not good

I sit on the floor
back to the wall
it helps me stay in touch
I stay on the ground
then if I fall
it doesn't hurt as much

and it's not good
it's not good
but if you push it through somehow
you're gonna pull on through somehow

there's nothing to say
got no excuse
but I'll make one up and give it cause if
I just move my mouth
keep it in use
well, that's one way to live

and it's not good
no it's not good
but if you push it throught somehow
you're gonna pull on through somehow
it's not good
it's not good
but if you do like steinbeck said
then you hang on for the happy ending

we walk through the rain
face to the sky
pretending like we feel it
we open our hearts
trying to cry
pretending like we mean it

one foot in front of the other
one step, stepping another
one foot in front of the other
but that's no way to live
one leg is dragging behind me
this leg is taking a light year
good times are all in the timing and that's no way to live

it's not good
'cause if you can't look to tomorrow
might as well be no tomorrow
it's not good
it's not good
but you do like steinbeck said
yeh you hang on for the happy ending.

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jupiter

she's the apple of your eye
she's a pocketful of rye
she's the slice of blackbird pie
you were given on the sly

she's a glass of dry white wine
she's tomatoes on the vine
she's green olives soaked in brine
she is every taste combined

lay your doubts down
and taste the sweets of love without its pains
aim too high
fall so far
climb back up the hill again

she's the bridge that you can't burn
she's a lesson yet to learn
she's the fines that you have earned
for the books you can't return

she's your muse when you run dry
she's your comfort when you cry
she's your castle in the sky
when you've set your hopes too high

lay your doubts down
and taste the sweets of love without its pains
aim too high
fall so far
climb back up the hill again

wherever you walk
cool winds will blow
the shadows part where ever you go
wherever you tread
low spirits rise
life is wherever you turn your eyes

she's the god to whom you pray
she's your work and rest and play
she's the thing that makes you stay
when you want to run away

lay your doubts down
and taste the sweets of love without its pains
aim too high
fall so far
climb back up the hill again

wherever you walk
cool winds will blow
the shadows part where ever you go
wherever you tread
low spirits rise
life is wherever you turn your eyes

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neverlearn

I grew up in the country
I never learned the names of all the birds outside my window
I grew up in my bedroom
I never learned the names of all the people in the park

I grew up in a tree
I never learned to look up to the people over me
I grew up in a bowl
I never learned to break the glass and jump into the sea
so jump with me

I never learn, I never change
maybe it's my laziness
maybe it's my age

I'll never turn the tide
and even though I tried
the waters rise...

I grew up in the city
I never learned the names of all the birds outside my window
I grew up in my bedroom
I never learned the names of all the people in the park

I grew up in a tower
I've never learned to grin and bear the things that grind me down
I grew up in a bubble
I've never learned to burst out of the comfort zone I've found
so break it down

I never learn
I never change
maybe it's my apathy
maybe it's my rage

I'll never turn the tide
and even though I tried
the waters rise...

but you've come so far, they say
you try so hard, they say
don't be so down upon yourself

I've come so far, and I
have tried so hard, but I
have made my bed and I will
drown in it...

I never learn
I never change
maybe it's my apathy
maybe it's my age

I'll never turn the tide
and even though I tried
the waters rise...

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static

it's a chill
harr diffused the light
still shines in my eyes
another day
another day
I wouldn't go if you asked me

cover me
wrap me in a mist
clench me in your fist
another time
another time
I wouldn't go if you asked me

static and stilled
nothing can thrill me now
unfulfilled
nothing can reach me now
that I'm here
show me the door and
another day
another day
just one more other day before I go

it's a pill
catches in your throat
stifles like a coat
on a summer day
a summer day
I wouldn't know if you asked me

cover me
handle me with care
if I'm even there
any given day
any given day
I wouldn't know if you asked me

static and stilled
nothing can thrill me now
unfulfilled
nothing can reach me now
that I'm here
show me the door and
another day
another day
just one more other day before I go

another day, I'll wait my turn
another day before I learn
(I can't take another day)

I'm undone
unpick me stitch by stitch
goes without a hitch
another time
another time
I wouldn't care if you asked me

run a mile
further day by day
half the world away
another time
another time
I wouldn't come if you asked me

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near to

is it better to wear your heart on your sleeve
better to love and lose
better to risk your all on half a chance
now I can barely breathe
now I can barely think
of anything but you
anything but

I was asking for my boundaries to be tested
I guess I thought you knew and trusted you completely
I suppose that you could say I had it coming

I guess I didn't think it through
I didn't lay the lines down clear enough with you
and when I see you hear you
something's changed

and being near to you
has never made me feel so alive
and I just want to stay alive
but I can't see how this can survive

is it better to be the one who walks
better to hit high ground
better to leave it all on principle
now I can barely breathe
now I can barely think
when I'm not with you
when I'm not-

I suppose that you could say he had it coming
I guess he thought he knew and trusted you completely
I guess I knew I didn't have a leg to stand on

I guess I didn't think it through
I didn't lay the lines down clear enough with you
and when I see you feel you
something's changed

and please don't come too near to me
I can't have you too near to me
can't see you go home with him
every single time

and being near to you
has never made me feel so alive
and I just want to stay alive
but I don't know how this can survive

'cause being near to you
'sthe only way I feel so alive
and I just want to stay alive
so I don't know how i will survive

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long time no see

the lilies you bought me
still unopened waiting in their vase
waiting for the sun
to stream through the window
lighting up the shadows in this house
shadows grown so long

long time no see
long time for me
waiting for
long life for you
long life for me
waiting for

the water grows tepid
still unpoured beside an empty pot
the stale air grows thicker
with memories and dusty dreams
dreams I long forgot

long time no see
long time for me
waiting for
long life for you
long life for me
waiting for

I've played my hand
I understand
I never tried to lie to you
I waste my skills
I have no will
I never meant to lie to you

long time no see
long time for me
waiting for
long life for you
long life for me
waiting for

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syyllinen syli (faithless arms)

you stormed out of the house, rushed out in a fury,
fleeing all the bitterness, escaping the rage -
ugly words fell down like rain,

I wish you'd never told me - it should have been a lie -
that brought me all this anger
ugly things were said.

and I will let no faithless arms,
no faithless arms be near me.
I will let no faithless arms,
no faithless arms embrace me.

you broke your promise - wretched man -
well there's the road for you, you did what you wanted to.
showed me you were worthless,
showed me you were faithless?

and I will let no faithless arms,
no faithless arms be near me.
I will let no faithless arms,
no faithless arms embrace me.

you let yourself be led away,
you followed a false scent, a false trail.
showed me you were faithless,

you let yourself be led away,
you followed a false scent, a false trail...

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another way

split in two
down the middle
me and you
what I want
used to swither
day to day

but now you're here
in my arms
and all that I can think about is
here and now
now you're here
lips on mine
and all that I can think about is
where to now?

lay your head
on my shoulder
lace your fingers
tight with mine
meet my eyes
air between us
ever running
out of time

but now you're here
in my arms
and all that I can think about is
here and now
now you're here
lips on mine
and all that I can think about is
where to now?

so take my hand
and hide it away
I wish we had
another day
so take my heart
and hide it away
I wish there was
another way

lay your head
on my shoulder...
lay your hand
over mine...

too short too short
too little time
no right no reason
to call you mine
too brief too brief
too little time
no rhyme no reason...

so take my hand
and hide it away
I wish we had
another day
so take my heart
and hide it away
I wish there was
another way

I wish I might
I wish I may
I wish there was
another way
I wish I might
I wish I may
I wish there was
another way

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next year

get off the boat and you're eighteen again
fat and friendless
no man is an island
but the island makes the man
everybody's waiting, dinner's on the go
and your counting up the hours til home

you never call, you never write they say
and you say sorry, haven't much that you would
want to hear anyway
your sister's there and she seems to wear her
success like it's perfume and you
don't want what she's got
but you're supposed to

tanrtums at the table
tears in the kitchen sink and you think
next year could be better
better be, bound to be
but every year's the same -

I'm forgetting that I've grown
past this
I'm forgetting that I know
better than this
I'm forgetting to refrain from this regression and I think
next year, next year, next year
I might stay home

after dinner drinks and you think
this year, this year we'll talk like adults
like equals
but the corks pile up and tongues grow loose
and it's the same old third degree
why can't you be like her, like me

crying in the bathroom
fights until five am and you think
it's all been said before
how does it bear repeating every year

every year the same

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moving on

there's a new perspective
in the winter light
the days grow short between
the endless nights
the trees are bare
and the air gets cold
and I'm back on the road

over the next hill
over the next hill
the horizon shifts and there's a brand new way
over the next hill
over the next hill
the picture shifts and it's a brand new day

the going's slowing
and the way is steep
and i've a way to go
before i get to sleep
but i've done all i can
got nothing left to prove
and i'm staying on the move

over the next hill
over the next hill
the horizon shifts and there's a brand new way
over the next hill
over the next hill
the picture shifts and it's a brand new day

i know i know the road is long
i know i know the road is long
i know i know the road is long
but i can't go wrong
'cause i keep movin' on...

A million faces
in a dying fire
a thousand miles
and I'm getting tired
there's a new perspective
in the winter light
but i'm driving through the night

over the next hill
over the next hill
the horizon shifts and there's a brand new way
over the next hill
over the next hill
the picture shifts and it's a brand new day

i know i know the road is long
i know i know the road is long
i know i know the road is long
but i can't go wrong
'cause i keep movin' on...

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away from you

it should be simple
with all the love between us
with all the water underneath the bridges that we built

it should be easy
with all this understanding
but now i'm standing on my own and i'm...

drifting down a river and i've no idea how far

floating on an ocean with no compass and no stars

away from you
away from you
away from you

it should be simple
with all your warm and gentle
with all the perfect that you are for me and me for you

it should be easy
with all our weighed and anchored
but now I cast off on my own and I'm...

drifting down a river and i've no idea how far

drowning in an ocean with no compass and no stars

away from you
away from you
away from you

it should be simple
with all the love between us...

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wading through water

hold on angel
not long now
they say it's darkest
before the sun comes up
hold on darling
i know hurts so much right now
but our number's coming up

and someone I once knew once said
that someone she once knew once said
what's for you won't go by you in the end
if platitudes are all we have
then platitudes will have to, have to do

hang on sweetheart
not long now
they say that all good things
will come to those who wait
hang on angel
i know it doesn't help right now
but we're in the hands of fate

and someone I once knew once said
that someone she once knew once said
what's for you won't go by you in the end
if platitudes are all we have
then platitudes will have to, have to do

and I'm
wading through water
wading through sand and fire and ice
wading through water
to get to you

hold on angel
not long now
they say don't burn up
your bridges as you go
hold on darling
i know you hate yourself right now
but i love you more and more

and someone I once knew once said
that someone she once knew once said
what's for you won't go by you in the end
if platitudes are all we have
then platitudes will have to, have to do

better late than never
better safe than sorry better to have
loved and lost than never loved at all
better late than never
better safe than sorry
better to have loved

and I'll
wade through water
wade through sand and fire and ice
wade through water
to get to you

Hold on angel
not long now...

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lost for words

it's a beautiful thought
a beautiful mental image
a beautiful sun that's newborn every day
it's a beautiful thought
a beautiful song I'm whistling
a beautiful hope that lights me on my way

And I find myself lost for words for once

it's a comforting thought
a heartwarming mental image
a fairytale ending once the trauma's through
it's a beautiful thought
a hopeful refrain I'm whistling
a blistering torch that lights my way to you

And I find myself lost for words for once

it's a beautiful day
and a beautiful time to say
all the things we ever couldn't say
it's a beautiful day
and a beautiful chance
but not a word is spoken and the silence is unbroken 'cause I-

I find myself lost for words for once

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out on a limb

everyone takes a chance
times like these
you never can know for sure
at times like these
you try
you hope that you're in line

everyone's scared to death
times like these
everyone's put to test
by times like these
you try
you hold your breath and hope

and it's no secret
i'm out on a limb here

everyone's mouth is dry
times like these
everyone's brain is fried
at times like these
but you try
you hope that you're in line

everyone wants to cry
times like these
everyone thinks they'll die
from times like these
but you try
to hold your breath and go...

and it's no secret
i'm out on a limb here

everyone's scared to death (times like these)
everyone holds their breath (times likes these)

and it's no secret
i'm out on a limb here...

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