in the chair and crossing her legs at the ankle. "But that's okay, we don't need to talk about your bosses, it's not relevant to the article. What were you doing over lunchtime?"

Kate sighed and looked back to her computer. "Overseeing the farrier - the horseshoer. He comes out every two weeks to check everybody's feet and pull and replace plates and shoes if he needs to."

"Did he need to do anything today?"

"A few things. Lotus had new plates on, which is why I held her track time to the afternoon to see how she likes them."

"I see. So the girl, is she staff here? Or a budding jockey on some sort of placement, or..."

"She's an exercise rider. She's on the Prince's staff, I hired her about a year ago. Exercise riders are the ones responsible for getting the horses out on the track in day-to-day life - and other places, in my barn. Jockeys only actually ride the horses in races, or for a pre-race acclimatisation. Otherwise the people you see out there putting them through their paces are exercise riders, almost across the board."

"I see. So how many staff d'you have at the stables?"

"Including myself? About fifteen full-time, and a handful more part-time, depending on need."

"Is that a large staff?"

"No, not at all. But we're still a small stable."

"Do you like that, or are you hoping to see things expand? I mean, what's your ideal? Where would you like to be in a few years' time?"

Kate sighed and sat back from her computer. "It depends how things go. Obviously I'd like to expand, but not so much that I can't still oversee things personally to ensure a standard level of training."

"You want to keep your hands dirty. I mean... to stay involved at ground level," Andy rephrased carefully.

"I feel like I need to. The way I do things is so different from the norm that if I were to step back they'd probably start to slide back."

"So is the day to day different too? I mean, I know that you keep the horses off the track 'til they're five, but is there more to it than that, then?"

"Mmhmm. The horses get a much more well-rounded training schedule under my watch - hillwork, things like that - and they're turned out far more than your average racehorse. I'm convinced of the benefits, but not everybody's been swayed yet. If I took my eye off they might start cutting corners, and I wouldn't want that."

"But ultimately the benfit's to the horse, right? I mean, it's about prolonging their healthy life. Is there any benefit from the point of view of the owner? Do they get a return on their investment in all those extra years of expensive care?"

"Absolutely. A few decades ago the average number of lifetime starts for a racehorse was above fifty. Now it's seventeen. Seventeen. Owners are losing out on almost forty starts, on average, because they're running babies into the ground, drugging them and conditioning them poorly. I can't see how this doesn't benefit everyone, horse and owner and trainer alike."

"So they actually do have a longer lifespan, then? It's not just shifting the same span by a few years?"

"Horses are made to work, Ms Driver. Properly managed a horse can showjump competitively until it's nearly twenty. I don't see why racehorses can't continue to race - and win - for many years longer than they do right now."

Andy nodded thoughtfully. "There are other trainers out there doing what you do, right? I mean, you do see horses racing for the first time when they're a bit older, now and again."

"A few, here and there. They're mostly independent though - they haven't got the backing of a big owner."

"So in some ways this is kind of a coup for you, in the end, should Lotus work out."

"She will," Kate said fervently, though she wore an expression of doubt. "She's going to be great."

Andy's smiled flickered on, though there was something more contemplative in her eyes. "I hope so," she said.

"Mm. Do you have any more pressing questions? If not, I have a few emails to compose and I'll need to concentrate on them for a while."

"By all means," Andy said, pulling out her own phone. "I'm sure I can entertain myself on Facebook for a bit."

"Oh, uh... all right."

"Oh, unless you'd rather be left alone?"

Kate raised her eyebrows, then shrugged. "No, it's fine. Facebook away."

Andy flashed that annoyingly bright smile in Kate's direction. "Enjoy your emails."

 

The emails took a lot longer than they usually did, mostly because of Andy's distracting presence in the room. It wasn't that she was doing anything particularly distracting, but Kate couldn't keep from glancing up periodically, checking what she was doing and whether she was watching Kate work. She never was.

Eventually, the emails were done, and she could hear sounds drifting through from the stable suggesting that Lotus had returned from her run on the track. Kate closed down her laptop and stood, jerking her head towards the door. "I'm heading back to the barn. You can come if you like, or stay in the outer office with Jamie."

"I'll come and see the barn."

"Alright."

Lotus was already unsaddled by the time the two women arrived, a light cooler having been thrown over her as she was walked up and down the aisle.

"How did she go?" Kate wanted to know of the exercise rider, who nodded, reaching up to remove her helmet.

"Pretty good... I think she likes the shoes. Really dug in on the turn, seemed to have pretty good traction."

"Good. We'll run her again in a couple days and see how she gets on then. Hopefully we've struck on the winning combination now."

"So are shoes important?" Andy asked as they made their way away from the stable block once more.

"Yes, very. Thoroughbreds don't have great feet at the best of times, and racing can be pretty hard on them. Not to mention the different track conditions. So we shoe them in light plates with extra traction to help their times - like an athlete wearing spikes on their shoes."

"Hang on, racehorses have bad feet? Like, generally? Shouldn't they have been bred for good feet?"

"Yes, but good feet usually come with big thick legs and a slow gait. Not very good for running faster than the other guy."

Andy smirked slightly. "In other words, there's actually no way to optimise a horse for racing, because that's not really what they're for?"

"Very few animals collided with humanity and came out optimised for anything other than pleasing people," Kate said with a frown. "Just look at pugs, or Persian cats, or hell, any cow."

"So why work with them? Race horses, I mean. Why not train police horses, or run a trail riding stable or whatever?"

"Because... I don't know, because I like them. They're stupid and flighty and have bad feet, but a Thoroughbred has more heart than just about any creature on Earth," Kate replied, shoving her hands into her pockets. "And I like that."

When she looked up again, Andy was staring - no, gazing at her, with an expression that was at once unreadable, unsettling, and (in spite of herself) intriguing. "Might quote you on that one," she murmured.

"Yeah, okay," Kate said, looking away again and trying not to act too self-conscious. So you managed to squeeze out a soundbyte she's happy with. So what? Couple more of those and maybe she'll get out of your hair. "There's not much more to see today. So if you wanted to head off..."

"Oh, I guess I could do. What are you up to this evening? I suppose you'll want a night at home to mentally prepare for this fundraiser..."

Kate looked surprised. "How do you.... wait, let me guess. Susie invited you?"

Andy shot the other woman an easy - though almost shy - smile. "Some people find me likeable, you know."

"Yeah, well. I'm sure you'll have a great time schmoozing tomorrow night."

"And you?"

"I'll be there," Kate said, shoulders slumping.

"Don't think I've ever seen anyone so unenthused by the prospect of free wine and canapés."

"I just don't like being paraded around like some... prize pig," the trainer said, making a face. "A pig with a scandal attached to it, no less."

The other woman nodded slowly, her expression sympathetic. "So you didn't answer my question. Tonight? Don't suppose you'd be amenable to another run at eating a meal together without you wanting to kill me? At the very worst you could console yourself that you're eating on the dime of the magazine who're giving you all this crap. We could go somewhere really expensive?"

Are you crazy? Another meal? Kate tried to ignore the memory of their mutual not-flirtation, and how nice (and confusing) it had been to be out with someone, anyone, like that. "Listen, Ms Driver-"

"Andy, please."

"Andy, fine. I've tried to be cooperative here, and I really do hope you're getting enough to do your story or whatever. I just... I don't think it's a very good idea for us to do stuff in... out-of-work hours."

"I don't really have out-of-work hours. When are we going to get a chance to talk if we don't do it away from the stables? I don't want to interfere with your day there."

"I thought... I thought we'd talked plenty already," Kate said, looking confused.

"I like to gather plenty of material. It makes for a better rounded article. This is a feature, not a straight-up interview."

"What's the difference?"

"Man hours and effort, mostly. I'm writing about my whole experience here, not just mindlessly asking you questions and reporting your answers verbatim."

"So you will be gathering information for your article when we- if we went to dinner tonight."

"Not information, per se. More... impressions. Stories. I'm still finding the narrative here." Andy tipped her head to the side. "You know you get sign-off on this, right?"

"What?"

"You have final refusal on anything printed in the magazine. This isn't an exposé or an investigation. Nothing's printed without your say-so - with the understanding of course that something will be printed following your review. It was John Prince who signed the contract, technically, but I certainly won't be printing anything if you voice an objection."

"Oh." Kate blinked, obviously taken aback. "I didn't realise... that was how it went. No one told me."

"They probably just assumed." Andy paused, then tried again. "So. Dinner? Anywhere we can get a table, I swear."

"I... okay."

"Great. Book somewhere and text me a time and address? I'll get back to the hotel and change - and check in with my intern; Jesus knows what he's been up to."

"You have an intern?"

"Mm, some hipster kid with a gambling obsession. I sent him off on some research snipe hunt a couple of days back. He's probably propping up a coffee bar somewhere with wifi."

"Uh, right. Okay." Kate nodded, her hands still in the pockets of her jeans. "I guess I'll see you later, then."

 

Andy pursed her lips down at the meagre collection of outfits she'd brought with her on the trip. She wasn't terribly fussy about what she wore, in point of fact, and was generally able to look the part in any setting. She just wasn't quite sure what 'the part' was tonight.

Was she still firmly in 'reporter' territory? She had told Kate that she wanted to gather impressions for her piece, which was true, but was that all? Certainly they weren't friends; Kate had made that abundantly clear. In past character studies, Andy had done well in exploiting this middle-ground between congeniality and professionalism - she knew the subject all the better for it and they tended to be happy with the results. With Kate... well, she'd always known things would be different with Roundtree - difficult, complicated. She'd been prepared to be a little messy, a little more-or-less formal as required. Unfortunately it had left her in the rather curious position of being unsure where she stood with the other woman, which was not usually a position she found herself in on her side of the equation.

Still, at least the trainer had agreed to come out with her a second time; she had been expecting a cold refusal and so was pleasantly surprised by Kate's reluctant acceptance. Maybe it was just the lure of an all-expenses-paid night out, but she hoped she was getting somewhere, anywhere, with the other woman. She was learning plenty about the sport of horseracing, and had seen rare glimpses of the passion and dedication she thought she might be able to build her story around, but there was still a long way to go before she had a well-rounded picture of the woman she was profiling.

Fuck it. Losing patience with herself, Andy grabbed her stock go-to black cocktail dress. Now no matter where we go, I'm covererd.

 

 

The restaurant Kate had chosen was upscale, but far from the wallet-draining places people like Susannah and John Prince frequented, she knew. She wouldn't have been comfortable at a place like that, however, and was glad to have been given control of where they ate lest they end up somewhere that only served flavoured air or something else equally ridiculous.

She had ended up wearing a pair of slim-fitting dark blue jeans, a nice top and blazer, which she figured was neither too dressy nor too casual for the occasion. Sitting at the table waiting for the reporter to arrive she wondered if she should have put up more of a fuss before agreeing to meet her, but it was a little too late for second thoughts now. The other woman arrived on time - she spotted her dark red hair bobbing toward her through the crowd at the door and a moment later Andy emerged from the throng of waiting prospective diners, light jacket over her arm, clad in a short black dress, form-fitting but with a modest slashed neck, looking paler than ever with her creamy white legs exposed.

Kate nodded to her as she sat down, trying not to look too embarrassed by her own less-than-fancy dress. "You found it okay, then," she remarked, for lack of anything better to say.

The trainer's office was small but well-appointed, decorated in keeping with with rest of the charming and rustic barn decor. There was a comfortable chair for Andy to sit in, and to her credit Kate only eyed her suspiciously for a few minutes before booting up her computer and getting to work.

"So Susie Price seems to be a big fan," she opened eventually.

"Hm?" Kate asked, glancing up briefly. "Oh. Well, I'm glad. Obviously a bit part of the job is making sure the Princes are happy with my work."

"Do you get much trouble with John Prince throwing his weight around?"

"He's entitled to make any decisions he likes, ultimately - it's his investment," the trainer replied carefully.

"It must be frustrating, sometimes, though."

"Working under any boss or manager is, by those standards."

"Damn right," Andy replied with a smirk.

"So if you're trying to get me to say something negative about my bosses I'd advise you to save your breath. I owe everything to the Princes, the last thing I'd do would be to badmouth them in the national press. Even if they deserved it," Kate added after a moment's pause.

The other woman's brows drew into a frown. "I was just making conversation," she said. Then, "I'm not out to get you, Kate."

"Excuse me if I find it hard to believe a leopard can change its spots that easily."

"I think you misunderstand me," Andy said with a sigh, sitting back in the chair and crossing her legs at the ankle. "But that's okay, we don't need to talk about your bosses, it's not relevant to the article. What were you doing over lunchtime?"

Kate sighed and looked back to her computer. "Overseeing the farrier - the horseshoer. He comes out every two weeks to check everybody's feet and pull and replace plates and shoes if he needs to."

"Did he need to do anything today?"

"A few things. Lotus had new plates on, which is why I held her track time to the afternoon to see how she likes them."

"I see. So the girl, is she staff here? Or a budding jockey on some sort of placement, or..."

"She's an exercise rider. She's on the Prince's staff, I hired her about a year ago. Exercise riders are the ones responsible for getting the horses out on the track in day-to-day life - and other places, in my barn. Jockeys only actually ride the horses in races, or for a pre-race acclimatisation. Otherwise the people you see out there putting them through their paces are exercise riders, almost across the board."

"I see. So how many staff d'you have at the stables?"

"Including myself? About fifteen full-time, and a handful more part-time, depending on need."

"Is that a large staff?"

"No, not at all. But we're still a small stable."

"Do you like that, or are you hoping to see things expand? I mean, what's your ideal? Where would you like to be in a few years' time?"

Kate sighed and sat back from her computer. "It depends how things go. Obviously I'd like to expand, but not so much that I can't still oversee things personally to ensure a standard level of training."

"You want to keep your hands dirty. I mean... to stay involved at ground level," Andy rephrased carefully.

"I feel like I need to. The way I do things is so different from the norm that if I were to step back they'd probably start to slide back."

"So is the day to day different too? I mean, I know that you keep the horses off the track 'til they're five, but is there more to it than that, then?"

"Mmhmm. The horses get a much more well-rounded training schedule under my watch - hillwork, things like that - and they're turned out far more than your average racehorse. I'm convinced of the benefits, but not everybody's been swayed yet. If I took my eye off they might start cutting corners, and I wouldn't want that."

"But ultimately the benfit's to the horse, right? I mean, it's about prolonging their healthy life. Is there any benefit from the point of view of the owner? Do they get a return on their investment in all those extra years of expensive care?"

"Absolutely. A few decades ago the average number of lifetime starts for a racehorse was above fifty. Now it's seventeen. Seventeen. Owners are losing out on almost forty starts, on average, because they're running babies into the ground, drugging them and conditioning them poorly. I can't see how this doesn't benefit everyone, horse and owner and trainer alike."

"So they actually do have a longer lifespan, then? It's not just shifting the same span by a few years?"

"Horses are made to work, Ms Driver. Properly managed a horse can showjump competitively until it's nearly twenty. I don't see why racehorses can't continue to race - and win - for many years longer than they do right now."

Andy nodded thoughtfully. "There are other trainers out there doing what you do, right? I mean, you do see horses racing for the first time when they're a bit older, now and again."

"A few, here and there. They're mostly independent though - they haven't got the backing of a big owner."

"So in some ways this is kind of a coup for you, in the end, should Lotus work out."

"She will," Kate said fervently, though she wore an expression of doubt. "She's going to be great."

Andy's smiled flickered on, though there was something more contemplative in her eyes. "I hope so," she said.

"Mm. Do you have any more pressing questions? If not, I have a few emails to compose and I'll need to concentrate on them for a while."

"By all means," Andy said, pulling out her own phone. "I'm sure I can entertain myself on Facebook for a bit."

"Oh, uh... all right."

"Oh, unless you'd rather be left alone?"

Kate raised her eyebrows, then shrugged. "No, it's fine. Facebook away."

Andy flashed that annoyingly bright smile in Kate's direction. "Enjoy your emails."

 

The emails took a lot longer than they usually did, mostly because of Andy's distracting presence in the room. It wasn't that she was doing anything particularly distracting, but Kate couldn't keep from glancing up periodically, checking what she was doing and whether she was watching Kate work. She never was.

Eventually, the emails were done, and she could hear sounds drifting through from the stable suggesting that Lotus had returned from her run on the track. Kate closed down her laptop and stood, jerking her head towards the door. "I'm heading back to the barn. You can come if you like, or stay in the outer office with Jamie."

"I'll come and see the barn."

"Alright."

Lotus was already unsaddled by the time the two women arrived, a light cooler having been thrown over her as she was walked up and down the aisle.

"How did she go?" Kate wanted to know of the exercise rider, who nodded, reaching up to remove her helmet.

"Pretty good... I think she likes the shoes. Really dug in on the turn, seemed to have pretty good traction."

"Good. We'll run her again in a couple days and see how she gets on then. Hopefully we've struck on the winning combination now."

"So are shoes important?" Andy asked as they made their way away from the stable block once more.

"Yes, very. Thoroughbreds don't have great feet at the best of times, and racing can be pretty hard on them. Not to mention the different track conditions. So we shoe them in light plates with extra traction to help their times - like an athlete wearing spikes on their shoes."

"Hang on, racehorses have bad feet? Like, generally? Shouldn't they have been bred for good feet?"

"Yes, but good feet usually come with big thick legs and a slow gait. Not very good for running faster than the other guy."

Andy smirked slightly. "In other words, there's actually no way to optimise a horse for racing, because that's not really what they're for?"

"Very few animals collided with humanity and came out optimised for anything other than pleasing people," Kate said with a frown. "Just look at pugs, or Persian cats, or hell, any cow."

"So why work with them? Race horses, I mean. Why not train police horses, or run a trail riding stable or whatever?"

"Because... I don't know, because I like them. They're stupid and flighty and have bad feet, but a Thoroughbred has more heart than just about any creature on Earth," Kate replied, shoving her hands into her pockets. "And I like that."

When she looked up again, Andy was staring - no, gazing at her, with an expression that was at once unreadable, unsettling, and (in spite of herself) intriguing. "Might quote you on that one," she murmured.

"Yeah, okay," Kate said, looking away again and trying not to act too self-conscious. So you managed to squeeze out a soundbyte she's happy with. So what? Couple more of those and maybe she'll get out of your hair. "There's not much more to see today. So if you wanted to head off..."

"Oh, I guess I could do. What are you up to this evening? I suppose you'll want a night at home to mentally prepare for this fundraiser..."

Kate looked surprised. "How do you.... wait, let me guess. Susie invited you?"

Andy shot the other woman an easy - though almost shy - smile. "Some people find me likeable, you know."

"Yeah, well. I'm sure you'll have a great time schmoozing tomorrow night."

"And you?"

"I'll be there," Kate said, shoulders slumping.

"Don't think I've ever seen anyone so unenthused by the prospect of free wine and canapés."

"I just don't like being paraded around like some... prize pig," the trainer said, making a face. "A pig with a scandal attached to it, no less."

The other woman nodded slowly, her expression sympathetic. "So you didn't answer my question. Tonight? Don't suppose you'd be amenable to another run at eating a meal together without you wanting to kill me? At the very worst you could console yourself that you're eating on the dime of the magazine who're giving you all this crap. We could go somewhere really expensive?"

Are you crazy? Another meal? Kate tried to ignore the memory of their mutual not-flirtation, and how nice (and confusing) it had been to be out with someone, anyone, like that. "Listen, Ms Driver-"

"Andy, please."

"Andy, fine. I've tried to be cooperative here, and I really do hope you're getting enough to do your story or whatever. I just... I don't think it's a very good idea for us to do stuff in... out-of-work hours."

"I don't really have out-of-work hours. When are we going to get a chance to talk if we don't do it away from the stables? I don't want to interfere with your day there."

"I thought... I thought we'd talked plenty already," Kate said, looking confused.

"I like to gather plenty of material. It makes for a better rounded article. This is a feature, not a straight-up interview."

"What's the difference?"

"Man hours and effort, mostly. I'm writing about my whole experience here, not just mindlessly asking you questions and reporting your answers verbatim."

"So you will be gathering information for your article when we- if we went to dinner tonight."

"Not information, per se. More... impressions. Stories. I'm still finding the narrative here." Andy tipped her head to the side. "You know you get sign-off on this, right?"

"What?"

"You have final refusal on anything printed in the magazine. This isn't an exposé or an investigation. Nothing's printed without your say-so - with the understanding of course that something will be printed following your review. It was John Prince who signed the contract, technically, but I certainly won't be printing anything if you voice an objection."

"Oh." Kate blinked, obviously taken aback. "I didn't realise... that was how it went. No one told me."

"They probably just assumed." Andy paused, then tried again. "So. Dinner? Anywhere we can get a table, I swear."

"I... okay."

"Great. Book somewhere and text me a time and address? I'll get back to the hotel and change - and check in with my intern; Jesus knows what he's been up to."

"You have an intern?"

"Mm, some hipster kid with a gambling obsession. I sent him off on some research snipe hunt a couple of days back. He's probably propping up a coffee bar somewhere with wifi."

"Uh, right. Okay." Kate nodded, her hands still in the pockets of her jeans. "I guess I'll see you later, then."

Kate nodded to her as she sat down, trying not to look too embarrassed by her own less-than-fancy dress. "You found it okay, then," she remarked, for lack of anything better to say.

"Yeah, although I'm glad I got a taxi; I have no idea where I'd've parked around here. Where's the ugly truck?"

"At home. I got a taxi too."

"Ah hah, so I don't have to drink a bottle of overpriced wine all to myself tonight then? Good to know," Andy said, smiling at the server who came by with their menus.

"Thought I'd help you out this time," Kate commented, picking up her menu and casting an eye over the appetizers page.

"Excellent plan. And woah, I'm going enjoy imagining them processing this receipt," Andy said matter-of-factly, chuckling as she glanced down the menu. "Score."

"Welcome to LA, where you can eat like a king as long as you've got the bankroll of one," Kate said dryly. "Though there are plenty of little hole-in-the-wall places that are even better and cost just pennies compared to this."

"And yet you took me here. Oh well. We'll have to leave exciting and delicious holes-in-walls for another time," the other woman said with a smirk.

"Hey, I figured if I was going to get a free meal, might as well make it an expensive one."

"Oh, I'd do the same in your place. So does anyone famous come here, then?"

"Oh... probably," Kate said with a shrug. "I don't know, really, I'm not really big on celebrity-spotting. Once Jamie spent five minutes freaking out over some blond troglodyte at the mall before I even realised which one she was talking about."

"Well, all blondes look the same, well-known fact."

"Especially with tans and designer stubble, it turns out."

"Ah. Well, also all good-looking young men look the same," Andy said with a smirk.

Kate raised an eyebrow, then shrugged, looking back down at her menu. "I suppose."

"So you and Jamie are friends, then?"

"Hm? Oh, yeah, we go way back."

"Oh?"

"She's the daughter of my old showjumping coach."

Andy nodded. "I see - so do you see much of your old coach, then? I mean, family friends, or whatever?"

"No... he died a couple years back," Kate said, frowning. "But I kept up with him before that. Mostly emails, phone calls, stuff like that."

The other woman's face pulled into a sympathetic frown that seemed entirely genuine. "I'm sorry," she said.

"Yeah. Anyway. Jamie's a good kid.... well, not really kid anymore, I guess."

"Has she been working with you at the Princes' for long?"

"Yeah, she started when I did, a couple years back."

"Does she want to be a trainer herself?"

"I don't think so," Kate said with a shake of her head. "She really excels at the minutiae, keeping things running smoothly. It'd be a shame if she left that to train."

"So, what, d'you think she'll run her own stable one day?"

"I really don't know. The Princes are very happy with her work, hopefully she'll be able to stay on as long as she likes."

"And you?"

"Excuse me?"

"Where d'you see yourself in five years time? Ten? Twenty?"

The other woman's eyes widened and she gave a slight start. "Oh, of course, food. Sorry, got caught up..."

 

Luckily the food was good - and reasonably plentiful - for its expensive price tag. Kate and Andy ordered different dishes this time, though they agreed to share a bottle of red wine in deference to the menu's Italian-fusion groundings. Over dinner they stayed to relatively innocuous topics, such as the training plan for the next few days and a bit more about Kate's time with the Princes - again Andy caught some frisson of unease here, but refrained from prodding too deeply at it.

"So," she tried again as she reached to top up their glasses, "can I ask you now about the future? I mean, I assume you'll want to see the next crop of horses out so you won't be leaving any time soon, but after that?"

The other woman was slow to reply, obviously thinking for some time about how to respond. "I'm not planning on leaving Prince Stables any time soon," she said eventually. "It's a good set-up. Why would I go?"

"I have no idea - I'm still getting a handle on what you want from life."

"What I want from life?" Kate gave a short laugh. "Good luck with figuring that out. I'm not sure I even know."

Andy's mouth quirked into a slightly lopsided smile. "Well, then, I'll be sure to let you know when I figure it out."

"Yeah, thanks," Kate replied, smirking and shaking her head.

"What d'you do? I mean, when you're not at work? How do you wind down?"

The other woman shrugged. "Beer?"

Andy tried to smile, but it came out a little pained, apparently in spite of herself.

"That was a joke," Kate told her. Mostly. "I don't know how I 'wind down'... I mean yeah, the job is demanding but I love it. I don't need to wind down from it."

"So you never want to get away from it all?"

"Well, sure, doesn't everybody sometimes?"

"So what do you do then?"

"I... dunno. Go for a drive up the coast, sometimes. It's very scenic."

"Yeah?" Andy's smile grew wider. "I love driving - properly, I mean, not city driving. You must tell me some routes and I'll take a day for that before I head back east."

"Just take the 101, really, and follow it north. That's all you need to know."

The other woman gave an easy enough nod, though she also looked subtly disappointed, presumably at exhausting a potential conversation option almost immediately. "Noted," she said.

After a long, awkward pause Kate cleared her throat. "Um, what do you do to 'get away'?"

"Me? God... I dunno. Music, film, mostly. Or travel."

"Oh? I thought you said you didn't get away from New York very much."

"Not for work, no. But whenever I have a break I jump on pretty much the first plane I see," Andy said with a grin.

"Yeah? Where did you last visit?"

"Edinburgh. It was beautiful. And wet. But very beautiful."

"Scotland, wow. I bet it was."

"Well, I was there for the New Year, so it was pretty insane as well; they have a massive street party."

"Yeah?" Kate raised an eyebrow. "Sounds pretty wild."

"It really was. I got chatting to this group of musicians from, well, from here, actually, from LA, and sort of hung out with them for the night." Andy smirked. "They knew how to party. I swear my hangover lasted two days - my old carcass isn't fit for that level of abuse any more."

"Hah. Wuss."

"Says you, Miss Quiet Drive In The Countryside."

"Hey, just because I like driving up the coast doesn't mean I'm not also dedicated to punishing my liver."

"Well, I suppose that's a sign for me to top up the wine again, then."

"Either that or take me for a drive," Kate joked.

The other woman raised her eyebrows. "Well, I'm already over the limit tonight - my personal limit anyway. But, I mean, if you can get the time away one day before I leave, I'd love the company going up the coast. If there's one thing better than a road trip, it's a road trip with company."

"Oh." Kate looked surprised. "Yeah, um, maybe. We'll see."

"I mean, I know you're busy and I realise that a car with me is probably the last place you want to spend your day off..."

"No offense, but... listen, you've been fine since you got here. Nice. But I... there's a lot of stuff you're responsible for that really fucked my life up," Kate said, more candid now perhaps because of the wine. "I can't just forget that."

Andy pursed her lips, gazing down into her glass, nodding in that slow, careful way she had. "I get that," she said.

"I mean, Christ, I can't believe I'm actually here tonight... I always thought that if I ever met you I'd... I dunno, spit in your face or something. And yet here I am, sharing a bottle of wine, chatting over ravioli..."

"I've been told I can be very disarming," the other woman said with a wry, almost apologetic smile.

"You're certainly not what I expected."

"What did you expect?"

"I don't know... someone a lot less personable, I guess."

Andy didn't seem to have anything to say to this, and she just nodded in acknowledgement to the server who'd arrived to take away their plates. "D'you want dessert?"

"Y'know, I think I've had enough."

Andy gave a light shrug, ordered a coffee, and the young man took his leave. Kate pursed her lips, staring hard at the remainder of red wine in her glass. In truth she wanted to get up and leave right then, though she couldn't quite bring herself to be so blatantly rude when the other woman had given her no reason to be - on this occasion, at least. This would all be a lot easier if she wasn't so nice. Damnit.

"So what should I expect tomorrow?" Andy said now, ever conversational, ever friendly. "At the gala, I mean."

"Hm? Oh, I dunno. Rich people? A string quartet? Boring speeches?"

Andy rolled her eyes. "Naturally. Mind you, I like a nice string quartet now and again."

"Can't say I really see the appeal."

"I'm gonna say you haven't heard any really good string music, then," the other woman said with a smile. "It's all Greatest Hits of Vivaldi at these things."

"Greatest Hits of who?"

Andy glanced up quickly, looking slightly bemused until she caught Kate's smirk. "Ah, you're very funny," she said.

"I try."

The other woman smiled across at her, silent for just a little too long before she glanced back to her wine glass.

"...maybe I should go."

This got Andy's attention again, her eyes immediately drawn back up to Kate's. "If you like," she said carefully, though the slight note of disappointment was there in her tone.

"Well, unless you have any other questions I don't exactly know what we have to talk about," Kate stated. "The only thing we have in common isn't the best conversation topic."

That light, easy shrug again. Why did she always have to be so unruffled by everything? "All right."

Letting out a long sigh of annoyance, Kate began to gather up her things, reaching for her wallet before realising that of course she didn't need it.

There was a returning sigh from Andy, though it was one of resignation, it seemed, and she shot Kate a pragmatic smile. "I'll see you tomorrow, Kate."

 

"And then she just left?" Dylan made a face, sitting slumped across the table from Andy at the outdoor café. "Huh. So you didn't get _anything_ useful out of it?"

"Well, that depends on your definition of 'useful'."

"Something you can write a story about?"

"Ah. Well. Hrm." Andy pursed her lips, leaning back in her chair and reaching for her cigarettes - this particular outdoor area, it seemed, was bereft of 'no smoking' signs. "If I had to? I could probably knock together a couple of thousand words from what I have. Lots of padding and filler. But we could basically go home after this fundraiser tomorrow I suspect."

"Oh. Are we gonna?"

Lighting her cigarette and taking a long drag, Andy tipped her head to one side in thought, then shook it. "Nope."

"Right. So... what are we gonna do? How are you going to get more out of her? Do you want me to talk to some of her staff, get some other perspectives?"

"Hm? Oh, sure, go for it. Good thought."

"Sure, no problem!" he said, looking slightly more animated. "Maybe you'll catch her at the fundraiser - you know, out of her natural environment."

The journalist raised an eyebrow. "I'm not trying to 'catch' anyone, kid," she said. "This is a feature, not an exposé. Don't get overexcited."

"Yeah, I know, I just meant... well, you want her to open up to you, don't you?"

"Sure. But I don't want to do it by catching her out."

"Well, how else can you do it? She's clearly reluctant to share anything with you because of your past history."

"Dylan, would you leave me to do my job and just do your own?"

The young man made a face, reaching for his coffee. "Sorry."

Andy gave him a long look, then sighed, shaking her head. "No, it's okay, I'm sorry. The truth is I don't know what I'm still doing here. I don't know what else I'm going to get, I just... I'm just not ready to leave just yet. Bear with me, here, yeah? Call it... an exercise in going with your gut."

"Yeah, sure. You're the boss, I'm just the lowly intern," he said, his good mood returning readily enough. "That's why you get to go to the fancy parties and I get to spend my weekend at a barn."

"Oh come on, you don't really want to go to this party, do you? If you're really that keen I'll be happy to swap, I'm sure I can get you invited instead of me..."

"Nah, that's okay. You're better with that high-society stuff than me, I'm sure."

"Well, I suppose we'll see about that."

"Have fun!"

 

"Wow, you look great... you know, I'm always surprised by how well you scrub up," Susie commented as Kate bent to check her makeup in the mirror. The trainer gave the socialite a grim smile, smudging a finger through her eyeliner to wipe some away.

"Thanks, I guess..."

"Oh, come now, you know I'm just joking," Susie said, coming up behind Kate and sliding her hands around her waist. "It's just a change, is all."

"Well, I'd look pretty ridiculous grubbing around the barn in this," Kate replied, glancing down at the dark green dress that set off her eyes perfectly, according to Jamie. "And these heels are hardly practical."

Susie smirked. "And that's why I keep inviting you to these things, so you have an opportunity to wear something nice every so often."

That and so you can show off your very own hired scandal, Kate thought ungenerously. "Mm. C'mon, we should go - don't want to be late for your own party."

"I suppose so... if I was going to hold you up I guess I should've done it before we did our faces..." Susie murmured, one hand trailing gently up Kate's stomach and sending a shiver down her spine. For someone so bad for lack of 'follow through' she certainly knew how to provoke.

Kate's smile grew more forced, and she reached up to catch the other woman's hand. "Yeah. C'mon, John will be expecting you."

"Well, aren't you a bucket of cold water. Come on, then, let's get going."

 

The gala was bustling by the time Andy arrived in her taxi - she hadn't wanted to deal with parking in LA or have to pass up any free champagne on offer. She made her way up the steps of the grand Art Deco building, admiring the architecture for a moment before presenting her invite, which had been delivered to the front desk of her hotel that morning.

In spite of herself she found that she was looking around for Kate as soon as she entered, soon catching sight of the tall woman, clad in a beautiful, figure-hugging green dress. Clashing nicely with me in red, Andy thought with a smirk, smoothing her own dark red shift dress that at once made her look paler than ever and brought out the red in her hair.

Kate seemed to be at least somewhat engaged in conversation with a group of grey-haired women, wearing the same pinched face and resigned expression that Andy recognised from their 'interviews'. The only time she had ever seen her relax was in speaking to the stables staff or dealing with the horses; obviously formal occasions were not her cup of tea. When Kate eventually escaped, she made her way directly toward the bar, and Andy followed. She got there just in time to hear the other woman order a beer, clearing her throat to announce her presence before ordering a gin and tonic for herself. To her credit Kate didn't flinch as she turned to look at the woman beside her. "Oh. Hi, you made it."

"You were hoping I'd get distracted by the internet or fall and break my neck or something?" Andy said with a wry smile.

The other woman smiled thinly, sliding her beer bottle towards her and then lifting it to take a long swig. "So what do you think?"

"I think it brings out your beautiful eyes," Andy said without missing a beat. Then she smirked. "Oh, you mean the party? Eh, it's a fundraiser."

"Pretty much," Kate agreed, eyes flicking over the mingling crowd. "You going to donate?"

"Me? Oh... Hadn't thought about it. I suppose I can, although it'll be a drop in the ocean compared to most folk here I would guess..."

"Mm, probably..."

"Still, happy to aid a good cause," Andy breezed, though Kate felt sure she heard the slightest note of quotation marks around the words 'good cause'."

"Yeah? Well, you're better than me, I don't even remember what cause this is all for," Kate said with a smirk.

"Hah, I was going to ask you, actually - shouldn't there be a banner up somewhere? Or would that lack taste?"

"I'm sure it's embossed on the napkins or carved into an ice sculpture somewhere, probably."

"Oh, probably. Still, free food, can't complain, huh?"

Kate looked interested. "You got food?"

"Nope, but I can smell canapés somewhere around here... I have a very good nose."

"They were circulating earlier but I was caught up in some godawful discussion and missed them," Kate said, making a face. "So let me know if you find any."

"I'll bring you a care package if I find it. Guess that's my cue to go foraging then," Andy said. "Oh, and it looks like you have another admirer anyway," she said, nodding off to the side where Susie was picking her way through the crowd toward them. "I'll leave you two to it."

"Oh, um, right." Kate gave a semi-salute with her beer, turning slightly to welcome Susie as the reporter departed.

"Thought I'd save you from the beast," Susie said with a smirk, leaning up to kiss Kate's cheek. "How's she treating you?"

"Fine, actually," Kate said, sounding somewhat surprised. "She's been perfectly fine."

"Ugh, that makes me hate her more somehow... on your behalf, of course - she's been perfectly lovely to me," Susie said with a chuckle, and Kate swore she caught the other woman checking Andy out as her slim but well-appointed form departed.

"You don't need to hate her. She'll be gone soon enough anyway - right?"

"Well, here's hoping - I mean, she can stay as long as she wants, it's in her contract."

"Mm. Anyway. Your party seems to be going well."

"Mm, so far - I see you're eschewing the champagne in favour of beer, though - ever the heathen."

"I'm sure it's very nice champagne, I just prefer this."

"As I said. Heathen." Susie giggled and placed her hand on Kate's bare arm, leaving it there just a shade too long.

"Just how much champagne have you had, hm?" Kate asked mildly, raising an eyebrow at the younger woman.

"Not too much," Susie murmured, favouring Kate with a distinctly 'come hither' look.

Oh for God's sake... "Don't you have people to schmooze, Suze?"

The other woman raised her eyebrows. "Not in the mood, huh?" she murmured, leaning in as though to innocently whisper in Kate's ear and, unseen by anyone, catching the other woman's earlobe briefly between her teeth. "I'll make it worth your while," she added in a significant tone.

Kate couldn't ignore the shiver that ran through her, both at the light nip and the other woman's words. Fuck it. Like you care about talking to anyone here. "You're right, I'd love to see that," she said loudly, so the people around them would hear. "Lead the way."

The cloakroom. A classic. Susie's mouth was on Kate's as soon as the door closed behind them - she tasted of champagne, of course, and smelled of the sweet perfume she wore that Kate wished she wouldn't, though it was less offensive than some scents. Ignoring these small annoyances, Kate concentrated on the other woman's lithe, perfectly-toned body, shrouded in what was no doubt a very expensive cocktail dress. Kate crushed her up against the thick wall of coats, no doubt wrinkling the dress and caring very little.

Susie, perhaps spurred on by her mild inebriation, seemed determined to be as good as her word, her nimble hands slipping down across Kate's breasts over the smooth material of her dress to her thighs, one dipping down beneath the hem of her skirt and then back up again to press against her through her underwear.

Kate gave an involuntary moan, shuddering and leaning in to press her lips to Susie's hungrily, hands resting on the other woman's shoulders as those fingers eased their way past all barriers to slip against her. For all her usual reluctance, Susie knew how to touch Kate on the occasions she did, quickly and deftly finding just the right places and motions to bring her long-simmering desires to the boiling point. It wasn't long before Kate was leaning into the other woman, resting her weight against her as her climax built and her legs threatened to give way - not helped by the heels she was wearing in deference the the formal occasion. She buried her face in the crook of Susie's neck as she came, muffling her cries against the other woman's soft, fragrant hair. Susie held her tightly, chuckling a little as they pulled apart, fussing a little with Kate's hair and clothing, reaching to wipe a smudge of lipstick from around her mouth. "You're a mess," she murmured with a satisfied little smile, withdrawing her fingers and wiping them surreptitiously on the lining of some poor woman's rather expensive looking jacket.

"And whose fault is that, hm?" Kate breathed, straightening up and smoothing her hands down the front of her dress.

Susie chuckled. "I should go."

"Go? You mean you don't want me to... return the favour?"

"Mm, later. Need to get to the party."

"...yeah, all right." Kate nodded, then stepped forward to plant a brief kiss on Susie's lips. "Later."

"I have a speech to make. Wouldn't want to be all flushed for it." Smiling a little, Susie leaned in for one more quick kiss before stepping back and smoothing her dress, then making her exit.

Kate waited for the door to close and then leaned back against the wall of coats, closing her eyes. What the hell... She knew she should go out to hear Susie's speech, but she probably was a mess, and she couldn't face all those stuffed shirts quite yet. Taking a deep breath, she headed for the bathroom, hoping to freshen up while everybody else was applauding for whatever cause it was that they were there to support. The facilities were plush but concierge-less, to her relief, and she found her way to one of the deep marble sinks, splashing her pink cheeks with water. She gave a slight start as she heard a flush from one of the cubicles behind her, and the very last person she wanted to see at that moment (well, who could be in the ladies' anyway) walked out.

Andy's own eyes widened a little in surprise, but her face relaxed into a friendly enough smile as she moved to join Kate at the next sink along. "Enjoying the evening so far?" she asked as she attended to washing her hands.

"Oh, um... yeah," Kate said, ducking her head and sticking her hands under the faucet. "It's been.... yeah, the beer was good."

"The beer was bottled."

"Well, it was fine." I don't look like I've just had sex... do I?

"Did you take a walk? I didn't see you outside..."

Kate's head jerked up. "Hm? I mean, what?"

"You disappeared for a bit. I wondered if you'd made a break for it."

"Oh. No, I wouldn't bail on them that early," Kate said with a nervous chuckle. "I'm not that rude."

"Really? Christ, that's a shame; I'm pretty sure I am. I was going to sneak off to a bar as soon as Susie had made her speech."

Damn, that sounds really good right now. "Lucky you," Kate said, sounding genuinely jealous as she finished washing her hands and moved to gather one of the small hand towels from the side table.

"But not for you?"

"Well... I suppose Suze will be busy after her speech..."

Andy's lips twitched into the beginnings of a smile. "I've been digging a tunnel behind the ice sculpture..."

"Did you bring a car? I know a place nearby if you want to leave it parked here..."

"I'm taxiing. As usual. Hate driving in this place."

"Oh. Well in that case, we could go a little further afield... if you don't mind a drive."

"Um... sure." Andy seemed more somewhat bemused rather than reluctant, and it was easy to see why - why on earth was Kate voluntarily inviting her to come drinking with her?

Hell if I know. Maybe because you just fucked your boss's wife and don't really want to stick around at the scene of the crime? "C'mon, let's get out of here."

 

The taxi they flagged down eventually deposited them outside a seedy-looking bar not far from the racetrack where Kate often stopped in for a drink or two after work. She let the other woman pay the fare - what else were business expenses for? - before heading inside, knowing that their fancy dress would be out of place and not really caring.

"Hey, Ernesto," she greeted the bartender, who took a moment to recognise her in her forest green dress and heels and then offered her a grin and a lift of his grizzled chin. "Corona for me and..." She turned to Andy with a curious looked. "What d'you want?"

"Uh..." Andy glanced at the row of bottles behind the bar for a moment, blanking, then seizing on, "Johnnie Walker blue, neat."

"You heard the woman," Kate said jovially as she leant both forearms on the bar, obviously much more at ease in the grubby bar than she had been at the gala event. "Give her the whisky!"

"So what brings you here on a weekend, Katie?" the barman asked as he fetched her bottle, and Andy's glass, free-pouring her measure and leaving the bottle on the bar.

"Oh... escaping the third level of hell, otherwise known as one of the Prince's wonderful fundraising events," Kate grimaced, lifting the bottle for a swig. "Don't tell them I said that."

"Hah, like they'll ever come here."

"Well, it's their loss. Add these to my tab, I'll settle up with you next week, yeah?"

"Whenever, sugar, I know you're good for it."

As the pair turned to take their drinks to a table, Andy for the first time took in the other clientele at the bar, and realised that it wasn't just their dresses that made them stand out. Not only were they the only women in the whole place, they were also the only people without full beards.

She didn't say anything until they slipped into a booth opposite one another, thought it was apparent she was trying very hard to keep the glee out of her voice when she hissed. "Kate, you have to be shitting me. Your regular place is a bear bar?"

"The beer is cheap," Kate said, shrugging, but Andy could tell she was both amused and pleased.

"Man, you play it so cool, but a little bit of you likes to shock," Andy said, taking a sip of her drink, grinning now. "I like it."

"Yeah, well, I guess if you want it you have an angle for your story. 'Formerly disgraced trainer Kathryn Roundtree, giant lesbian and bear barfly'."

Andy gave a bark of a laugh. "Why do I get the feeling that's about the one thing I could talk about in this damn feature that you just wouldn't give a shit about?"

"I guess it's a pretty open secret," Kate said with another shrug. "I mean, the racing industry's kind of homophobic, but it isn't as if people don't have plenty of other reasons to hate me."

"They are?" Andy said, brows drawing together. "That's... a little surprising, actually, although I'm not sure why..."

Kate raised her eyebrows. "It's mostly run by old men and rich white Republicans. How is that surprising?"

"But it runs on the back of horsey women and tiny men."

"Who do all the work and have none of the money."

Andy pursed her lips, looking down into her drink and nodding thoughtfully. "Hm. Yeah. Same old story, I guess, huh? Well," she said then, "for the record, I wasn't necessarily planning on delving into your private life in the article, beary, beery or otherwise. I'm not about outing people, even 'open secrets'. It's discourteous."

"Huh. Well, whatever. I mean, it's probably best it's not in the article," Kate said, seeming to remember something all of a sudden. "But, y'know, I'm not ashamed of it. It's just who I am."

"Sure, of course. So..." The beginnings of a smirk pulled at the corners of Andy's lips. "Are you going to be facing a barrage of questions about your lady friend next time you come here? Or do you bring all the girls here?"

The other woman snorted and rolled her eyes. "There are no 'all the girls', remember? Geez, you really like rubbing that one in..."

"Who, me? when did I do that?" Andy said incredulously, clearly confused.

"I already told you about my stagnant lovelife, back when we had dinner at [x]. I can only assume you're mocking me now."

"Oh, the truck... I honestly forgot. So... you're saying Ernesto is going to think I'm breaking your dry spell?" Andy diverted smoothly, raising a single eyebrow.

Kate glanced over at the bartender, who had heard enough of her late-night moanings to know all about the predicament she found herself in. "Yeah, maybe..."

"Poor guy - how disappointed he'll be to hear I'm actually your nemesis."

"Hah. I'm pretty sure that'll be juicy enough gossip that he won't mind we're not fucking."

"Well, at least someone will be satisfied then, huh?"

"Guess so."

"Leaving you and I to ponder our existential girl-free crises in peace, I suppose. C'est la vie."

Kate blinked, hesitating for just a second before raising her bottle. "To pondering our crises. And the French."

"The French," Andy returned, knocking her glass to Kate's bottle, "smug bastards."

"But they make a damn fine cheese."

"No kidding. Smug cheesemaking bastards."

Kate smirked and took another swig, realising she had nearly finished the bottle. "Hm. I'm going for another round - you want anything?"

"Hm? Oh... uh, same again I guess, thanks."

"No problem."

Kate returned a few moments later, beer in one hand and the remainder of the bottle of Johnnie in the other, to find Andy lounging back into the corner of the booth, glass cupped in her hands. She was staring down into her drink with a rather pensive expression, though she glanced up and smiled when the other woman slipped back into the bench opposite.

"Regretting not bringing your notebook?" Kate asked, raising an eyebrow as she slid the bottle across the table.

The other woman managed a half-hearted smirk. "I have a memory like a steel trap," she said, pulling the bottle toward her and refilling her glass.

"We'll see how your memory is once you finish that off."

"Finish it off? I've already had champagne and gin tonight; I'm gonna suffer for this tomorrow..."

"Well, Sundays are quiet days, so I'm planning on not getting out of bed 'til at least nine."

The other woman laughed. "Nine? Wow. Luxury."

"I... can't tell if you're calling me lazy or not."

"I'm calling you insane. Us journalists don't get out of bed 'til, like, midday at least."

"Don't you miss all the important stuff that happens y'know, during the first half of the day?"

"Like what? Fresh baked goods?"

"Hah. Very funny."

"I guess I'm just more of a night owl. I'll be up for hours yet."

"Doing what, exactly?" Kate asked, tipping her head to one side.

"Whatever. Writing, probably. Or just reading."

"Sounds fun."

The other woman raised her eyebrows. "Was that sarcasm? It is fun."

"Sure, I bet it is," Kate said, smirking.

"Not all of us want to rake around in horse muck all day." Andy paused, expression flickering. "Well, literally rather than figuratively, I guess you'd point out."

"Well, it builds character. Maybe you ought to try it once or twice."

"Hey, if you want to put me to work for a day, I'm happy to do that."

"I doubt that would help the article much."

"You might be surprised."

"Oh? Well, I'll be looking over the work roster with Jamie tomorrow, I'm sure I could get you a shift or two."

"Well, I think Dylan's little heart would break if I made him go home before Friday, so feel free. Just tell me when and where and I'll be there."

"Yeah, we'll see."

Nodding, Andy knocked back another sizeable swig of her drink, pursing her lips and staring back down into her glass again.

"So... what are you going to write?" Kate asked then, unable to stem her curiosity.

"About you?" The other woman paused. "I... I'm not sure yet."

"Does it usually take this long for you to put a story together?"

"I don't usually write to order these days. It's a long time since I've been commissioned to interview or shadow someone."

"So why'd you take this one?"

Andy hesitated, and for a moment, Kate caught the slightest inkling of something intriguing, buried not-that-far beneath the surface. Then she shrugged, finishing her scotch and reaching for the bottle once more. "A shit-ton of cash."

"Ah. Well, I guess I can't blame you. It's been a long time since I saw any cash, shit-ton or not, but I understand it's a pretty powerful motivating factor."

"Oh, come on, you can't be too uncomfortable right now, surely?" Andy asked with a slight frown.

Kate blinked. "You mean they didn't tell you?"

"Tell me..."

"The arrangement. Shit, I thought for sure John would've bragged about it at least a little."

"I don't know anything about any arrangement."

"I'm basically working for them for free."

Andy was frowning properly, and she sat forward a little now. "As in, you're not paid at all?"

"Well, no, I mean, I have an allowance, for food and personal effects - and booze," Kate said, glancing at the bar again. "And I have an apartment in one of the buildings they own. So I guess 'free' is kind of exaggerating."

"That's tantamount to indentured servitude! What a fucking asshole..."

"Well, it's not like I had much choice... it was the only way I could get a job training again." And that's not even the half of it.

The other woman looked down into her glass again, now, suddenly unable to meet Kate's eyes. "Mm. Well. Hopefully after Lotus is a massive success, you'll have every owner on both coasts trying to tempt you away."

"Or, she fails and I'm out of a job for good."

Andy managed to glance up again at this. "You know she isn't going to fail."

"If there's one thing I know it's that racing is a fucking fickle mistress. That's all I can count on."

Was it Kate's imagination that a slightly pained expression flickered across Andy's face? In any event, she straightened then, placing her glass down. "Does this place even have a female restroom?" she asked, glancing around.

"Yeah, though I don't think they clean it very often so I'd be careful if I were you," Kate said, pointing towards the back.

"Noted. See you in a minute."

"Mmhmm. Good luck."

 

The other woman didn't return for several minutes, and Kate was just beginning to wonder if she had left without her seeing, somehow, or perhaps even collapsed, drunker than she thought, in the bathroom, before Andy re-entered the main bar, as present and conscious as ever, if a little wobbly on her modest heels now.

"Well, I survived."

"So I see. You want another round, or maybe some water?" Kate suggested, wary of being responsible for the reporter's hangover the next day. She didn't think she'd take it out on her in her article, but you never knew...

"Hah, I'm good I think," Andy said, slipping back into the booth nimbly enough. "Worst that can happen is I start asking uncomfortable questions."

"I really don't think there's anything you could ask that would be uncomfortable, anymore. You know all my dirty laundry."

The other woman's mouth twitched a little. "Do I indeed." It wasn't phrased as a question, though she didn't seem to be leading anywhere, necessarily, as she just reached to top up her glass.

Kate had gotten another beer in Andy's absence, and she plucked the lime from the neck now, squeezing the juice into the drink before putting it between her teeth and sucking it - that at least could explain the wince she gave at Andy's words. "Mm."

"Mind you," Andy said, after a long pause, seemingly forced by the silence between them into continuing in spite of herself. "I guess I might be tempted to do the same thing in your position."

"I'm..." Kate spit the lime out, looking confused. "Sorry, what?"

"Well, John Prince is fucking you royally. I see that. I guess fucking his wife is fair game under the circumstances."

"Jesus!" Kate leaned in quickly, cheeks colouring. "What the hell are you talking about? You can't just throw around accusations like that!"

"Please," Andy said, holding up a hand and shaking her head. "Don't. It doesn't matter - I won't be writing it down anywhere, don't worry."

"Jesus," Kate said again, wrapping her arms around herself and sitting back. "Fuck."

The other woman made a face. "Sorry," she muttered. "I'm... easily goaded into showing off. Forget I said anything."

"Yeah. That's not happening. Ever."

"Right. Well. I meant it about not spreading it around."

"How did you find out? Did somebody tell you?" Kate demanded then, frowning.

Sighing, Andy pursed her lips and stared down into her drink for another moment, shaking her head. "You two disappeared together, you were flushed after, and..." She paused, hesitating. "And you smell like her. Her perfume."

"Oh." Kate didn't like this, any of this, but it wasn't as if she could deny it now. "Just my luck, running into an investigative reporter right after," she sighed.

"Was just pure chance, a few things coming together at once. I had no... almost no suspicion before today."

"Almost? Oh come on, there's no way you could have known..."

"God, no, no, not at all. I just... knew there was something I didn't know." Andy's brow was still furrowed, but she smiled slightly at her clumsy wording. "If you know what I mean."

"Yeah... I guess so. Well. Good job figuring it out, I guess."

"I wish I hadn't, now. I wasn't going to say anything. I'm sorry."

Kate shrugged, somewhat morosely. "It's fine. It's not what you think, anyway."

"No?"

"I'm not having the affair to screw over John or get back at him or whatever."

"Oh, of course - I was just... I was just being pithy, I shouldn't have suggested that."

"All right."

The other woman stared into her glass a little longer, then knocked the last of it back. "I guess I should get going," she said resignedly.

"Uh, all right. If you want."

"Not really about what I want. I'm the asshole here."

"You're just doing your job."

"So were the SS." Andy reached for her purse, slipping out from the booth and pushing a little unsteadily to her feet. "I'll see you next week."

"Oh come on - Nazis? Getting a bit dramatic, aren't we?" Kate asked, swiveling where she sat to face the other woman.

"Are we? I did ruin your life, didn't I?" was Andy's riposte as she smoothed her dress down her thighs, then ran a hand through her artfully touseled hair. "Look, I'm sorry, whatever. Forget it. I'm... I don't even know what I've been trying to do here, but I clearly failed regardless. I'll come back and pick up some more soundbytes at the stabled next week, and then get back east where I belong."

"So you're reneging on your offer of free stablework? Fine, but you don't know what you're missing."

The other woman frowned again. "Don't," she muttered, sounding almost hurt.

"Don't what? Hold you to your word?"

"Don't start pretending we're cordial acquaintances just because I've stopped."

"Listen, the only other person who knows as much about me and my secrets is Jamie - and she's my best friend. So the idea that a total stranger also knows all that... it's pretty scary. So excuse me for trying to pretend that we have some kind of relationship, friendship or not."

Andy looked like there were a hundred things she wanted to say to this, but eventually she just shook her head. "Whatever, okay. Sign me up for stable time or whatever. I'll see you later."

"Sure, fine," Kate said, frowning and turning back to her beer. "Bye."

"G'night."

 

Kate made her way to the apartment over the stables several hours later, flopping face-down onto the bed still rumpled from that afternoon's 'roll in the hay' with Susie. She was asleep minutes later, and didn't wake up until half past eight in the morning, which seemed to be as late as her body and brain were going to let her sleep. Though there was no training scheduled for that day there was still plenty to get on with, and she could already hear the sound of work going on beneath her.

With a groan she rolled out of bed and into the shower, emerging ten minutes later and slipping into her well-worn jeans and tank top. Jamie would be arriving with coffee and donuts soon, and she certainly had things to discuss with her. After all, hasn't she been warning me for months that I was gonna get caught? Sure enough, she soon heard a knock on the door and then the sound of it being unlocked, and the younger woman emerged with a bag in one hand and two disposable cups in a cardboard holder in the other.

"Ah, the life-bringing goddess arrives," Kate announced, just finishing up straightening the bedlinens. "Caffeine - gimme, gimme."

"Late night, huh?" Jamie said with a patient chuckle, proffering the ambrosia in question.

"Late, long night," Kate agreed. "Fuck me, James, you won't believe what happened..."

"Shall I sit down, then," Jamie asked, although she was already doing so, tossing the bag of baked goods onto a side table as she flopped into an armchair with her own coffee.

Perching on the end of the bed, Kate recounted her evening, including an edited reference to her encounter in the coatroom with Susie and then her visit to the bar with Andy and subsequent 'outing' by the drunken reporter.

"Wow... so she just knew, just like that?"

"Well, she might just have been guessing, but she seemed pretty sure of it, even when I protested," Kate said, shrugging. "So yeah, I guess so."

"Huh. So. I mean... what's she going to do? She hasn't threatened you or anything, has she? Because I swear, I'll-"

"No, no... nothing like that. She says she'll keep it secret, and I think she will. John's a big enough asshole that he might fire her if she made it public."

"Well. Okay. I mean, that's good at least, right?"

"Yeah, I guess so."

The other woman glanced across at Kate, her expression concerned. "How you holding up?"

The trainer shrugged, looking down at her coffee. "To be honest, it's almost a relief. I mean, I was worried she might figure it out... so I guess there's nothing to worry about now."

"Huh. Well, I guess that's good too, then."

"Mm."

Jamie's brows drew together. "What's on your mind?"

"Huh?" Kate glanced up quickly. "I dunno, I just... it's a little weird, somebody else knowing. And as soon as she said it, she left. I think she lost any respect she had for me when she figured it out."

"But... she'd presumably figured it out before she came to the bar with you though?"

"Probably."

"So if she'd lost all respect for you, why would she have come out at all?"

"I don't know... to get more dirt out of me, maybe?"

"You think?"

"I have no idea, honestly. I'm not really great at reading people - I prefer things on four legs."

"Maybe she felt bad."

"About what?"

Jamie shrugged. "Busting you. Or, y'know. Everything."

"Yeah, right," Kate said, snorting. "If there's one thing I haven't seen from Andy Driver it's remorse. She doesn't feel bad about what she does in the course of 'doing her job'."

"As far as you've seen."

"Yeah, well. You've barely met her, how would you know better?"

"All right, all right. It was just a thought."

"Anyway. It doesn't really matter. She says she's going to stop by at some point to get some soundbytes, but otherwise she's done. So she'll be out of our hair soon enough." Strangely, Kate didn't look too happy about this prospect.

"Huh. Weird. That Dylan kid, her intern? He was down here yesterday and seemed to think they'd be around a week yet."

"Well, I guess that was before she got all weirded out and decided sticking around was a waste of her time."

"Wait and see 'til you see her again - maybe she'll change her mind in the cold light of day. It sounds like you were both a little... tired and emotional."

"Yeah, whatever. Anyway. Enough chatting - we have work to do."

"Aye Aye, captain."

 

"So... that's it? You're just going to wrap it up?" Dylan couldn't keep his disappointment from showing on his face - obviously he had been looking forward to another week of California sunshine. "But... do you really have enough for a piece?"

"I will once I've grabbed a bit more filler at the stables, I reckon."

"Oh. Well... okay, then. You're the boss."

"Mm. Do you want to do the final bit of data collection? You got along well enough with them the other day, right?"

"Uh, yeah, I guess, though I kinda had some other interviews planned with some other trainers, to get their viewpoints on the whole thing..."

"Brilliant. You do that, and I'll start trying to write this thing."

"Sure. Okay. Anything else you want me to do?"

"Nope. Go enjoy the sunshine."

"Uh... okay! Cool, thanks."

"Great." Now, for God's sake, leave me alone to mope...

Luckily Dylan seemed to sense her low mood and was not inclined to try and alleviate it, and he excused himself soon to head out 'to catch some rays', leaving her on her own. Relaxing back in her chair, Andy tipped her head back and brought her fingers up to pinch the bridge of her nose, thinking about the previous night.

Sometimes I wish I had blackouts when I was drunk. Sadly, she remembered all too well the previous night's events - the gala, encountering Kate pink-cheeked and nervous in the bathroom, accompanying her to the surprising bar where she had managed to draw her out of herself, feel comfortable with her for the first time. Only to fuck it up completely. You just have to show off how clever you are, don't you?

She had really thought they were getting somewhere - that she might have been able to glean something of the woman behind the sordid backstory - before she ruined her chances. Kate's behaviour afterwards had been puzzling, and she still wasn't sure why the other woman hadn't been the one to storm out angrily. In the end, she'd been the one to leave, though even at the time she couldn't have said why. She just... I just couldn't sit there another moment and not talk about the doping.

Well, alleged doping. In the end the trainer had kept her license, but as Andy had seen, the repercussions from the scandal had been bad enough. Kathryn Roundtree had been an up-and-coming young trainer at the time, her first batch of carefully-raised, painstakingly-trained Thoroughbreds making mincemeat of the competition on the East Coast circuit. Her new techniques and vocal opposition to the widely-accepted methods had made her unpopular among the old crowd of trainers, and so it was that when one of her charges, a majestic stallion by the name of Zeus' Last Stand, tested unclean after a thrilling sweepstakes match the community was more than happy to believe that she had been doping all along.

A veritable witchhunt ensued, and though none of the other horses in her care tested positive the scandal was enough that her employers quickly dropped her and distanced themselves as far as they could. Andy had been there for the whole thing, her in-depth profiles of the various personalities involved and reporting on the findings bringing the scandal to a wider selection of readers than would have ever normally followed such a story.

She'd always defended her reporting on the story - she'd stuck to the facts, and she'd made sure she saw the tests with her own eyes. She'd also done a certain amount of investigation into other potential culprits for the doping itself, and had come up empty. But had she second-guessed herself over the years since? Had she wondered whether she'd made a mistake somewhere along the line, missed something? Of course she did. And Kate Roundtree hearing that from me now, after all this time, would just be a slap in the face.

Not like she'd have a chance to tell her now anyway - despite her friendliness the night before Kate certainly wouldn't want to see her now, in the cold light of day. No, best to write up what she had and hope it was good enough - for her editors, at least, since she knew it wouldn't be up to her own rigorous standards.

Let Dylan flex is interview muscles. I'll just sit here with wireless, air conditioning and curtains, and do what I do best. Without ever having to look Kate Roundtree in the face ever again.

The next few days passed quickly enough for Kate - she had little time to dwell on her last meeting with Andy when her days were full of workouts to watch, training schedules to supervise, and dozens of other tasks to be done. Lotus's schedule was picking up in the run-up to the big race, and so Kate found her tension levels mounting as she waited for something - anything - to go wrong.

She saw Andy Driver's intern around the stables taking interviews and quotes, so she knew the other woman was still in town, but she didn't seem to be showing her face. This, while not surprising, was somehow disappointing to the trainer, though she couldn't put her finger on exactly why. She did, of course, have her cell phone number, and found herself composing and erasing a half dozen text messages in what little down time she had in the evenings or early mornings. Why would Andy be avoiding her? Wasn't the she the one with something to hide, with the reason for embarrassment? She considered insisting she come back to the stables to do her 'shift' as promised, but in the end she resisted, burying her phone under a pile of dirty clothes and getting back to work in a resigned but dutiful fashion.

The Princes didn't even seem to notice the reporter's absence until Kate remarked on it during a post-coital chat; a mistake she greatly regretted. Susie told John, who swooped down one morning to grill her about what she had done to 'piss off' the reporter.

"I told you, I didn't do anything!" Kate exclaimed, exasperated. "I was cooperative, just like I said I would be. Obviously she's just gathered enough information and doesn't need to stick around any longer."

"I thought she was supposed to be spending a day mucking out the stables or something?"

"She doesn't need to do that to write a magazine article."

"Maybe not, but she wanted it, so why hasn't she been here?"

"How the hell should I know?" Kate snapped, regretting the break a moment later when she saw her boss's face begin to colour. "She's welcome to come and help out but I can't make her."

"Call her. Invite her. Lick her boots if you have to - I want that woman happy."

"And you think forcing her to muck out stalls is going to accomplish that? I'm sure she's perfectly happy in her hotel room or sitting by the pool or whatever."

"I think she gets what she wants. So you call her. If she doesn't want to come and see the stables again, fine, whatever. But be sure."

"Yeah, okay, fine. Is that all?"

John Prince's eyes narrowed, but he nodded. "That's all."

 

Hi Andy, it's Kate Roundtree. Thought about calling but figured you might not pick up. The invitation to come down to the stables for a day still stands if you want it. Just let me know.

Andy frowned confusedly at the message, coming as it did four days since they'd last seen one another. Why now?

In truth, she could use a change of scenery - despite having plenty of interviews and soundbytes to work with her article was wan and flaccid, barely publishable and certainly not something she'd want to put her name to.

After an hour or so trying to surf the net and failing to suitably distract herself, she picked her phone up again.

Sure. When would work for you?

The response wasn't long in coming.

Whenever. Tomorrow?

Trying to ignore the sudden flutter in her stomach at that thought, Andy replied immediately.

Sure. 7am work?

See you then.

Sighing and sitting back, Andy reached for her cigarettes automatically before remembering she was inside. She'd been resigned to never seeing Kate Roundtree in the flesh again, probably. Now she would see her tomorrow. At least there's no way she's going to expect me to explain my actions on Saturday. Which is is just as well, since I can't.

 

"Kate, hey Kate - your new intern's here," Jamie said jokingly, though her expression was slightly apprehensive. "Security just called, she's on her way from the parking lot. You want me to let Carlos know, have him show her around?"

Kate looked up from her computer, blinking and then giving a shake of her head. "No, it's okay. I'll take responsibility while she's here."

"Really? You sure?" Jamie frowned a little. "John didn't tell you to do this, did he? He can't force you, you know, there's nothing he can do to you at this stage, not with Lotus about to run..."

"He can still switch jockeys on me, and if he did that we'd lose for sure. I can't give him any excuse right now."

"Well, I'm just saying, if you want me around..."

"Thanks, but I don't need a chaperone, really. It'll be fine." Kate closed her laptop and stood, looking like she hadn't gotten much sleep the night before. "Trust me."

Jamie looked like she didn't. But she nodded anyway. "All right. Just... well. Don't worry too much, okay? I'm sure it'll be fine."

 

Andy was dressed quite practically - moreso than Kate had expected, actually. Her boots were still hilariously pristine, but her jeans, while figure-hugging, were proper, well-worn Wranglers, and with her hair back in an alice band, her grey tank-top and what appeared to be an honest-to-goodness plaid shirt tied around her waist, she almost fit in - were it not for her lily-white skin, every inch of which was currently slathered in fresh sunscreen.

"Hi," Kate greeted her, the word hanging in the air between them somewhat awkwardly before she shrugged it off. "Right, so. All joking about mucking stables aside, I didn't think that'd be a very fun day for you, so I scheduled something else instead. I hope that's okay."

"Um... Sure. I mean, I wasn't here to have 'fun' per se but okay, whatever works for you."

Kate opened her mouth to explain further and then changed her mind, shaking her head and gesturing for the other woman to follow her. She led her down the stable aisles until they reached a large, spacious stall - the plaque on the front read 'Prince's Blue Lotus' - with a tall grey horse inside.

Andy hung back, hands in pockets, waiting for further explanation - though Kate had seen enough of her behaviour around horses to know she was no stranger to them, and indeed had some small measure of experience with them, she was still, apparently, to approach such a prized possession without explicit instruction to do so.

"I told [girl] to take the day off - we're going to be her grooms today," Kate said, approaching the stall door. The mare stuck her head out inquisitively, and the trainer reached up to stroke her neck. "Think you're up for that?"

"Oh. Um... I mean, yeah, absolutely. That would be..." Andy was staring not at the horse but at Kate, looking rather confused, but she nodded vigorously anyway.

"Okay. Have you ever been around racehorses before?" Kate's tone was light, though there was a twist of something else there, Andy could tell.

"Are they that different from normal horses?"

"Yes, and no. They're much more high energy, and we don't discourage that like people with regular horses do. So be careful when you're around them, I don't want you getting hurt accidentally."

"Ah, so this isn't an elaborate plan to get me trampled by your horse for ultimate irony." Andy smirked a little.

"Mm, maybe it is, but I still have to give you the safety briefing first," Kate replied, straight-faced.

"Covering your ass, I get it. All right, go on..."

"First thing we're gonna do is groom her, so if you'll hand me that halter..."

 

There wasn't really much of a chance for awkward silences or weird moments over the next few hours. With unsurprisingly briskness Kate took them through the daily chores of a groom - and there were quite a few. After grooming the mare they took her for a walk through the stables, Lotus jigging at the end of her lead and snorting and tossing her head in a way that made Andy slightly nervous. Kate projected nothing but calm throughout, though, and they made their way back to her stall without any incidents in order to saddle her up for her morning run.

Andy proved, as Kate had suspected, to remember a little about horses from somewhere, and though she needed guiding through a couple of the finer points of saddling the horse, she remembered a good deal of the basics, and handled the collection of buckles and straps and flaps with comparative confidence.

Not long afterwards her rider showed up and was boosted up by Kate; together she and Andy led the horse to the track as the rider adjusted stirrups and reins, readying herself for the ride to come. They helped her through the gate and then stood back, a slightly wistful looking coming over Kate's face. "Come on," she said a moment later, turning away. "We've got stuff to do."

Andy didn't say anything as they made their way back to the stables, though she very much wanted to - the urge to reach out for her hand, to offer some words of sympathy or comfort - was almost unbearable. You should never have agreed to come out today. You know you feel too close to this. It's like a scab you can't stop picking at.

The 'other stuff' turned out to be more of what Andy had been imagining when she had thought about working at the stables - they cleaned out Lotus's stall (though it was quite clean already and didn't take long), refilled her hay net, and spent a good half an hour walking around the fenced-in paddock outside her stall, inspecting the wooden boards for any signs of splintering or wear.

Though it didn't seem so laborious at the time, she discovered she was more than ready for a snack by the time Kate suggested it, and gratefully followed her to the staff breakroom next to the office. It was small but very well-appointed, with a full-size fridge and several comfortable seats for people to relax in as well as a small flat-screen television on the wall.

"What do you want?" Kate asked her, leaning over to inspect the contents of the fridge. "There's fruit, vegetables, yoghurt, dips, spreads, deli meat, bread..."

"Oh, um, if it's okay I guess I could make myself a sandwich?" Andy suggested, reaching into her jeans pocket and retrieving her cigarettes, waving them guiltily. "I'll... be back in a couple of minutes?"

"Sure," Kate said, glancing over and nodding. "Just make sure you're well away from the barn."

"Of course, absolutely."

When Andy reappeared, she found Kate sitting on the sofa, eating a sandwich, another sitting on a plate on the coffee table. "Hope you like turkey," she remarked, nodding towards the snack.

"Oh, you didn't need to... thanks," Andy said in the end, taking a seat opposite Kate. The room was otherwise empty, presumably due to it being quite early for lunch but a little late for a morning break.

"No problem."

"So. Um. What's the afternoon, then?"

"More of the same. We'll walk her again, and then the vet's coming by for her weekly check-up, and then we'll turn her out and that'll be it, really."

"And you gave the impression this was all such hard work." Andy said in a slightly teasing tone before biting into her sandwich.

"Well, normally there's be more but I didn't think you'd be up for an eleven-hour day..."

"What're you trying to say?"

Kate glanced up quickly, then shrugged, looking back down at her sandwich. "Nothing."

"I can take anything you throw at me, honest."

"It's fine. We'll finish up after the vet."

"All right."

Kate nodded to herself, finishing her sandwich and brushing her hands off briskly. "You want a drink with that? There's water, juice, soda..."

"Just some water would be great, thanks."

Kate retrieved two bottles of water from the fridge, placing one in front of Andy before taking a seat once again. She then directed her attention to the television, though she didn't seem to be particularly interested in the sports replays it was currently showing.

"So. Um. I suppose I should apologise for making such a sharp exit before," Andy began, her sandwich half-finished on the plate before her.

"That's okay," Kate murmured, not glancing over. "Don't worry about it."

"I shouldn't. I don't even know why I'm bringing it up," Andy said, her tone rather incredulous. "But... I do. I've been trying so hard to just be polite and calm and friendly, and I guess I was kinda drunk and then I was a stupid idiot, and so I felt like I had to split."

"That's fair enough. Everyone has nights like that."

"Mm. I guess. Still, you didn't need to see that. I've caused you enough trouble already."

Kate shrugged, gaze fixed on the screen. "It's fine."

She heard a quiet sigh. "All right." And then Andy was back to eating her sandwich.

The other woman stayed where she was, staring up at the screen with a fixed intensity, as if taking her eyes off it would cause the relative peace they had managed to maintain thus far to dissolve.

The sandwich was finished, and Andy wordlessly gathered up hers and Kate's plates, stacking them into the dishwasher. Then she retrieved her water, but didn't sit back down, instead moving to lean against the counter in the little kitchen area as she took a drink. Eventually Kate seemed to rouse, turning away from the television to look over at the other woman.

"Ready to go?"

"Lead the way."

Andy could tell something was amiss almost right away. They hadn't gotten more than halfway down the aisle with Lotus, now bathed and slightly more subdued after her morning workout, before Kate stopped in her tracks, frowning. "Does she seem off to you?"

Frowning, blinking rather bemusedly, Andy shook her head. "I'm... sorry, I really can't see anything. I mean, I don't know her..."

"Yeah, no, right. Listen, can you take her, walk her down the aisle? I need to watch her move."

"Sure, absolutely."

She accepted the lead from Kate, who stepped back to watch as they made their way down the aisle, Andy feeling somewhat nervous at suddenly having responsibility for the million-dollar racehorse in her hands. A few seconds later she heard the trainer curse, and turned to find her frowning, hands shoved in her pockets. "She's favouring her near fore."

"Huh." Andy just nodded dumbly. "So... what do we do?"

"Wait for the vet to get here and see what he says."

"Right." Andy frowned, looking a little confused, as though she wasn't sure how worried she was supposed to be. "Okay."

"Let's put her back in her stall."

Andy did as she was instructed, though she seemed even more nervous about handling Lotus than she had been before, her expression serious. For her part the horse seemed unconcerned, immediately moving to her haynet and digging in enthusiastically. Kate stood outside the stall, forearms resting on the lip of the door, her expression faraway and somewhat apprehensive.

After a long pause, she felt the slightest touch of a hand to the back of her shoulder, tentative and hesitant.

"I'm sure it'll be okay," Andy murmured.

"You can't know that," Kate replied, her tone thin, forced. "No offence, but you don't understand how this works."

"You're right, I don't. I'm just... trying to help."

"Why? Why do you care? If this fails it just makes your story all the better," Kate said bitterly.

"Oh, fuck the story - who cares? I don't want to see you fail." Andy did step back, though, taking her hand away and slipping both hands into her pockets, her bare shoulders hunching a little.

"What do you care if I do or not? You said it yourself, we're not friends. We're not even acquaintances. What does it matter to you?"

"Sure, okay, because I'm a soulless bitch who doesn't care about anyone, right?"

"I didn't say that."

"Then what do you expect from me? You think I could just watch this and not give a shit? I'm not actually a fuckin' sociopath, okay?"

"Fine," Kate said harshly, sighing a moment later and shaking her head. "Sorry. I didn't mean to imply that."

She heard Andy sigh. "All right." Then, "Maybe I should go."

Kate's shoulders tensed for a moment, and her expression when she turned to look at the other woman was strangely fixed. "Yeah. Sure. If you want."

Andy frowned. "I was sort of assuming it was what you would want."

"I just want you to leave happy so you'll write a good story so John will get off my fucking back and leave me alone," the other woman replied tightly. "Of course, it might not even matter any more, if Lotus doesn't run, so who cares?" Andy was amazed to realise Kate's eyes were glistening with unshed tears - of frustration or sadness, she couldn't tell.

"Hey..." Brows still furrowed, Andy approached again, pulling her hands from her pockets and reaching out a little in spite of herself, although she didn't dare touch the other woman. "This was never going to be a hatchet job. I wouldn't have taken it on if it had been. I never came here to give you a hard time."

"Yeah, well. Tell him that," Kate said, with a quaver to her voice.

"I'm telling you," Andy said. "Ignore him. He'll get what he wants, I promise."

"One way or another."

"Kate..." Andy did touch her, now, hands coming to rest on her upper arms, her eyes apparently filled with what could only be concern, compassion. "You're a remarkable woman. You can do anything."

The other woman's lips were set in a hard line. "You should know better than anybody how wrong that statement is. I haven't managed to do anything my entire life."

"That is not your fault."

"I'm the only common factor. Some people would say that's plenty of evidence."

"Jesus, would you listen to yourself? Kate, Lotus will be fine. And if she's not, you will still find a way to make this work, because you never give up, ever. And that's why, in the end, you're going to win."

"I thought you were a reporter, not a cheerleader," Kate muttered, shaking her head.

"Can we forget about what I am for now? Please?"

"Listen, I tried to do that once already and you... told me not to. So I'm sorry. I don't know what you want."

Kate saw Andy's lip twitch slightly with something she couldn't quite bring herself to say. She shuffled back a little, her hands finally dropping from Kate's arms, slipping down them as she let them hang back by her sides, leaving the other woman a little cold, suddenly. She shook her head. "I don't either," she muttered, eyes dropping from Kate's. "Sorry."

Kate opened her mouth to reply but was interrupted by the arrival of the vet, a middle-aged man who greeted her and barely spared Andy a glance before turning towards the stall and asking after its occupant.

"I don't know. She was fine this morning but... I'm afraid something might've happened during her workout," Kate said, the slightest note of panic entering her voice. Andy began to edge away, not wanting to interfere in matters beyond her ken, but then the trainer looked over, green eyes wide and pleading, and she found herself rooted to the spot, unable to leave as the vet let himself into the stall and began his examination.

As the stood there, completely ignored while the vet systematically looked Lotus over - checking this, feeling that - Andy found that she had moved a little closer again, or perhaps that Kate had moved toward her, because the other woman seemed perilously near now as they stood almost at a right angle to one another, shoulders a few inches apart, and as their knuckles brushed past one another Andy shivered in spite of herself, fighting the suddenly overwhelming urge to take Kate's hand in hers. She looked away, then, lest her gaze betray her, pulling her lower lip between her teeth to chew on it.

In the end, it turned out that Lotus was going to be okay. She knew this not because of anything the vet said - it was all like a foreign language to her - but because Kate turned to her and flung her arms around her in relief. Andy was too shocked to respond at first, but after a moment she brought her arms up to return the embrace, allowing some of her own tension to abate. The vet gave her a mild look - eyebrows raised, half-smiling, before waving a piece of paper to draw attention to it and putting it down on a nearby bench, and gathering this things together to leave without another word.

"Sorry," Kate said, pulling back after a moment, smiling self-consciously as she reached up to run a hand through her hair. "I guess I just... I was so relieved. If she hadn't been able to run..."

"I know. It's fine, it's..." Andy felt a lump in her throat, and swallowed it quickly. "It's okay."

"I must smell terrible. All sweaty and horsey."

"That's... not a bad smell," Andy said, with a quick, on and then off again smile.

"Well, I still think I ought to go for a shower, now that our work here is done."

"Right." Andy blinked, stepped back a little. "Of course. I should... get back to the hotel, I guess."

"No, no, I didn't mean that you had to go," Kate said, shaking her head. "I'm sorry. Is there... what else would you like to do while you're here?"

"Honestly I really don't know. I can go, really - I feel like I've overstayed my welcome already."

"Oh." Was it Andy's imagination that Kate looked a little disappointed? "You haven't, but okay."

"Is there... anything else you think I should see?"

"Well, I thought... you might want to take a ride out on the track, just to see what it's like," Kate said hesitantly. "On one of the exercise ponies, not a racehorse, don't worry."

Andy hesitated. "I haven't been on a horse in years..."

"That's okay, it was a stupid idea really. Don't worry about it."

"But I mean, if you're sure, I mean, it sounds cool. You just have to... promise not to laugh at me."

Kate gave a small smile. "I wouldn't dream of it."

 

Andy wasn't bad. I mean, she was no horsewoman, but her seat was secure and she had a feel for her mount as she was more or less taxied round the track by Lotus' rider on another of the docile exercise ponies while Kate watched from the stands. The young rider was friendly, and chatted easily with her as they made their way around the track, which was far larger than Andy had imagined it would be.

"So, have you had a good time at the stables so far?"

"Acutally, yeah, mostly," Andy said with a somewhat tentative smile. "It's been an interesting day."

"Yeah? Make you want to give up reporting and become a groom?" the other rider asked with a grin.

"Hah, not likely - I like my lie-ins way too much."

"Fair enough. You don't get many of those in this business."

"No, I see that - must put a bit of a crimp on your social life."

"Oh, we manage to have fun anyway," she said with a grin. "Work hard, play hard, y'know?"

"Is that so?" Andy said, managing a slight smirk in [thingy]'s direction before turning her attention back to the track in front of her.

"Well, most of us anyway. I guess once you get to be the boss there's more working and less playing."

"I don't think Kate's done much in the way of 'playing' in quite a long time."

"No, she's been busting her ass since all of this started up. I hope she gets a break soon - it's not healthy to go that long without, y'know... letting loose."

"I wouldn't hold your breath," Andy muttered, as much to herself as the young woman beside her.

"Christ, uh... I guess so? I mean, if I remember how to trot I guess I should still be able to do the rest just fine, right?"

"Trotting's the hard one. It just gets easier after that," the girl replied, grinning. "C'mon, just follow my lead."

With a nervous glance in the direction of the woman watching them from the stands, Andy nodded and followed along after [name], her horse gamely trotting in the other mount's wake and jolting her up and down until she synced with its rhythm posting somewhat unsteadily in the saddle. A few moments later the horse broke into a canter, and after an initial wave of fear Andy realised what the exercise rider had said was true - this was far easier and more comfortable. Of course, the last time she'd been on a horse, more than fifteen years previously, canter was as fast as she'd gone, so the prospect of galloping was one that seemed at once as terrifying as it was inevitable.

She tried to banish her fears by focusing on the narrative description instead - the earthy, loamy smell of the track, the rhythmic thud of her mount's hooves, the rough mane clenched between her fingers. She could see the back of the other rider ahead of her, the waving tail like a banner, and felt the rush of wind against her cheeks, whipping blood into them, her breath coming in gasps.

At some point along the way, she stopped thinking at all. She began to forget that she was riding a horse, that she was sitting atop another living beast, and began instead to feel the way she did when she was driving along a deserted rural highway - to use a total cliché, she felt free.

It was only when she heard the shout of her name that she came back to herself to see the other rider waving her down, her own smile a wide grin as if she could guess exactly what Andy was feeling right then. "We should turn back in!" she yelled, jerking her head towards the stables.

Nodding, Andy guided her horse back in, the other rider dismounted and striding over to help her before she got there.

"Pretty good, right?" she asked as Andy slid off her mount.

"Hah, you could say that."

"C'mon, old guy, let's get you back to your stall," the rider said then, taking up both horses' reins in her hands. "I'll see you around, I guess."

"I suspect not," Andy muttered, but she smiled nevertheless. "Thanks," she said, turning to see Kate heading toward them.

"Well, I hope you enjoyed that, even a little," the trainer said as she arrived, her voice oddly strained.

Andy grinned in spite of herself, and in spite of her little twist in her stomach at Kate's rather conflicted tone. "More than a little," she said. "It's been too long since I was last on a horse."

"You looked good. Obviously you haven't forgotten everything."

"Just most stuff. We won't talk about those first few seconds of trotting," Andy said as the pair turned off toward the office once again.

"Hey, I promised not to laugh, and I stand by that."

"So you're saying I looked ridiculous, then."

"Trotting can be very hard to get the hang of," Kate said solemnly.

"Aw, fuckoff," Andy said a little giddily, leaning to nudge Kate as they walked.

"I didn't really master it 'til I was at least six."

"Okay, now you just sound obnoxious..."

Kate laughed a little. "Sorry, sorry. I really mean it though - you looked good out there. Natural."

Andy sobered a little now, her pace slowing slightly as they walked. "You don't... you don't ever ride any more, do you? I mean, it's a 'thing', right? A thing you just don't do?"

"No. When I had my... accident, I fucked up my arm and wrist. it's mostly okay now, but weak. I wouldn't trust them not to give out at the worst possible moment."

"Huh. I didn't know." Then, "I'm sorry."

"It's okay. Not your fault."

"Not that time, I guess."

Kate glanced over at the reporter, her expression serious. "Let's just... stop bringing that up, okay? Can't help either of us to dwell on it anymore."

"Well, I guess we won't have to. I mean. I suppose I should really book my ticket home and get out of your hair for good, now."

Kate frowned. "You have enough for your story now?"

"I've had enough for my story for days, in theory. I've just been... trying to hook into it. Trying to get a feel for you."

"Oh. And you think you've done that now?"

Andy was silent for a bit. "I don't know," she said eventually as they came to a stop outside the office. "But if I haven't, I'm not going to."

"Oh," Kate said again, sounding somewhat disappointed. "Well. Good luck, I guess. I hope you're happy with what you produce."

"Mm. Me too. Look, um..." Andy hesitated a moment, looking at Kate almost fearfully. "I'll be going for that drive up the coast tomorrow. I want to ask you to come."

"You do?"

"Yeah, but I feel like if I do, you might be offended at my, I dunno. Insensitivity. Or something."

"Oh. So why'd you just tell me that?"

"Well. I guess I was looking for a clue. On whether you'd be offended."

"What if I told you I wasn't? And that I'd like to go with you?"

Andy's relief was palpable. "Then I guess I'm asking if you want to do for a drive with me tomorrow."

"Sure," Kate said with a shy smile, which then faded. "Oh, shit, I mean... hold on, I need to check if I'm actually free. Just a sec..."

Andy stepped back to let Kate pass her into the office, the other woman heading straight for her desk. She flipped through the old-fashioned day planner sitting there, frowning as she found the correct day and skimmed through it. "There's a meet-and-greet thing in the afternoon, but I should be able to get away for a few hours beforehand?" she said, glancing up with a hopeful expression. "If that's okay."

"You have a remarkable talent for forcing me to get up in the morning..."

"Oh, I meant around lunchtime - is that too early?"

"No, no, that's fine," Andy said quickly. "As early as you like."

"Well, noon would be good for me, if that works for you."

"Sure - I'll bring some food and we can stop for lunch on the road. Any requests?"

"Is this still on the magazine's bill?"

"Nah, this one's on me, but that doesn't mean you should hold back."

"Well then, champagne and caviar all the way," Kate declared with a grin. "Except not the caviar, because I don't like fish."

"Champagne only, check. I guess I'll see you tomorrow, then - where should I pick you up? Or d'you want to make your way to the hotel?"

"Yeah, sure, let's do that. I'll see you at noon."

Andy nodded again, a little reflexively, shooting Kate a somewhat awkward smile. "Well. Goodbye for today, I guess."

"Mmhmm. G'bye."

 

Andy was glad she was worn out from a day's work, otherwise she might not have slept a wink. As it was, despite being bone-tired she still found herself lying in bed staring at the ceiling and thinking about Kate Roundtree.

The day had been... interesting, to say the least. She hadn't known exactly what to expect but the alternating pleasantness of spending time with the other woman interspersed with moments of stomach-twisting emotions which were hard to pinpoint but all too distracting had been unexpected.

She wasn't an idiot. She knew what she was feeling. She'd never been _involved_ with another woman before, per se, but her more casual dalliances over the years had been pretty indiscriminate, and so the idea of being attracted to one didn't bother her. That the woman in question was Kate... well, that was a whole other kettle of fish.

It wasn't the physical part - that she could understand. The other woman was tall and lean and toned, with arresting green eyes and a smile that, while infrequent, was dazzling when she displayed it. No, it was the rest of it that had her turned all around.

Kate was complicated. She had so many layers of conflict and uncertainty it was hard to know quite who she was speaking to half the time, and that usually wasn't Andy's type at all - _she_ preferred to be the complicated one, with her occasional dark moods and her sometimes impulsive behaviour.

Face it. You just want her because you can't have her.

If there was one thing she was certain of, it was that. Kate Roundtree might as well have 'not available' tattooed across her forehead - she was wrapped up in what seemed to be a messy affair with Susannah Prince and as if that wasn't enough, she considered Andy little more than a necessary evil.

Still, soon she'd be leaving, and then she'd mope a while, and then she'd get over it. She just had to get through the next day's drive - a prospect she looked forward to with a delicious mixture of trepidation and excitement. She wondered if Kate was feeling anything of the sort - she had seemed almost excited at the time, but it was hard to say.

 

She had eventually drifted off to sleep, and woke late and aching mid-morning with only a couple of hours before she'd see the other woman again. After a coffee and cigarette breakfast she made her way to a nearby grocery story, amused to see the 'organic' label plastered on just about anything. She spent far longer than she intended picking out their lunch, deliberating over deli meats and cheeses and warring over green olives versus black until she had nearly driven herself crazy. To her horror, this all took only an hour and so she still had what seemed like far too long to wait.

Eleven thirty found her waiting anxiously in the lobby; she didn't want the awkward situation that would arrive if the other woman came up to find her at her hotel room. As such, she was there to see Kate enter at about quarter to twelve, dressed in her usual uniform of boots, jeans, and a button-down shirt. The trainer immediately made her way over to a large mirror in the foyer and began to fuss with her hair, then pulled a tube of lipstick out of her purse and applied it to her lips. A moment later she scowled at her reflection and scrubbed it off on the back of her hand, which she then wiped on her jeans.

As such, it was with a tiny spark of hope in her stomach that Andy hung back a little longer, not wanting Kate to know she'd seen the lipstick incident, before approaching, feeling slightly overdressed with the white linen jacket she was wearing over her own shirt-and-jeans combo.

"Hey," she said, waving somewhat awkwardly as she approached.

"Oh, hi," Kate greeted her, smiling nervously. "I was just about to call you, I didn't know which room you were in."

"Well, I'm here now. Shall we?"

"Sure. Um... your car or mine?"

"Oh, well, all the food's in mine. Although you're the one with the ugly truck, which is pretty exciting... I guess it's down to you - would you prefer to drive, or be driven?"

"I don't mind," Kate said with a shrug. "If the food's in yours we can just go with that."

"All right then. Guess we'll have to save finding out if your truck likes me 'til another time."

"Mm... I'm sure it would."

"You never know. Anyway, you'll have to tell me where we're going so don't think you get out of any work."

Kate grinned. "I think I can handle navigator duties."

 

Kate guided them out of the city and up the coast, handily avoiding the worst of the midday traffic so most of their time was spent actually driving, not just sitting in a standstill. While they were in the city there were plenty of directions to give, but once they got out on the 101 there wasn't much else for her to say and so she fell silent, rolling down the window of the rental car and looking out over the passing hills. Andy reached over eventually, causing Kate to give a sharp intake of breath that she hoped the other woman hadn't heard, and popped open the glove compartment to reveal a carry case, presumably containing CDs. "You want to pick something out?"

"Oh, uh, sure," she said, wondering if this was some sort of test. Don't be stupid, of course not. Just... pick something, anything. She opened the case and flipped through, noting Andy's taste in classic folk rock - not what she had been expecting. After some deliberation she picked one out and popped it into the CD player. "How about this?" she asked as Simon and Garfunkel's 'Mrs Robinson' came on.

"Fab - perfect Sunday drive music. Well, this is a Saturday, but you know what I mean," Andy said with a quick grin across at Kate before her eyes went back to the road.

"Wish it was Sunday - I wouldn't have to go back to work," Kate groaned, tipping her head back against the headrest.

"You don't have work tomorrow? Aw, you should've said, we could've stalled the drive..."

"I, uh, thought you were leaving tomorrow."

"Oh. Well. I mean, could be - haven't really got around to booking anything yet."

"You haven't?"

Andy grinned, though her eyes were still to the front. "I'm terrible at getting around to stuff."

"If I didn't know better I'd say you liked it out here," Kate remarked lightly.

"Hah, nope. Still hate this fuckin' heat."

"You get used to it, after a while."

"Mm. Maybe."

"Plus, y'know, there's a certain perverse pleasure to wearing tank tops in December."

"Well, I suppose there's an appeal in that... but don't you miss... weather? Real weather I mean?"

"I dunno, maybe? But you've gotta make the best of what you've got, y'know?"

Andy's smile turned a little tighter at this, though she attempted to cover it up by breaking into song along with the CD a moment later, in a husky but tuneful voice -

"Coo, coo, ca-choo, Mrs Robinson
Jesus loves you more than you will know...
"

Kate smiled and turned to look out the window once more, hand resting on the edge of the door.

 

Andy, it turned out, knew a lot of Simon and Garfunkel lyrics. Kate enjoyed listening to her sing all the way up the coast, though she never joined in herself. They made it past Malibu before she straightened up in her seat, pointing towards an exit up ahead. "That's a state park - it's a nice place to stop if you're ready for lunch."

"Sure thing."

There wasn't much to the 'park' - trees around here were rather short and scrubby - but after they got out of the car Kate motioned for the other woman to follow her, picnic things in hand, and Andy trotted along to catch her up, falling into step by her side.

"You have a nice voice," Kate remarked as they walked. "Do you sing a lot?"

"Me? God, no - just in the car and the shower."

"Oh. Well, you should... I dunno, at least do karaoke or something."

Andy laughed at this. "Karaoke? I don't think that'd be my speed, somehow."

"Yeah, sorry... I don't know what I was thinking," Kate said, obviously embarrassed now. "Nevermind."

"Hey, no, I didn't mean it like... I'm a really terrible performer. I can't even talk with people watching, never mind sing. That was all I meant."

"Yeah, okay. Fair enough."

"Did... you enjoy it?" the other woman asked now, rather tentatively. "Performing, I mean?"

"Well, it wasn't really a performance... I mean yeah, I guess it was, but it never really felt that way. It was a lot more private than that... though I guess maybe that's what all performances feel like, I don't know."

"I wouldn't know either - maybe if I could pretend I was in private the whole concept wouldn't scare me so much."

"In the stadium you couldn't really let any of the noise or the crowd get to you - you had to block it all out or you'd fail for sure."

"Mm. I... read up on you, y'know. I mean, about your showjumping career, obviously I knew more recent stuff already."

"Oh. I guess there was a lot of stuff written about me back then."

"Quite a bit, yeah - you were quite the Golden Child. And then with the accident..."

"Yeah. There was plenty to talk about."

"It was pretty horrific," Andy said blandly. "I... didn't know."

"It happens," Kate replied with a stiff shrug. "Hazard of the job."

"Still. I'm sorry. For what it's worth."

"Mm." Then, "we're almost there."

 

'There' was a little, somewhat scrubby clearing, unimpressive until Andy realised it was sitting at the edge of a ridge that overlooked the ocean. She had known it was close, of course, from the sound of the waves crashing, but hadn't realised it was so near until they arrived in the clearing. "Sorry there's no table or anything," Kate apologised, looking around for the flattest patch of ground.

"It's beautiful," Andy said, turning to smile at the other woman.

"Yeah, it's not bad, is it?" Kate asked, glancing up.

"It really isn't." And nor are you.

"Well, should be a good backdrop to our meal, then. C'mon, I'm starving, let's dig in."

They were both pretty hungry, it turned out - Andy's coffee and cigarette breakfast hadn't gone far. They were mostly silent through the meal, listening to the crash of the waves against the cliffs below. Kate seemed somewhat on edge, staring down at her food and shredding her baguette into crumbs and tossing them to the ground squirrels that gambolled about. On eating her fill Andy relaxed back on the ground, propping herself up on her elbows with a contented sigh.

"So do you come out here a lot?" she asked.

"Not a lot, no... I mean, maybe once a month or so. Is that a lot?" Kate asked, frowning.

"I dunno. It's 'some', definitely. How'd you find it?"

"Suze took me here, on one of her 'outdoorsy' kicks. It's not that far from their house."

"Ah, I see. So I should watch where I'm lying, then?" Andy said, casting a slight smirk in Kate's direction.

Kate's mouth stretched into a thin line; she said nothing, the other woman was immediately contrite. "Hey, I'm sorry, I wasn't trying to..."

"It's fine," Kate said shortly, shaking her head. "Forget it."

"How did..." Andy stopped short, frowning and laying back on the ground. "Nevermind."

"No, what?" Kate asked quickly, pulling her long legs up and wrapping her arms around them.

"I was just going to ask... how all that happened. How you two ended up..."

"Oh. I'd tell you, but I don't really want you thinking less of me. Not when you've still go that article to write."

"Oh, pfft, the article's done - I mean, not _done_ done, but it's done in my head. Besides, I promised you nothing about this would go in."

"Yeah..."

"Anyway, forget it, I was just wondering. It's none of my business."

Kate was silent for a moment, looking out into the blue, and then she spoke. "It was entirely calculated. Well, opportunistic and then calculated. We met at some function thingie... Jamie dragged me to it, I don't even know how she got invited. I met Suze and I could tell she was interested... and then I found out who she was so I pursued her."

Andy lifted her head, raising her eyebrows in surprise.

"And along the way I talked about racing and how exciting it was and how it was a great thing to get involved with... and eventually she bit, and after that it was only a matter of convincing John."

"Huh." Then, "Wow."

"Yeah. Pretty low, I know."

"No, no, I mean, she's obviously enthusiastic about it, and it's not like they don't have plenty of money to chuck about. I just... it's just surprising, I guess."

"That's one word for it," Kate said with a dry laugh.

"Do you like her?" Andy asked after a moment's hesitation. "I mean, she's gorgeous of course, but do you two... connect?"

"Connect?"

"You know." Andy waved a hand. "Are you actually into her?"

Kate hesitated, looking almost embarrassed. "I don't know. Not really, I guess."

The other woman shot her a sympathetic look. "I'm sorry," she said.

"You're sorry?" Kate said, blinking. "That's... not what I was expecting."

"What did you expect?"

"I dunno. Disgust?"

Andy made a face, and shook her head. "You could never disgust me," she said quietly.

"Mm. I mean, oh," Kate murmured, dropping her gaze to the ground. "Well, thanks, I guess. And, um... don't tell Suze I told you any of that."

"Hell no, I won't say a word. Doubt I'll see her again before I leave anyway."

"No, probably not."

"So... is that it?" Andy said now. "I mean, with Susie? Do you plan to just... keep seeing her and hope one day she gets bored with you?"

"Pretty much, yeah. I mean... I can't break things off in case she fires me, so I'm just kind of in a holding pattern until then."

"That's kind of depressing."

Kate shrugged. "It's fine, really. I don't have time for a relationship anyway, my job keeps me too busy..."

The other woman raised her eyebrows at this. "Y'know, I know you're busy, but you've been able to find plenty of time for me this past couple of weeks... does that mean I've been making your work slip? I'm really sorry about that..."

"What? No, no, you being around hasn't affected my work. I just mean... I don't know, it doesn't matter. It's all hypothetical anyway."

"Might not be, one day. What if you met someone?"

Kate looked up sharply at this. "The people I'm interested in generally aren't interested in me."

"That seems... implausible. Who wouldn't want you?"

"You know. People."

"People are idiots."

"Mm."

"Kate..." Andy sat up, now, leaning forward a bit, her eyes boring into Kate's. "You are beautiful, and fascinating, and any woman would be blind not to want you."

The brunette blinked, obviously taken aback by this sudden declaration. "Thanks," she murmured, her cheeks colouring deeply. "But really, you don't have say that..."

Andy's brow furrowed slightly. "I... think I do, actually," she said quietly.

"No, really, there's no reason you should feel like you have to cheerlead for me - I wasn't fishing for compliments."

"Fuck, Kate, I'm not cheerleading, I'm-..." Andy broke off, unable to continue. "Never mind."

"Listen, Andy. I know... I was a bitch to you when you first got here, and I'm sorry that I treated you that way. You... I held you responsible for a lot of bad stuff that happened to me, and I took it out on you. And I'm sorry."

"Don't be. I mean. You weren't wrong."

"Well, no, but... you were just doing your job."

"Let's not have this discussion again."

"I-- yeah, alright." Kate sighed and looked away. "Sorry. I guess I just wanted to... clear the air, one last time, before you left."

"You really think we can? You don't think... there's just too much?"

"I think you have to keep looking forward, not back, if you want to get anywhere. There's no point in dwelling on the past."

"Well, look, you don't have to apologise to me. Ever."

"Yeah, okay. Sure."

"Kate, honestly. I wish I could..." Andy trailed off again, shaking her head, and then pushed to her feet suddenly. "So can you get down to the water from here?"

"Oh, um, yeah, I think there's a path that takes you down... why, do you have the sudden urge to go swimming?" Kate asked, tipping her head to look up at the other woman with a small smile.

"Was only considering a walk on the beach, though now that you mention it it's pretty tempting..." Andy jested gently.

"Hah. I'm sure John would love it if I showed up with beach hair to meet all his stupid bigwig investor friends."

"Well, how about we go for a walk down there, anyway?"

"Yeah, okay... as long as you don't mind the squirrels eating any leftovers," Kate said, pushing up to her feet.

"Eh, there are more important things in life to worry about than some fat squirrels. C'mon, lead the way."

 

Together they made their way down the narrow path towards the beach, winding back and forth past scrub pines and large boulders dotting the hillside. Every so often Kate would stop to look back to check on Andy, which was always rewarded with a warm smile. The other woman was quite sure-footed, and easily kept up with Kate's long-limbed strides.

After a few minutes they reached sea level, the great blue ocean spreading out in front of them to the horizon. Kate immediately stopped to take off her shoes, burying her toes in the sand and grinning. "I forgot how great that feels."

Andy grinned. "I'm going to look like a total stick in the mud if I keep my shoes on now, aren't I?"

"Yep, pretty much!"

With a sigh that seemed to be mostly for comedic purposes Andy kicked off her shoes, looping their laces together loosely so that she could carry them easily and continuing on down the beach.

"Do you get to the beach much at home?" Kate asked then, scuffing her feet through the sand.

"Not this kind of beach - we were near some when I was a kid but they were all pebbly."

"Ah. Well, the Atlantic's too grey and warm anyway. This is a _real_ ocean."

"I see you've lost some of your east coast loyalty, then..."

"Hah. I guess so. Hope you're not offended."

"Mortally."

"Oh, well I guess it won't hurt if I do this then," Kate said, stooping down and splashing a handful of cold ocean water in Andy's direction.

"Hey, people in glass houses shouldn't splash water," Andy warned, grinning in Kate's direction. "Remember you have somewhere to be later."

"Oh, it's fine, I'll just stop by the attic and 'freshen up' beforehand."

"Well, in that case..." Andy stepped into the water, kicking a large splash accompanied with a spray of wet sand in Kate's direction.

"Hey!" Kate shrieked, nearly falling over backwards in an attempt to avoid getting wet. "Foul play!"

"Oh, I'm sorry, are there rules?" Andy said, stooping and scooping up more water in Kate's direction in a rather more controlled fashion this time.

The other woman straightened up, kicking a large arc of water towards Andy even as the other woman drenched her lower half. Kate let out a sound that was half gasp, half laugh, dancing backwards further into the water.

"Right, now you're for it." Andy strode through the water toward the other woman with a determined expression on her face.

"No-no-no-no-no!" Kate protested, holding out her hands in front of her as if to ward her off. "Have you felt how cold it is in here? It's really cold-"

"I think I can handle it," Andy said, ducking as she approached to scoop another splash Kate's way, soaking her front.

Kate yelped, reaching up to bat at her soaked shirt. "Honestly, Andy, truce! You win!"

"Oh no, we're not done yet," the other woman said with an evil grin, closing the gap between them and reaching for Kate.

It should've been easier for a woman as tall as Kate to get away if she had really wanted to - all it would've taken was a step to the side and she would've been out of Andy's reach - but somehow the shorter woman found herself grasping Kate's forearms in both hands, her skin warm and damp. "I don't think you have the leverage to throw me in," Kate said then, her own hands finding Andy's elbows.

"Mm. Maybe not. Unless..."

Kate barely had time to raise her eyebrows before the reporter shifted, hooking her foot behind the taller woman's knee and pushing her arms back. Unbalanced, Kate fell back into the water, though she gripped her opponent's elbows tightly enough that she too was pulled down into the waves.

There was a scuffle - well, a sort of sloshy grapple really - and soon Kate had Andy pinned beneath her, both of them now soaked through, Andy lifting her head slightly to keep her face out of the water, giggling as she attempted to free herself.

"I totally meant to do that! Fuck it's cold!"

"I warned you!" Kate said giddily, her damp, dark hair plastered to her cheeks and neck. "But you wouldn't listen..."

"I'm a great listener!" Andy protested, squirming beneath her.

"Uh huh. Well, look where your 'great listening' got you now. All wet."

"Mm." Andy's expression shifted slightly, then, growing a shade less jovial and a shade more... something else. Kate noticed that she wasn't struggling any more.

"Now, you're going to have to ask very nicely if you want back up," Kate said, leaning in slightly. "Since you started this."

"What if I don't want to," Andy murmured. Was it Kate's imagination, or was she breathing slightly more heavily now than she had been when Kate had first felled her?

"Then I guess your fingers are going to get awfully wrinkly..." Kate shifted, sucking in a breath that could have been explained by the cold wave that splashed over her legs and thighs.

Andy swallowed, her expression suddenly not joking at all as she gazed up at the other woman. "Kate..."

"Mm...hmm?"

The other woman gave a long sigh. Then, her eyes not leaving Kate's, intent, almost pleading. "Let me up?"

Kate's eyes flicked away, to Andy's lips, and then back again. She seemed about to protest, but then slowly, reluctantly, she rocked back, letting go of the other woman's wrists to allow her to get up.

Andy sat up, leaning over to splash water into her face, running her hands through her hair in an attempt to get the worst of the sand out. Her cheeks were distinctly pink. Kate could feel her own neck and cheeks burn and hoped it wasn't visible through her tan.

"We should get back," she said then, glancing up at the cliff above them. "Especially if I'm going to have time to change."

"Oh, yeah... Forgot about that. I'll drive you back to the stables."

"Thanks."

 

Andy hadn't had the forethought to bring any spare clothes. She did take off her shirt and replace it with her linen jacket, to interesting effect since it left her with a plunging neckline that bordered on indecent. She waved off Kate's worries about the car interior, however. "I'll just let them keep their deposit - it's not my money, who cares?"

"Sure, okay." Kate had no spare clothes either, and found sitting in the passenger's seat in her soaked-through jeans and shirt a distinctly uncomfortable feeling... though not as uncomfortable as the memory of the other woman's thighs between her own, her lips mere inches away, the warmth of her body even in the frigid ocean. She was embarrassed to admit that if things had gone on even a minute or two longer she wouldn't have been able to resist kissing her, and thanked her lucky stars that she had dodged that bullet. No way I could expect a decent write-up after that. She'd probably have me tarred and feathered again.

The stables were pretty empty that day - well, as empty as they got as there were always some staff around. Kate hurried towards the apartment, knowing she didn't have long to get changed and over to the clubhouse where she was supposed to meet the Princes. She was startled to glance behind her to find Andy trailing along, but rather than send the other woman away she merely ducked her head and kept going, loathe to lose any of their remaining time together.

Eventually, Andy trotted to catch up. "Umm... you don't have some sweats and a teeshirt or something I could borrow, do you?" she asked then. "I'll have them laundered and sent back by the hotel..."

"Oh! God, yeah, sorry... I'm sure I have something you can borrow. I should've offered."

"It's cool - I mean, I was going to just leave, figured you'd want me out of your hair sooner rather than later, but... feeling a bit squelchy," the other woman said, her tone congenial, though her voice seemed a shade higher than usual.

"Yeah, no, of course - come on up," Kate said, waving her up the stairs. "You can even use the shower if you want... that sand gets everywhere."

"I really don't want to hold you up..."

"No, please do. It'd give a good excuse to miss some of the boring meet-and-greet."

Andy shot her a somewhat nervous smile. "In that case I would absolutely love to clog up your shower with sand."

"And while you do I'll rummage up something for you to wear."

"Oh, no, no, you should at least go first."

"Are you sure? I really don't care about taking longer..."

"No, go on - can I make you a coffee or something while you're in there?"

"Yeah, um, that'd be great. And help yourself to whatever you like. If there is anything else."

"Sounds like my apartment. Okay."

Kate disappeared into the bathroom, leaving Andy to poke around the small galley kitchen for the necessary makings for coffee. The kitchen was well appointed, and did have a coffee maker, although it obviously wasn't used very often, and Andy had a suspicion from a glance in the trash that the other woman was mainly caffeine fuelled by takaways from the club up the hill. The bathroom was attached to the bedroom, a whole room away, and yet Andy couldn't help her attention constantly straying toward it, her thoughts lingering on the fact that, right at this moment, Kate was naked in the same building as her. The moment on the beach kept coming back to her unbidden, her pulse skipping a little each time. Why the hell did you come up here? You're just torturing yourself at this point.

It wasn't long before Kate emerged from the bathroom; Andy could just briefly see the other woman, wrapped in towel, through the doorway of the bedroom before she nudged it shut, presumably to get dressed. A few minutes later she came into the main room, clad as always in jeans and a soft flannel shirt with the sleeves rolled up, though she was barefoot and her shoulder-length hair was lying in damp tendrils around her face. "Coffee ready yet?" she asked the other woman hopefully.

"Think so - bit of guesstimation work on amounts but hopefully your tastes aren't too dissimilar to mine - hot and bitter." Andy shot her a smirk.

"As long as it's not decaf," Kate replied, sighing as she scooped up the mug and inhaled the aroma of freshly-brewed coffee. "Mm, perfect."

"Right. So, um... is there anything I need to know?"

"Hm? Oh, um, I don't think so, it's a pretty standard shower. I left some clothes on the bed that I think will fit you. Just shout if there's a problem."

"Right. Well, save me some coffee, then."

 

Shower and leave. You just shower, get dressed and go. I mean, unless she asks you to have a coffee, but even if she does, you just drink up and leave. No more excuses. Fuck, and never see her again... Andy shut her eyes tightly and tipped her face up into the spray, trying to massage the sand off her scalp.

There had been a moment - maybe several moments, even - when she had been so sure that Kate had been feeling the same way as her, that what had started as a joking game would surely end up with their hidden desires being finally expressed. But then Kate had her pinned, and didn't kiss her, and she couldn't be the one to break the rules, not after everything that had passed between them - it would just have been another manipulation. So I asked her to let me go. And she did.

The drive back had been awkward, a complete contrast to the easy banter and singing that had characterised their journey to the beach. Desperately Andy wished they could just regain that, just for a little longer, but it seemed impossible now. After she left, there would be no excuse for her to see Kate again, no reason for her not to return to New York, write up the article, and get on with her life. A week before that was sounding pretty good. Today it sounded bleak.

It was only as Andy emerged from the shower, pink and dripping, that she realised that while Kate had left clothes out for her, she hadn't left a towel. Opening the bathroom door a crack, she called out, embarrassment twisting in her gut that she hadn't thought to check before she'd showered. "Um... Kate?"

"Yeah?" came the answer, quite quickly. "Everything okay?"

"Yeah, I just... um, it's my fault really, I didn't check for a towel before I jumped in the shower..."

"Shit! I'm sorry, I didn't even think..." Andy could hear the sound of a chair being pushed back and footsteps approaching the door. "Um, I think there are spares in the bedroom - I'm going to come in and look, if that's okay."

"Sure, absolutely. I'm just... in the bathroom, it's cool."

Through the crack in the door she watched Kate enter the bedroom and rummage through the small dresser, pulling out what seemed to be mostly clothes, with a few smaller handtowels thrown in. "Fuck," she muttered, throwing them back in the drawer and shoving it closed.

"Anything's fine," Andy said as the other woman opened a second drawer, "really, just a couple of handtowels'll do - my hair's pretty short."

"No, no, I know there's something here... aren't you cold? You should get back in the shower, this might be a minute..."

"Hm? Oh... look, it's really-" But Kate was already back to rummaging through the drawer of spare bedding she'd just opened from under the divan bed, and Andy gave up, taking her advice and flipping the shower back on, returning to its warmth if only to assuage some of Kate's obvious embarrassment by not standing shivering in the bathroom watching her.

There was a knock on the door a few minutes later, and she could hear Kate's voice over the sound of the spray. "Found one. I'm just gonna hang it on the doorknob, but don't rush or anything..."

"Thanks," the other woman called, immediately turning the shower back off and jumping out, reaching around the ajar door for the towel. Instead of terrycloth her hand touched flesh, which gave a start and pulled away a second later.

"Shit! I'm sorry, you startled me," Kate said, the tone of her voice slightly high and stretched. "Just a sec, I'll get the towel..."

"Okay..." Peering around the door, Andy silently gave thanks for the fact she was so flushed from her overlong shower that the blush she could feel would be completely invisible.

She watched Kate stoop to retrieve the towel, which she must have dropped in her surprise. As the other woman straightened up she caught sight of Andy peering through the partially-open door and froze for a moment before forcing a smile and holding the towel out like an offering. "Sorry."

Andy couldn't help it. She could have taken the towel from Kate's grasp without touching her hand, and instead she found herself reaching her bare arm out just far enough that her warm, damp skin brushed against Kate's. This time she both saw and felt the other woman's physical reaction - a full-body shiver and gasp as Andy's fingertips dragged slowly over her wrist. Andy glanced up, gaze finding hers, and inexplicably she felt her eyes fill with completely inappropriate tears.

"Thanks." The word came as a husky croak, her voice low and thick as she finally took The Towel, which now seemed to be a sort of revered object as it hung between them.

Kate nodded, her expression haunted, her lower lip caught between her teeth as if to keep her from blurting out whatever was on the tip of her tongue. Eventually, she spoke. "Sorry I made you wait so long."

Andy just shook her head, wrapping the towel around herself and letting the door open a little further. "S'fine," she muttered. "I'm totally putting you out..." That was it. You had one last chance, and you missed it, and so did she, and that's it.

"No, no, not at all. Listen, Andy..."

"Uh huh?"

"...do you want to come with me to this thing? It might... be interesting?" Kate grimaced, as if she knew how unlikely this was. "No, nevermind, that's a stupid idea. Forget I asked."

"Sure," Andy said, without even thinking, at once quite sure that it would not be interesting and also that it would be completely excruciating for other reasons entirely. "Though won't I be underdressed?"

Kate's face split into a wide grin. "Yeah, but that's okay. Gotta find ways of stickin' it to the man however we can."

 

In truth, even in a plain blue top and an pair of Kate's jeans that hugged a little too close at the hips and needed turned up at the cuffs, Andy somehow managed to look presentable with her neatly styled hair and white linen jacket.

Kate scraped her hair back into a ponytail and threw on her boots, eschewing makeup or anything that would look like she had made an effort, and off they went. On their way to the clubhouse Kate checked her phone - there were several increasingly frantic texts from Susannah wondering where she was - the last one warned 'John really not happy. Please hurry up and get here now!'

"You being pestered?"

Kate made a face. "Yeah. My tardiness is not appreciated. I hate being prey to their every beck and call... it's absurd the way they treat people like commodities to be shown off and passed around."

"Ah, well, he'll be pleased to see you and I apparently getting along, though, won't he?"

"Hopefully... I mean, at the very least he won't throw a fit in front of you, that wouldn't look good..."

"True, true enough."

"Too bad you can't stay around all the time," Kate said lightly.

"Hah. Yeah."

"Though I wouldn't dream of dragging you away from your beloved New York..."

Andy glanced sideways at Kate, then, her expression sobering. "Mm."

"Anyway," Kate said, falsely cheerful, "I shouldn't be trying to use you as a human shield. I got myself into this mess, I've got to put up with it now."

"You shouldn't have to put up with any of this crap. Soon as Lotus is out there he's not gonna have you over a barrel any more. Just... hang in there."

"Mm. Thanks."

"Hey..." Andy hesitated, then caught Kate up to catch her elbow, stilling them both and turning to look at her. "I really mean that," she said. "What you're doing here, the people you're working with, the horses... you have a whole lot to be proud of here. You're going to get what you deserve. I'm sure of it."

The other woman's smile wavered, and she dropped her eyes to the ground. "Thanks," she repeated. "That... means a lot, coming from you."

"From me? Of all people, I'd think my opinion didn't stand for much of anything."

"Are you kidding? You know more about me, about my past, than anyone else. If you think I can do it, then... well, your opinion matters. To me."

Now it was Andy who wouldn't make eye contact, stepping back a little and letting go of Kate's arm. "Well," she muttered. "Guess we'd better get up to the club."

"Mm. Yeah, let's go."

 

The crowd was already gathered when they arrived, an assortment of bankers and women in spindly high heels who were probably their wives or girlfriends. John was in the middle of it all, holding court, and an ugly expression flashed over his face when he saw Kate, only to be replaced by a grin a moment later. "There you are! We were beginning to wonder if you had some sort of emergency. I hope nothing's wrong in my stables."

"No emergency," Kate said, wearing a polite smile. "Everything's fine."

"It's my fault, really," Andy said smoothly, stepping up. "I insisted on having a final look round and chat and Kate's just way too accommodating."

"Oh, Ms Driver, you're still here," he said, looking surprised. "I thought you had everything you needed for your story already."

"Just getting some... final looks, you know. I'm heading home tomorrow. Or Monday. Depending on how flights look."

"Ah. Well, you're more than welcome, of course. Suze will make sure you get a drink."

"I appreciate that, thanks - just pretend I'm not here, I promise not to get in the way."

John smiled thinly and nodded, turning away to talk to one of his cronies, obviously taking the reporter's words to heart already. Soon Susie appeared with a G&T for her, glancing between Kate and Andy curiously.

"I was down in the stables not too long ago and I didn't see you there. That must've been some tour..."

"Mm, we were all over the place - to be honest I made Kate let me treat her to lunch so there wasn't so much touring, more eating," Andy said smoothly, though she was unsure why she was lying.

"Well." The other woman gave a brittle laugh. "I can barely make her stop for a sandwich, let alone lunch. You must have the magic touch."

"Guess so," Andy said, hoping she didn't sound as raw as she felt.

"Well. As long as she's behaved herself - can't have you writing a bad piece about us just because of a few grumpy interviews."

"That won't be a problem."

The other woman narrowed her eyes for a moment, then nodded. "Good. Well, if you need anything else, just let me know. I've got to go introduce Kate to some people now, wish me luck."

"Good luck," Andy said, shooting Kate a quick smile before stepping back to let Suze lead her away.

 

The gathering passed uneventfully enough for the first half an hour - Kate was led around and introduced to various people, who smiled and nodded as she answered their inane questions about racehorses and training. Suze was by her side the entire time, sometimes grasping her elbow jealously, and she barely had a chance to glance over at Andy to see what she was up to.

When she finally did, she noted that Andy had somehow managed to find a seat, and somebody to talk to, for she was in animated conversation with one of the 'wives or girlfriends'.

She wasn't surprised - the reporter was a charming, disarming woman who could probably find something to talk about with just about anything with anyone. She was also kind, funny, and sympathetic - words she never would've imagined using to describe the dreaded 'Andy Driver' back before she met her but which she wholeheartedly believed in now. Listen to you, you sound like you've fallen for her...

Always keener than her immaculate highlights and sweater-sets would have one believe, Suze noticed her frequent glances towards Andy with growing irritation. At a lull in the conversation she pulled Kate away, behind a decorative hedge near the bathrooms. "What are you doing?" she hissed, "why do you keep looking at her? Did she do something to piss you off?"

"What?" Kate asked, somewhat blindsided by the question, though she perhaps should've been expecting it. "No! No, nothing like that."

"Then what is it like? C'mon, Kate, don't fuck with me."

"Jesus, Suze, what are you talking about? I wasn't looking at her any more than anybody else here!"

Suze's face relaxed somewhat, and with a quick check around herself she leaned in closer, slipping her hands to rest on Kate's hips. "Good. Glad to hear it," she murmured, lifting her head to kiss her. Without thinking Kate pulled back, a fleeting glimpse of distaste showing on her face.

"Not here, Suze, please..."

Suze's brow pulled back into a frown. "Excuse me?"

"It's not exactly a private venue.... Anybody could just walk over here and see us."

"Oh come on, right here? We've taken much bigger risks."

"Well, maybe I'm tired of taking risks," Kate snapped, cheeks flaring with colour.

Suze's eyes narrowed. She was always just a little too smart. "Are you fucking her? Is that what this is about?"

"What? Listen to yourself, Suze, you're acting crazy."

"Am I? You two show up like that, late, your hair damp - and I know you weren't showing her round the stables again..."

"So what, I must be screwing her? You're being paranoid, nothing happened."

"But you wanted it to?"

"What?" Kate made a face. "I'm not having this conversation here. Let it go, Suze."

"This isn't over, Kate," Suze said, leaning closer, her expression intent. "This isn't how you and I do things. You know that."

"Well, maybe I'm tired of the way you and I do things," Kate replied, frowning. "Maybe I don't like it, have you ever even thought about that?"

"I am now." Suze stepped back, now, frown still in place. "Maybe we should talk about this later."

"Yeah, sure. Later."

"And you should think about what you want. Hard." With this last piece of 'advice', Suze took her leave.

Rather than follow her back out to the gathering Kate turned on her heel and headed into the bathroom, needing a minute to cool down. Goddamnit. Why'd I say all that stuff? I'm just going to have to grovel and beg to get back into her good graces.

"Hey you." She knew immediately who it was, just as she knew somehow that Andy had come here to find her, not simply walked in by accident.

Kate looked at the other woman in the mirror, giving a wan smile. "Hey. How's the party?"

"Oh you know, I'm having a slightly better time than you are. But only just."

"Yeah... sorry I dragged you along. Really. You can go any time you want."

"Come with me."

"What? Oh, no, I can't...."

"Sure you can - tell John we both have a stomach ache - I dragged you somewhere shitty for lunch."

Kate gave a ragged laugh, shaking her head. "I don't think that would be a very good idea."

"Why the hell not? Those people don't own you, Kate."

"Uh, yeah they kind of do, remember? And I've already pissed Suze off plenty today, I don't need to give her crazy theories any more gas."

"Suze? What the hell has she got to complain about? Hot and cold running stablemaster?"

"She thinks we were late because--" Kate broke off, turning away with a short laugh.

"Because? ... oh."

"And then, then I told her... God, what was I thinking?"

Andy shook her head, shuffling slightly closer. "Told her what? We haven't-"

"No, I know, but I..." Kate rolled her eyes, reaching up to run a hand through her hair. "Fuck, I told her I wasn't happy. Because I'm not. And I wish that you and I had done something, because I wanted to and at least then if this all fell apart I would've at least gotten something good out of it."

The other woman frowned. "Are you serious?" To Kate's surprise Andy sounded almost pissed off. "All that... and you're just going to come out with that? What the hell am I supposed to do with that?"

"What? Oh, shit, fuck, I'm sorry," Kate said, turning towards the other woman. "God, that sounded horrible. I didn't mean... I'm sorry, okay, I shouldn't have said that."

But Andy was already shaking her head, turning away from the mirror, reaching for and downing the glass of fizz that she'd brought in with her and putting it back by the sinks. "Forget it, I'm going. Fuck..." Kate saw her reach to cover her eyes tightly with one hand, and she couldn't help but reach out to her, even as she knew it was her words that had hurt the other woman so.

"Andy, please, I'm sorry, please, don't be angry with me. I only meant... that I really like you, and... God, don't cry, please..."

"I'm not angry, I just... no, I'm angry," Andy said, stepping away a little further, turning and at last removing her hand from across her eyes, which were dry, at least. "You are fucked up, you know that? You want something so badly you'll move across the country, work for free, Jesus, fuck your way into it, so forgive me if it seems like if you really-" She closed her eyes tightly, her voice wobbling a little, and it was another few seconds before she steadied herself again. "If you really do want something, you go for it. So please. Don't... don't do this, all right? Because I just don't think I can handle it today."

"What? Andy, I don't..." Kate felt her heart begin to race as things began to spiral out, further and further from her control. "I don't know what 'this' is, I don't what you can't handle, I said I was sorry!" Her voice was high and wavering, and she hated it. "I never meant to fall for you, it just happened, but I didn't act on it because that would've been wrong, and weird, and I shouldn't have said anything, I just thought... you're leaving, and I'm going to miss you so much, and I just... I wanted you to know that before you went."

Andy just stared. For a moment, her face threatened to crumple and Kate thought she really was going to fall to pieces, but then she seemed to gather herself together. "Why? If... if you can't or won't act on it, why would you want me to know? D'you just want to fuck with me? Is this some kind of revenge? Is this like Susannah, where you let her think you wanted her? Why would you want to send me home like this?"

Slowly, ever so slowly, something began to dawn on Kate, though she was too afraid to believe that it might actually be true. But Andy's flushed cheeks, her dark eyes, the way she stood, trembling, fists clenched at her sides... were they really the signs of a woman receiving an unwanted advance? Or maybe... It's too little, too late. "I don't want to send you home at all," Kate murmured. "I wish you could stay. The past few weeks... they've been the weirdest but also the best I've had in years. But you keep talking about leaving, and I couldn't tell you to stay, not when I don't have anything to offer you if you did."

The other woman stared up at her for another long moment, her eyes bright with tears again, though her brow was drawing back into a frown. "All right," she said, in a small voice. "Fine. Okay. I believe you."

"But that doesn't mean..."

"Anything. It doesn't mean anything," Andy finished for her, her voice dull - beaten. "You have yourself so convinced you have nothing to offer, fine. Then you don't. There's only so often I can tell you how amazing you are before I give up. So, y'know. I'll get out of your hair - and your life. And you can forget this whole thing ever happened - hell, it never did. So." For a conjunction the word sounded pretty damn final. Apparently done, Andy turned to go.

"No!" Kate stepped forward, grabbing the other woman's hand and tugging her around to face her again. Andy was frowning and pale and as beautiful as Kate had ever seen her, and she leaned in to kiss her deeply, wanting nothing more than to be close to the other woman for a few moments, at least. Andy gave a tiny gasp against her mouth, her body stiffening, and then melting against Kate's as she returned the kiss, arms limp by her sides as the taller woman supported them both.

After a moment Kate pulled back, peering down at the other woman with a mixture of trepidation and hope. "I don't want to forget anything about this," she murmured, reaching up to cup Andy's cheek in her palm. "And I don't think I could even if I tried."

Andy shook her head, leaning into the other woman's touch. "I don't understand. How..."

"You're nothing like I expected. And the more time I spent with you... everything we did together, all the things I told you, that I hadn't told anyone else. You're so special, Andy, and amazing. And I should've told you that before."

"But what about..."

"About what?"

The shorter woman dipped her head a little, eyes dropping from Kate's. "I will always have written that exposé."

"I don't care."

"Since when?"

"Since... I don't know, since I realised that it wasn't your fault that all that happened, and that you were just doing your job, and I couldn't blame you for that."

"Kate, I..." Andy shook her head. "I don't know what I'm doing here, I don't know..."

"Me neither," Kate admitted with a laugh, pulling the other woman closer. "But... I mean, you want it, right?"

Andy hesitated. "Kate, I... don't know. I don't know. I mean, this, you and me, it's... I've been thinking about you, all the time, but..."

Kate blinked, her expression falling before she covered it with a bright smile. "Oh. Oh...right. Yeah, of course, I just meant... no, of course, you're about to leave, I shouldn't have... you're right."

"No, no, it's okay, I just..." Andy sighed, lifting a hand to rest it around Kate's shoulders, shivering a little, "I wish we had longer to figure this out. But... I have to go. I need to get some distance. Write this fucking article."

"Yeah," Kate nodded numbly. "Of course. You've got... work."

"Mm. Yeah."

"But you'll... call me, when you're done?"

"Yeah. Yeah. I will. I promise."

"Okay. Good."

Impulsively, Andy leaned up again to kiss Kate again, fingers weaving through her hair. The other woman sighed and melted against her, wrapping her arms around her waist to pull her closer. Andy shut her eyes tightly, her free arm wrapping around Kate's waist, fingers almost painfully digging into her flesh.

Kate couldn't remember the last time she had wanted somebody this much, and the thought that as soon as she stepped back and let her go she would walk out her life was hard to accept. Tipping her head to one side, she parted her lips, deepening the kiss. Andy seemed just as desperate as Kate, now, tongue stroking against hers, and it was only the sound of someone in the hallway that made them spring apart, Andy whirling immediately into the nearest stall, pulling Kate after her and closing the door behind them.

They listened to the sound of another person entering the stall beside them, and if she hadn't been so distraught Kate probably would've laughed. As it was, the touch of Andy's hands roaming down her sides was enough to distract her, and before the sink was even running she was leaning in to kiss her again, desperately, pushing her back against the wall with a low moan. Fortunately it seemed as though the bathroom's other occupant hadn't heard them, as the door opened and closed a moment later, leaving them alone once more in a much more intimate space than they had been a minute before.

The tall woman pulled back, shifting her lips to Andy's jaw and kissing a hot trail down her throat while slipping a hand under the hem of her shirt to smooth over her skin.

"Jesus," Andy muttered, tipping her head back, a moan escaping her throat as Kate's hand slipped up across her stomach. Spurred on by this reaction, Kate insinuated a knee between the other woman's legs and pressed forward, her tongue flicking out to taste the other woman's skin, and Andy responded in kind, her hands now exploring Kate's sides, cupping her breasts through her thin shirt.

"OhGod..." After a long moment Kate pulled back, her expression pained. "Andy... we can't."

"Don't," Andy said, "please, just let's-"

"No. I want this so much, but... not like this."

"Fine, let's go to the apartment, c'mon."

Kate looked surprised. "Just... like that?"

"Just like that. Let's go," Andy said, leaning in to kiss Kate again.

The taller woman allowed herself to be led out of the stall, though she stopped as they approached the door, her hand slipping out of Andy's. "We... shouldn't leave together. You go first, and I'll meet you there."

Andy nodded. "I'll see you soon."

 

Kate waited a little longer to compose herself in the bathroom before leaving; she knew it had been some time since she had last been seen and hoped no one was suspicious - especially Susannah. Luckily, or perhaps unluckily, she was caught by John as soon as she reappeared, who insisted she needed to explain some part of her 'secret' training schedule to his cronies. After an excruciating fifteen minutes she excused herself, claiming that she needed to check something in the barn and hurrying as fast as she could to the apartment.

"I'm sorry I'm late, John wouldn't..." Kate stopped in her tracks; the outer room was empty. She peered around into the bedroom. Also empty. "Andy?" She wondered if the other woman had gone back to her car for something, but even as she did she knew she was just grasping at straws. Andy was gone.

The text came through soon after - a simple, "I'm sorry. I can't" that told her nothing at all. Calling the other woman sent her straight to voicemail - not surprising, since she was probably already on a plane back to New York. I should've known. I should've expected this. So why do I feel so horrible?

She only tried calling once. Andy's phone was switched off, and although Kate let it go to voicemail, she couldn't in the moment think of what to say. In the end she merely sat there for several long seconds before hitting 'end' and hiding the phone under her pillow.

 

"So wait, let me get this straight. You made out in the bathroom of the club? With John and Susannah outside?"

"I really don't want to talk about this, Jamie," Kate said, taking another long swig of her beer. "I'd literally rather talk about anything else in the world. Anything."

"Well, I mean, if you really don't want to talk about it then sure, but... come on - you've blown my mind here..."

"What, that I apparently have the world's worst taste in women?" Kate snapped. "That's hardly news."

"I don't think that was..." Jamie frowned, shaking her head. "That isn't how I'd characterise things."

"No? Because it's pretty clear. I spent the last five years of my life sabotaging myself with Suze, and the first woman I considered going for after all that time was Andy Driver."

"I just... when did this even happen?"

"I don't know! It just did. Maybe it was just... having her around all the time. And talking to her about... everything."

"But... the doping scandal..."

Kate sighed and shook her head. "She was just doing her job."

"I've heard better excuses."

"Well fine, then we're back to my original theory which is: I have shitty taste in women!"

"So..." Jamie frowned down into her beer. "What do we do now?"

"What do you mean, what do we do now? Get on with our lives - get ready for the sweepstakes."

"Mm. Well. At least that's going well."

"Yeah. Which is more than I can say for your homebrewing efforts..."

"What? Oh, come on, this stuff is fiiiine..."

"Yeah, for cleaning floors with, maybe!" Kate forced a grin, ignoring the warring self-loathing and sadness inside. Sure, it hurt, but she had been through bad times before, and they always passed. This would too.

 

"Look, I don't know what you were expecting, but this is what you get. What did you think, that I was going to go over there and find some new dirt on the woman?"

"No, no, the Princes would never go for that, but still, Andy... this is fluff!"

Andy sighed, running a hand across her face. "Look. I have a... different take. But it's longer. You want the whole story, I'll need a full feature spread."

Her editor raised his eyebrows. "The 'whole story'? So there is dirt?"

"No. No dirt. But there's a story."

"I'm not committing 'til I see it. Give me the story, and we'll see."

"Greg, do you want the fluff piece, or do you want something people will actually be interested to fucking read? I'm not one of your daily staff, and I'm offering you a wordcount twice what you're paying me. I have better things to do with my time, so do you want it or not?"

"Alright, alright, go on then," he said with a wave of his hand. "I'm trusting you here, Andy."

"When has that ever been a mistake?"

"It hasn't - yet. When can you get it to me?"

"When d'you need it?"

"If I have it by Friday I can get it into next week's issue - that's before the big race or whatever, right?"

"Friday it is."

 

"Kate."

"Huh?" The trainer looked up to see Susannah standing over her, perfectly-painted lips pursed. "Oh, hey, Suze. Sorry, I was... distracted. What's up?"

"That was what I wanted to ask you."

"Oh, uh... just going over shipping arrangements for the weekend."

Susie smiled a little sadly. "I meant... generally."

Being miserable and avoiding you? "Not much. Just... work."

"Mm. Can we talk?"

"Sure. You wanna... go upstairs?" Kate asked, rising from behind the desk.

Susie nodded. But then added, "Kate, are we done?"

"What? Suze, listen, about the other day..."

"No, look..." Susie frowned. "I'm... sorry."

"What?"

"I've been doing some thinking. About us." Susannah frowned. "And I realised... some stuff. And I wanted to apologise."

"Oh," Kate said, confused. "All... right. You really don't need to, I was rude, I should be the one... apologising."

Susie shook her head. "I've had you over a barrel. I thought you and I..." She made a face. "But I was just fooling myself. If you don't want to do this any more, then I'll understand."

"You will? I mean... um. Wow." Kate sat down on the edge of her desk, staring down at the floor. "Listen, Suze, that day at the club... I was out of line. I'm not sure what I was thinking."

"I think you weren't. Thinking. So you told the truth. That's a good thing. It gave me the chance to think about how unfair I've been."

Kate didn't have much to say to this, so she merely lifted her eyes to the other woman's and shrugged. "For a long time it was enough."

The other woman gave a rather sad smile. "I just wish I understood what changed. Is it because of John? I know he's been worse lately..."

"No, it's not John. I mean, yes, he's been an even bigger ass than usual, but it's not that."

"Then what?"

Kate let out a sigh - this was not something she wanted to be discussing, least of all with Suze. "I guess it was Andy being around - not that we ever did anything," she hastened to add lest the other woman jump to conclusions. "I just mean that I realised what it might be like, having someone I could be open with, who I didn't have to hide from everyone. Not that... she's not that person, obviously," she said, frowning. "But you know what I mean."

Suze nodded slowly, her expression hardening just slightly, though she was obviously determined to remain even-keeled. "So when I accused you two of... I guess I wasn't so far off the mark, then," she said quietly.

"What? Suze, I told you... you said we had been fucking, and we hadn't," Kate replied matter-of-factly. "Okay? That would've meant sneaking around and I just can't do that any more. With anyone."

"No, I know, I know, I believe you, I only meant..." Kate's words sank in, and Susie's expression grew a little crestfallen. "So... we are over then."

Kate flinched. "Maybe for you it's still exciting and titillating, but Suze... I hate being someone's dirty little secret. It's not enough any more."

"You mean..." Susie's brows drew into a nervous frown. "You mean you want more?"

"I'm not trying to make you choose. You're married, and I'm not trying to disrupt that."

"So you'd rather end it."

Kate opened her mouth, then shut it, standing and approaching the other woman. Did she love Susie? No, but it wasn't as if they had really tried to do much beyond sleeping together and the occasional lunch out. Maybe if I gave her a chance... I mean, who else would have me? She reached up, placing her hands on the shorter woman's shoulders. "I thought that that's what you wanted. I mean... isn't it?"

Susannah sighed. "I guess it has to be," she said. "I mean. I can't leave John."

"...yeah. Of course not." Despite her ambivalence towards the idea of a proper relationship with Suzanne the rejection still stung. "Well, I guess that's that, then."

The other woman nodded, her gaze dropping from Kate's down to the desk. "For what it's worth, I wish... I could. I mean. I wish I had the guts. To just leave everything. But... I think you and me both have too much to lose if I did that."

"Yeah. I guess so. You're not going to ask me to leave now, are you?" she asked then, heart in her throat. "I mean, I understand if you want me to but-"

"No, no, of course not," Susannah said quickly. "I wouldn't dream of it. I know how much this means to you."

"Okay. Thanks. For, um... understanding."

"Don't thank me yet," Susie said, her tone almost warning. "I'm not promising to be a good person about this. But I've still got your back at the stables, and with John. You won't lose your job. I'm not that person."

"Right, yeah, of course," Kate said, nodding. "And whatever you need from me - you've got it. I mean, I'd really like to be friends still but if that's not on the cards then I can understand."

"We'll see."

 

"Well, I gotta say, Andy, this is... good. Unexpected, but good. It'll run."

"Of course it will. Provided we get sign off, of course."

"You're pretty positive about the Princes, I'm sure they'll sign it off," Greg said, tossing the document back across the table.

"Yeah. Maybe."

"Well, I'll send it out to them this afternoon; hopefully we'll have an okay by the end of the weekend."

"Great." Andy nodded, standing up from the desk and slipping her hands into her pockets. "Well. Let me know what they say."

"'Course I will." The dark-haired man looked up from his slouched position behind the broad desk. "Glad you're back, Andy. You gonna join me for a drink now that you've got this out of the way?"

Andy sighed. "I suppose. Long as you're buying."

"First round, at least. Come on, it's martini o'clock."

 

Andy hadn't been to a bar since the night with Kate, and so she found herself feeling somewhat morose as she took a seat opposite her some-time editor in his choice of slick, chrome-and-perspex 'wine bar' of choice. It was a world away from the place the trainer had taken her to just a couple of weeks before.

"So," Greg said, setting a glass of wine in front of her and sliding into the booth opposite, "tell all. I know there wasn't any dirt in the 'official' story but there had to be something juicy going on out there. I could smell something in between the lines."

"Jesus, no, Greg - there's no story here, don't go sniffing around that tree. You're just picking up on my latent guilt - which, in fairness, is addressed in the friggin' article."

"Yeah, so I saw. I'm sure that'll go over well with the bleeding hearts."

"Mm. Maybe."

"So what was it like out there? You got a hankering for that warm California sun?"

"Wouldn't go that far," Andy muttered, reaching for her wine. "It was... interesting, I guess. Dylan seemed to have a great time."

"Well, I hope it doesn't go to his head - the likelihood of him getting sent out there are slim to none. Can't favour one intern over another, that's the way to get sued."

"Well, he's a good kid - you should keep him on."

"Mm. Anyway, how was your reception with Roundtree? She couldn't have been very happy to see you."

"She wasn't."

"And?"

"And... we got past it."

Greg stared at her for a second and then shrugged. "Glad you're a better writer than a storyteller, otherwise that would've been a waste of expenses."

"What? There just isn't much to say, y'know? It was... awkward... Then less awkward. Then awkward again."

"Awkward again? What, you insult one of her precious ponies?"

"Mm, nah, just..." Andy made a face. "You know how it can get when you're trying to get into someone's head. Kind of a... hothouse effect."

"Ah. So you got out of there just in time?"

"You could say that."

"Hm. And this 'big race' thing?"

"What about it?"

"I dunno, you think they have a chance?"

"Well... I don't know much about horses. But... if Kate Roundtree's the woman I think she is, they can't lose."

"Great, then I know who I'm putting my money on next Saturday," Greg said with a grin. "Anyway, listen, did you hear about the fuck-up with Sharon Cuthbert's prenup a couple weeks ago? Still wish we had been the ones with that scoop, lemme tell you..."

 

Jamie sat nervously, quite literally on the edge of her seat as Kate read through the article. She'd seen it herself already - it was her job to monitor work-related emails and when this one had arrived in the office inbox she hadn't been able to contain her curiosity. The generous, almost tender description of the day-to-day running of the Prince stables under Kate had been unexpectedly warm in tone, but otherwise contained no surprises. The almost confessional segment on the reporter's personal feelings about the trip, her guilt and remorse at the events that had led to Kate's leaving the east coast and her explicit statement of her belief that such a moral, principled, passionately honest person could never have been responsible for the doping of [horsey mchorse] had come as rather more of a surprise, and Jamie was beside herself with anticipation as she watched her boss and friend read through the copy she'd printed out for her.

Kate gave several short laughs as she read through the piece, though she had sobered by the time she finished and tossed it to the desk. "Pass it on to the Princes' secretary - they'll need to okay it before it gets printed," she said briskly.

"So... you're okay with it?"

"As long as it doesn't call me a cheat it's fine."

"Well, it's definitely not doing that... Fuck, Kate, she's practically vilified herself."

"Yeah, well. Her article, her choice."

"That's really all you have to say about this?"

Kate raised her eyebrows at the younger woman. "What, am I supposed to throw a fit about how she's obviously mocking me through it? I really don't care, Jamie, it's just a stupid article."

Jamie frowned in confusion. "You... think she's mocking you?"

"Oh come on. Moral, principled, honest? She knows about my affair with Suze, and practically the last thing she said to me was accusing me of fucking with her head when I told her I was interested in her."

The younger woman shrugged. "I guess you could read it that way. Seemed more like a grovelling apology to me. If she'd written that article about me in your position, I'd be on the next plane to New York. Well, after the race, obviously."

"If she wanted to apologise to me she could call. This is just... journalistic masturbation," Kate said, frowning.

"She's a writer. Maybe it's how she does stuff. God, why am I defending her? Never mind, good riddance," Jamie said with a nod. "I'm glad you're just moving on. It's good."

"What do you mean, 'good riddance'? She wasn't that bad."

Jamie smirked a little now. "Do I hate this chick or like her, Kate? You need to pick one so I can do the best friend thing."

"I don't know," Kate said, scowling. "Nevermind. Just... send an email saying it was fine and they can publish it if they want. No, wait, actually, I'll do it."

"It'll come from the same email address anyw- okaaay, yep, absolutely. I'm just going to... go check on the horses."

"Good idea."

Kate waited until Jamie had evacuated the office before taking a seat at the desk, staring at the inbox containing, among other things, the email from the magazine editor with Andy's article attached. She didn't know if the other woman would even see her response, which made the fact that she agonised over every word even more ridiculous. She eventually hit 'send' on a short missive that said:

To whom it may concern,

I am perfectly happy to have this article printed as is with no changes. I hope it serves your magazine well.

Ms Driver was an excellent guest and would be welcome back at Prince Stables any time.

Sincerely,

Kate Roundtree

 

"The Princes gave their blessing too, but I figured you'd want to see that one. Seems she took to you."

"Mm." Andy frowned at the email, lips pursed thoughtfully. "Well, thanks for letting me see it."

"No problem. So I guess we're all good to go. You sure you want to to run as-is?"

"Yep," the writer said with a sigh, sitting back. "Go for it. You've been through Dylan's photos? They're nothing special but have a certain candid truthfulness about them, don't you think? I think they go well with the article."

"Sure. I've got a couple from the Princes' press secretary as well, we'll use a combination and that should just about cover it."

"Great. So. I guess you won't need any more from me on this, then."

"Nope, you're free to go," Greg said with a shake of his head. "Good work on this, Andy. I'm looking forward to seeing the reception this gets."

"Me too."

"So what are you gonna do next?"

"Dunno." Andy shrugged. "Holday probably. I really need a break. From everything."

"Yeah? Well, if you stumble across any good stories while you're out there, let me know. You know my rates are always good."

"Sure, sure. We'll see."

"All right then. Take it easy, Driver."

"Mm. You too." Andy gave Greg a final nod as she stood and made her way out, her thoughts racing. What did the email mean? Was Kate trying to tell her something? Or was she just reading in things that weren't there?

In the end, it didn't really matter. She had left rather than get entangled any further in that situation, and she couldn't go back now. Besides a hangup message that she knew had come from Kate's phone she hadn't had any communication from the other woman, and she was loathe to try and explain her actions to her now.

 

Five long years in the making, the day had finally arrived.

Kate didn't normally get nervous - she had gotten over that a long time ago, or so she had thought, but when she woke at four a.m. with her stomach roiling she knew it was going to be a long day. Better get started, then.

The rest of the morning flew by in a rush; though Kate hadn't had a 'race day' in five years it all came back to her almost reflexively. The ultimate goal, of course, was to keep things as 'normal' as possible, so that Lotus didn't get too keyed up and on edge, but it was hard to deny the frisson of excitement and anticipation in the air.